Hold On...If You Feel Like Letting Go.... ((Well my rope's snapped...))
Honestly lately I don't know how I've survived without stabbing myself. Sure, I've cut but still, that didn't help enough.
Last night I cried myself to sleep. Now I'm crying again. I'm sick of everything going on. I honestly can't handle this and need to get out. I'm tired of all the fights and smoke.
This can't ALL be my fault, but maybe it is. Maybe I was that horrible of child... I know my mom wishes she could start over. I didn't turn out right...ITs hard to coming from white trash basically.
My dad has agirlfriend and he smokes still. I can't stand hiding the fact I know he has teh girlfriend.
I can't stand holding all my feelings way. I just can't, its too hard to and I don't know what to do. I'm sick of being the fat one too. I'm sick of my parents not eating and being obese.
I'm sick of feeling I'm never good enough. I can't ever please anyone....there fore neither can I please myself.
I feel the pressure to be 5'6 and 100 pounds instead of 148, I feel the pressure to get all A's instead of A's,B's,and C's.
I feel the pressure to pay bills and be the "man of the house".
I just can't handle this all.
I'm honestly not a child. I'm an adult.
Last night I cried myself to sleep. Now I'm crying again. I'm sick of everything going on. I honestly can't handle this and need to get out. I'm tired of all the fights and smoke.
This can't ALL be my fault, but maybe it is. Maybe I was that horrible of child... I know my mom wishes she could start over. I didn't turn out right...ITs hard to coming from white trash basically.
My dad has agirlfriend and he smokes still. I can't stand hiding the fact I know he has teh girlfriend.
I can't stand holding all my feelings way. I just can't, its too hard to and I don't know what to do. I'm sick of being the fat one too. I'm sick of my parents not eating and being obese.
I'm sick of feeling I'm never good enough. I can't ever please anyone....there fore neither can I please myself.
I feel the pressure to be 5'6 and 100 pounds instead of 148, I feel the pressure to get all A's instead of A's,B's,and C's.
I feel the pressure to pay bills and be the "man of the house".
I just can't handle this all.
I'm honestly not a child. I'm an adult.
I know I might have a problem. Most girls at thirteen or fourteen are realitivly lean and thin. 113 is the minimum for adults at 5 foot 6.
Heroin Bob, May 14th, 2008 at 11:33:56pm
5'6 is too tall for 113 lbs.
Andreanus., May 14th, 2008 at 06:53:24pm
Okay, no offense, but this whole thing is getting old.
At your age, you shouldn't be 113. You should be at least 120.
I was 115 in ninth grade, and my doctor told me something bad could happen to me if I didn't get my weight up.
You're skinny enough, I've seen pictures.
I'm worried about you. You've gone too overboard with this whole weight thing, and I'm afraid that you'll become anerexic or something.
No girl above the age of 12 should be 113 pounds.
It may look like you're skinny, but there's so many health risks, and soon you'll be as thin as a twig and no one would wanna come near you, because they're afraid they're going to split you in two.
D:
captain america, May 14th, 2008 at 05:50:06pm
I know thats the song. Thats what I titled it.
I'm trying to lose weight, don't give me that crap. I lost about 27 pounds since December, took til Feburary.
40 to go...I'll be 113 then.
Heroin Bob, May 13th, 2008 at 08:13:29pm
awww....
feel better...i dont know how..but i just dont want you to hurt yourself...
the title..is a song...listen to the song...
'HOLD ON IF YOU FEEL LIKE LETTING GO'
HOLD ON, IT GETS BETTER THAN YOU KNOW'
wish.i.was.dave, May 13th, 2008 at 07:34:41pm
You could try to lose weight? :)
Sitting around writing a blog about it isn't going to make you any thinner.
I say, try your absolute best in school. If you don't get A's, B's and C's, well that's okay. Because then you know you tried your hardest.
-HUG-
Skippy; Ricolaaa!, May 13th, 2008 at 09:17:39am
brompton cocktail., May 13th, 2008 at 09:54:25am
You could try to lose weight? :)
Sitting around writing a blog about it isn't going to make you any thinner.
I say, try your absolute best in school. If you don't get A's, B's and C's, well that's okay. Because then you know you tried your hardest.
-HUG-
Skippy., May 13th, 2008 at 02:17:39am
I feel like i can complety relate.
I've never cut myself. Internal wounds hurt too much to go that far. They've paralized me.
I have cried myself to sleep time and time again. I hate it. When yo uwake up, you feel heavy and never want to get up.
My Parents are still together. I wish they weren't. Having both of them make one another upset hurts me.
My dad doesn't smoke. he drinks. I think he does it so he doen't need his depression medication. He hates crying to sleep aswell.
Both my parents are obese and i'm almost there. I'm barley even five feet and I weigh 108 pounds. I workout so hard but all you can really see is fat. Of course when people hear how much i weigh, they assume i'm thin. The problem is, when you're short and your curves haven't leveled out, you get a countless numbe rof spare tires.
I look in the mirror and remember why i've never been loved.
I feel the pressure to Pass. I started of as a wiz kid and now i'm failing everything. When i hear how eveyon eis happy about passing and getting C's or B's, I relises what a failure i am.
I cannot even hold a job, let alone help out with my house.
Melancholy
Umberto, May 13th, 2008 at 01:37:48am