Why Do I Want Him?
That's right, I need more advice on guys. I'm a complete failure when it comes to this subject, if you haven't noticed. 
Now anyways, on to my story:
My friends and I went rollerskating last night. It was Rhea, Cierra, Jill, Tori, Christian, Eli and I. If you read my last blog, you know I was having problems with Christian. Since I wrote that, I told him that I couldn't go out with him, because "I'm not gonna be ANYONE'S rebound." I said a couple harsh things to him, and I apologized. He apologized too, because he realized that what he was doing was hurting me.
Well, anyways, I showed up at the skating place with Cierra. Rhea instantly ran up and hugged me. I informed Jill that the night before, I had a dream that she broke my leg. I shouted, "Hey, Krusty, what's up?" to Christian, and high-fived Eli. Then Cierra and I got our skates on. I was pretty nervous to start skating, because I stink at it. "C'mon, it's gonna get easier after you do it for a while!" Rhea shouted. She skated at my pace [which was quite slow] with me for a while until I got used to it. I was still losing my balance every twenty seconds, though. I thought I was about to fall, when Christian skated to my side and held my hand to help me keep my balance. "Thanks," I said. He smiled and responded, "No problem."
He kept holding my hand for a while. When he let go, I got a little upset. I ignored that feeling, though. Every time I was about to fall, he'd come over to hold my hand. I felt really good about myself every time he did that. No one's ever made me feel like I was worth so much that they have to help me every time I'm going down. Even my best friends would let me fall, and then they'd laugh at me. I told myself not to get used to they way he was caring for me.
About halfway through our time skating, we all headed over to the food court. I wasn't hungry, so I just stood beside the line while my friends got food. All of a sudden, I felt someone hugging me from behind. "I love you," a voice said in my ear. It was Christian's voice. Me and my friends always tell eachother that we love eachother, so my friends didn't find what was going on to be a big deal. "I love you too," I told Christian. We skated over to a table to join the rest of our friends. Cierra and Tori were being loud and perverted, Jill was paying a lot of attention to her boyfriend, and me and Rhea were laughing for no reason. Nothing unusual, really. Anyways, back to the exciting stuff!
We headed back to the skating area. Of course I started losing my balance right away. He instantly skated over, put his arm around my shoulder, and held on to me tight. To be honest, a guy's never put his arm around my shoulder. "Hey, beautiful," I said and smiled. "Hey, sexy!" he shouted back. I laughed. We were still skating together for about ten minutes. He was still holding onto me tight, even when I had complete balance. I felt comfortable and safe when his arm was around my shoulder.
Every time I started losing my balance, he'd come back and hold onto me tight. He'd even come and put his arm around me when I was skating perfectly. I smiled wider and wider every time I felt his arm slip onto my shoulder.
After a while, I felt his arm around me and heard "You wanna play tag?" "NO NO NO NO NOOOO!" I yelled. "Oh, c'mon! You're a great skater, Alisha." "I'm too nervous! And I'm too slow..." I tried to escape from his grasp, but he wouldn't let go. "Please, can I go sit on the bench?" I asked softly and looked into his eyes. [My eyes are the best part about me, and I always take advantage of them.] He let go, and I sat on the bench.
When it was time to go home, I took off my skates and put on my shoes. I sat down on the wide, carpeted benches while we talked and laughed. Christian walked in front of me. "I want a hug," he said and sat next to me. He scooted closer to me. He kept scooting until he was practically on top of me! I rolled my eyes and smiled. I held out my arms. He smiled back at me and we hugged. I realized that he had such a cute smile.
So, I guess the point of this blog is, well...I like him, even after he hurt me. I'm not sure how he feels about me. I know there's always a part of him that likes Rhea, even if he cares for me so much. I don't know what I should do. Actually, I have no problem that involves me actually doing something right now. I'm just really, really confused. I just needed to tell someone all of this. Thanks for reading. <3
Now anyways, on to my story:My friends and I went rollerskating last night. It was Rhea, Cierra, Jill, Tori, Christian, Eli and I. If you read my last blog, you know I was having problems with Christian. Since I wrote that, I told him that I couldn't go out with him, because "I'm not gonna be ANYONE'S rebound." I said a couple harsh things to him, and I apologized. He apologized too, because he realized that what he was doing was hurting me.
Well, anyways, I showed up at the skating place with Cierra. Rhea instantly ran up and hugged me. I informed Jill that the night before, I had a dream that she broke my leg. I shouted, "Hey, Krusty, what's up?" to Christian, and high-fived Eli. Then Cierra and I got our skates on. I was pretty nervous to start skating, because I stink at it. "C'mon, it's gonna get easier after you do it for a while!" Rhea shouted. She skated at my pace [which was quite slow] with me for a while until I got used to it. I was still losing my balance every twenty seconds, though. I thought I was about to fall, when Christian skated to my side and held my hand to help me keep my balance. "Thanks," I said. He smiled and responded, "No problem."
