public abuse & best friends.
Sunday, November 4th, 2007
The mall..a place where friends get together to hangout, shop and just have fun.
The two last parts were my intentions to do today.
So me and my lovely blue haired lady, Dani went to get ready, taking up to an hour to get pretty and such, almost missing the bus.
The mall..crowded as ever, people getting some early Christmas shopping, all those people wanting to get rid of the Christmas rush ending up making an early Christmas rush instead, Toys R' Us is crowded.
We head up to Hollister and I cast a greeting to my lovely gorgeous twin sister, Leedoll. She smiles at me, being too busy serving a customer, when the customer is gone she walks up to us and offers to give us a ride home when shes off in 2 hours.
The shopping begins...
We walk from store to store, trying out tons of things and buying stuff.
An hour and a half is up, time for a cup of Starbucks before Leedolly finishes her shift,
some form of tragedy..
We're talking about the party thats happening next weekend and before I know it..I hit the ground.
I would be lying if i said it didnt hurt, my wrist was aching from taking the fall on the last minute, I look up to a furious Dani and a shocked Jack and then I notice Kev, our school mate, top nerd if you ask me, looks the part to.
He and his army of geeks, 2 of the 5 also my schoolmates are laughing, i know he tripped me but me being me just got up and got ready to walk off like nothing had happened, I know Dani wants to kick the shit out of them and I know she can to but Mall Security is pretty strict here.
"Hey faggot boy, where you going?"
I ignored it, would have gone good if Dani did it to..but best friends always have your back.
So she walks up to them but the boys don't budge, they shove her and she being so little..so thin..so fragile, she falls.
Jack, poor Jack is like me, scared of violence, he goes to Dani and doesnt say a word.
Im shoved up against the wall, its a sort of an inside alley way, you know what i mean? theres two stores and a big gap between then, a short hallway and at the end an emergency exit, theres the wall im being pressed up against.
I know the worse they can do is punch me..and I brace myself for that..but thats not what happens.
I feel sick when i feel Kev's hand on my thigh, running dangerously close upwards, I feel tears forming in my eyes, Dani and Jack cant see this..they're in some kind of a verbal war with the other kids until I see Jack running off.
"you like that faggot?"
he reaches the end of my thigh, one swift movement..and hes crossed the line completely, but he doesnt.
think happy thoughts...think happy thoughts.
maybe ive been listening to too much My Chemical Romance..but i tell myself that.
So naturally, first thing coming to my head is Kazz <3
but Kev quickly throws the image away as he pushes me harder against the wall before letting go.
"you're such a whore, you didnt even resist"
was that it? am i really a whore? what will Kazz think..will he hate me?
be disgusted with me.
The reason I didnt cry..didn't resist was that I knew it wouldnt work, I knew he would just punch me...and i knew he wouldnt go too far...he only wanted to scare me..disgust me..he hates "fags".
They go away and Dani comes up, Jack had gone to get Leedolly.
Dani knows what happened and she doesnt say anything...she doesnt judge..she doesnt call him nasty names because she knows that doesnt work on me...she knows exactly what to do.
She hugs me, holds me...
"I love you butterfly"
she makes me smile..that nickname brings up memories..happy memories.
The previous events are washed out, I laugh.
Lee and Jack come shortly after, we get some Starbucks and we get in the car.
When we get home I go online, I check my MySpace comments...I didnt hear from Kazz yesterday..he made it up to me, he sent me a myspace comment, its sweet, it makes me tear up again..tears of joy..tears of relief.
Despite all of this...despite everything...
I'm so fucking lucky..<3
The mall..a place where friends get together to hangout, shop and just have fun.
The two last parts were my intentions to do today.
So me and my lovely blue haired lady, Dani went to get ready, taking up to an hour to get pretty and such, almost missing the bus.
The mall..crowded as ever, people getting some early Christmas shopping, all those people wanting to get rid of the Christmas rush ending up making an early Christmas rush instead, Toys R' Us is crowded.
