The Social Scene
So much has been going on and I just need a good rant. =]
Well, right now I'm in a big game of tug of war. Between Mom and Dad, two groups of my friends, bands....ect. The list goes on and on and on. I'm soon going to Virginia Beach in 5 DAYS! and I've been trying to focus on that. But while I've been spending so much time practicing for the band competition down there I haven't been keeping up with my friends. Right now, I just want to be accepted. Period. I don't have to be popular- well, I don't even want to be, and I don't need a bagillion people to hang around. I just want to know that when I leave I won't be totally forgotten, and I want to know that I don't have to "act" to fit in. I just want to be accepted as who I am- not who my "friends" are.
Everyone at school who tells me that they are there for me turn around and punch me in the gut in the long run. It pisses me off because everytime I'm there for someone, when I go to lean on them, they always blow it off like it's no big deal. Even dumb things like my gym teacher- I can never feel like it is ok to be into music and not soccer and hockey. I always end up being picked last and laughed at by my "best friends" when the game's over. I don't understand why people have to judge and criticize other people. From looks, to rich/poor, where they live, their grades, what their parents do for a living- no one admits it, but behind it all, they do criticize. I just want to know why there are "cliques" and the "in" crowd- because it just makes so many people's lives so fucking miserable. And drama. HA! What another story. "He said that she said that they said," god, it gets so old. Very Quickly. Is it just because people, I guess girls in particular, are so competative? Between guys and all the gossip that people fight over...its so old after awhile.
Especially now, I'm glad I have music. Because with out it I wouldn't only be completely lost- but I would probably have no distraction from all this shit going on. Ok, I think I'm a little better. Thanks for listening! Bye everyone!
-Katie xx
Well, right now I'm in a big game of tug of war. Between Mom and Dad, two groups of my friends, bands....ect. The list goes on and on and on. I'm soon going to Virginia Beach in 5 DAYS! and I've been trying to focus on that. But while I've been spending so much time practicing for the band competition down there I haven't been keeping up with my friends. Right now, I just want to be accepted. Period. I don't have to be popular- well, I don't even want to be, and I don't need a bagillion people to hang around. I just want to know that when I leave I won't be totally forgotten, and I want to know that I don't have to "act" to fit in. I just want to be accepted as who I am- not who my "friends" are.
Everyone at school who tells me that they are there for me turn around and punch me in the gut in the long run. It pisses me off because everytime I'm there for someone, when I go to lean on them, they always blow it off like it's no big deal. Even dumb things like my gym teacher- I can never feel like it is ok to be into music and not soccer and hockey. I always end up being picked last and laughed at by my "best friends" when the game's over. I don't understand why people have to judge and criticize other people. From looks, to rich/poor, where they live, their grades, what their parents do for a living- no one admits it, but behind it all, they do criticize. I just want to know why there are "cliques" and the "in" crowd- because it just makes so many people's lives so fucking miserable. And drama. HA! What another story. "He said that she said that they said," god, it gets so old. Very Quickly. Is it just because people, I guess girls in particular, are so competative? Between guys and all the gossip that people fight over...its so old after awhile.
Especially now, I'm glad I have music. Because with out it I wouldn't only be completely lost- but I would probably have no distraction from all this shit going on. Ok, I think I'm a little better. Thanks for listening! Bye everyone!
-Katie xx
Thank you, both. Today has been better- I'm just waiting out the 35 days left until High School- hopefully then everything will come together. Thanks! *hugs*
punk rock clarinets, April 24th, 2007 at 12:18:13am
Don't try and fit in with a crowd that you don't think are your friends.
I'd recommend trying to find a group that has a similar personality to you. That likes music etc.
Don't try and fit in with those girls if you feel that they'll make you feel miserable. That isn't a good recipe for a friendship.
Stef., April 21st, 2007 at 04:26:20am
I couldnt concur more. Music is awesome, like i said before, music is my 'glue'.
Isabel., April 21st, 2007 at 04:18:36am