He kept holding my hand for a while. When he let go, I got a little upset. I ignored that feeling, though. Every time I was about to fall, he'd come over to hold my hand. I felt really good about myself every time he did that. No one's ever made me feel like I was worth so much that they have to help me every time I'm going down. Even my best friends would let me fall, and then they'd laugh at me. I told myself not to get used to they way he was caring for me.
About halfway through our time skating, we all headed over to the food court. I wasn't hungry, so I just stood beside the line while my friends got food. All of a sudden, I felt someone hugging me from behind. "I love you," a voice said in my ear. It was Christian's voice. Me and my friends always tell eachother that we love eachother, so my friends didn't find what was going on to be a big deal. "I love you too," I told Christian. We skated over to a table to join the rest of our friends. Cierra and Tori were being loud and perverted, Jill was paying a lot of attention to her boyfriend, and me and Rhea were laughing for no reason. Nothing unusual, really. Anyways, back to the exciting stuff!
We headed back to the skating area. Of course I started losing my balance right away. He instantly skated over, put his arm around my shoulder, and held on to me tight. To be honest, a guy's never put his arm around my shoulder. "Hey, beautiful," I said and smiled. "Hey, sexy!" he shouted back. I laughed. We were still skating together for about ten minutes. He was still holding onto me tight, even when I had complete balance. I felt comfortable and safe when his arm was around my shoulder.
Every time I started losing my balance, he'd come back and hold onto me tight. He'd even come and put his arm around me when I was skating perfectly. I smiled wider and wider every time I felt his arm slip onto my shoulder.
After a while, I felt his arm around me and heard "You wanna play tag?" "NO NO NO NO NOOOO!" I yelled. "Oh, c'mon! You're a great skater, Alisha." "I'm too nervous! And I'm too slow..." I tried to escape from his grasp, but he wouldn't let go. "Please, can I go sit on the bench?" I asked softly and looked into his eyes. [My eyes are the best part about me, and I always take advantage of them.] He let go, and I sat on the bench.
When it was time to go home, I took off my skates and put on my shoes. I sat down on the wide, carpeted benches while we talked and laughed. Christian walked in front of me. "I want a hug," he said and sat next to me. He scooted closer to me. He kept scooting until he was practically on top of me! I rolled my eyes and smiled. I held out my arms. He smiled back at me and we hugged. I realized that he had such a cute smile.
So, I guess the point of this blog is, well...I like him, even after he hurt me. I'm not sure how he feels about me. I know there's always a part of him that likes Rhea, even if he cares for me so much. I don't know what I should do. Actually, I have no problem that involves me actually doing something right now. I'm just really, really confused. I just needed to tell someone all of this. Thanks for reading. <3
Jessie.Tastic!, you weren't harsh or insulting at all. I appreciate your honest advice. =]
Andrew Volpe, January 1st, 2008 at 06:13:56am
i don't know what to tell you DDD: !
im bad at boys..
DDDD: !
<3
i wish i could help..
i really do D:
im just bad...at advice..
odaang! its kaycie., January 1st, 2008 at 02:04:06am
You may want to think twice about liking him. This is going to sound rude and harsh but when it comes to advice, I don't spare feelings. Now if you haven't had much attention from boys, which isn't a bad thing, some attention and flirting like this may really spark something in you and make you really think you like him. Or just the fact that he might have an interest in you want to like him so bad you think you actually do.
Now i may be wrong here and you really do. But instead of just admitting to yourself that you like him just because of that one skating trip, give it a bit. If those feelings don't change than you really do like him.
I guarntee that if you act on these feelings by going out with him that you and your friends relationship will be screwed up. Don't let some boy who, from what it sounds like, will just dump you later and break your heart ruin your friendship.
Jessie.Tastic!, January 1st, 2008 at 01:15:48am
hmm not really sure on what to say here. its always awkward talking about this subject for me really. but i just have to say, follow what you think is right for future events. go with your heart, ive lost a bit of friends with my last relationship but most have stuck by me. ive got a friend who's "flirting" with me and im still not quite sure on how i feel about him. im in kinda the same thing as you, except im the one who just got off a relationship, not him.
Darth Vader!, December 31st, 2007 at 11:03:48pm
....im not sure....does he always flirt with everyone?
Vampire Chick, December 31st, 2007 at 10:53:29pm