We head up to Hollister and I cast a greeting to my lovely gorgeous twin sister, Leedoll. She smiles at me, being too busy serving a customer, when the customer is gone she walks up to us and offers to give us a ride home when shes off in 2 hours.
The shopping begins...
We walk from store to store, trying out tons of things and buying stuff.
An hour and a half is up, time for a cup of Starbucks before Leedolly finishes her shift,
some form of tragedy..
We're talking about the party thats happening next weekend and before I know it..I hit the ground.
I would be lying if i said it didnt hurt, my wrist was aching from taking the fall on the last minute, I look up to a furious Dani and a shocked Jack and then I notice Kev, our school mate, top nerd if you ask me, looks the part to.
He and his army of geeks, 2 of the 5 also my schoolmates are laughing, i know he tripped me but me being me just got up and got ready to walk off like nothing had happened, I know Dani wants to kick the shit out of them and I know she can to but Mall Security is pretty strict here.
"Hey faggot boy, where you going?"
I ignored it, would have gone good if Dani did it to..but best friends always have your back.
So she walks up to them but the boys don't budge, they shove her and she being so little..so thin..so fragile, she falls.
Jack, poor Jack is like me, scared of violence, he goes to Dani and doesnt say a word.
Im shoved up against the wall, its a sort of an inside alley way, you know what i mean? theres two stores and a big gap between then, a short hallway and at the end an emergency exit, theres the wall im being pressed up against.
I know the worse they can do is punch me..and I brace myself for that..but thats not what happens.
I feel sick when i feel Kev's hand on my thigh, running dangerously close upwards, I feel tears forming in my eyes, Dani and Jack cant see this..they're in some kind of a verbal war with the other kids until I see Jack running off.
"you like that faggot?"
he reaches the end of my thigh, one swift movement..and hes crossed the line completely, but he doesnt.
think happy thoughts...think happy thoughts.
maybe ive been listening to too much My Chemical Romance..but i tell myself that.
So naturally, first thing coming to my head is Kazz <3
but Kev quickly throws the image away as he pushes me harder against the wall before letting go.
"you're such a whore, you didnt even resist"
was that it? am i really a whore? what will Kazz think..will he hate me?
be disgusted with me.
The reason I didnt cry..didn't resist was that I knew it wouldnt work, I knew he would just punch me...and i knew he wouldnt go too far...he only wanted to scare me..disgust me..he hates "fags".
They go away and Dani comes up, Jack had gone to get Leedolly.
Dani knows what happened and she doesnt say anything...she doesnt judge..she doesnt call him nasty names because she knows that doesnt work on me...she knows exactly what to do.
She hugs me, holds me...
"I love you butterfly"
she makes me smile..that nickname brings up memories..happy memories.
The previous events are washed out, I laugh.
Lee and Jack come shortly after, we get some Starbucks and we get in the car.
When we get home I go online, I check my MySpace comments...I didnt hear from Kazz yesterday..he made it up to me, he sent me a myspace comment, its sweet, it makes me tear up again..tears of joy..tears of relief.
Despite all of this...despite everything...
I'm so fucking lucky..<3
What's that motherf*cker's address?
I'll murder him. It's not right that people judge other people.
That d*cktwat should get his head out of his ass. So what if you're not like him? Everyone is their own self. Not everyone can be the same. I'm so sorry that happened to you, hun, so very sorry.
*hug*
Ten Speed, December 11th, 2007 at 03:29:45am
wow, they sound like a bunch of tools.....hope your doing well
Vegemite, November 5th, 2007 at 02:22:15am
aww I am glad its over...
and in my town homophobes seem to rule everything...f.x. my principle and most of the teachers.
WaltzMoore, November 4th, 2007 at 10:45:55pm
Holy buns...
O_O
I'd probably risk getting arrested if anything like that happened to me. I'd pummel the sh*t outta him.
captain america, November 4th, 2007 at 10:08:07pm
*hugs* Oh my god.. I don't know what I'd do if I were you, but be thankful it's over. Those kids have no bussiness causing you trouble like that. I'm surprised a mall cop or something didn't notice and tried to stop it.
threeam., November 4th, 2007 at 09:34:35pm