What makes an outcast?

What exactly makes a person become separated from the rest in their class/team/club? It is just the way they look, lack of humor, shyness, or what?

If you haven't already guessed, I'm a bit of an outcast. I'm not very open to a lot of people maybe... Um... 5? It goes vice-versa as well. Even with some of my not-as-close friends, they'll talk and say, "I'll tell you later," or "I'd rather not say.".

I respect their privacy, it's just that a person likes to feel included. Today in English class I sat by myself with one of my friends while working on a report. Everybody else had gotten into their own big groups and started to talk and laugh. It made me sad to know that I couldn't talk and laugh with them. Any group I joined would stop talking and die out. So, not even trying, I stayed where I was.

I'll be glad to go to high school where nobody knows me and I can start off frresh. But what if I'm an outcast there too? I can't stand being on the outside. It kills me on the inside. I honestly don't know what I'm doing wrong. It makes me feel ugly and like a bad person, but I'm pretty sure I'm not. Or so says my friends, but I'm pretty sure they wouldn't be even close to brutaly honest.

I just don't know what's wrong. So... Yeah. Thank for reading. ofrgive me for it being extremely long and vent-ish.
Posted on March 11th, 2008 at 05:26pm

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