I feel like ranting. :D
I haven't hung out with many people all year. To be honest, I've been drifting away from most people. I mean, my best friend is in town for three days and we're trying to get our old group back together, but that group isn't clicking any more.
We aren't all friends, we're fighting, well I'm not, but everyone else is.
We wanted to have a goodbye party for Janet either tomorrow or Wednesday, cause she was adopted by her grandparents and is moving away. We got most of the group back together, but then Tasha comes and hangs out with me for the first time since like February. I found out that she has a boyfriend. Yeah, no big deal, right? Wrong. Her boyfriend is a drug dealer and he also does drugs. Now Tasha's into it, but from what I remember, we weren't supposed to do that kind of stuff. When she found out about the one time I decided to go get high, she was in my face. She was pushing me around and she told me never to do it again. We made a promise. We promised that both of us wouldn't do any drugs, whatsoever. Well half a year has passed, and she's given some bastard her virginity, and she broke our promise. And it hurt to find it out from someone she isn't even friends with.
The least she could have done was told me herself, but I had to find out the hard way.
My group of friends is disappearing, half the kids I hang out with have been in Juvi or group homes or something like that, they drink, they smoke and they're in and out of jail.
And I still wonder why the hell I hang out with them.
But it's all going to change once Janet moves away. She kept us all together. As soon as she leaves, I'll have like no contact with any of my old friends.
Except for Libby. :] She's pretty much the only one I can trust right now. :[
We aren't all friends, we're fighting, well I'm not, but everyone else is.
We wanted to have a goodbye party for Janet either tomorrow or Wednesday, cause she was adopted by her grandparents and is moving away. We got most of the group back together, but then Tasha comes and hangs out with me for the first time since like February. I found out that she has a boyfriend. Yeah, no big deal, right? Wrong. Her boyfriend is a drug dealer and he also does drugs. Now Tasha's into it, but from what I remember, we weren't supposed to do that kind of stuff. When she found out about the one time I decided to go get high, she was in my face. She was pushing me around and she told me never to do it again. We made a promise. We promised that both of us wouldn't do any drugs, whatsoever. Well half a year has passed, and she's given some bastard her virginity, and she broke our promise. And it hurt to find it out from someone she isn't even friends with.
The least she could have done was told me herself, but I had to find out the hard way.
My group of friends is disappearing, half the kids I hang out with have been in Juvi or group homes or something like that, they drink, they smoke and they're in and out of jail.
And I still wonder why the hell I hang out with them.
But it's all going to change once Janet moves away. She kept us all together. As soon as she leaves, I'll have like no contact with any of my old friends.
Except for Libby. :] She's pretty much the only one I can trust right now. :[
I know it must be a difficult time, seeing your friends falling apart at the seams and changing drastically infront of you, but maybe this is happeneing for a reason. That's what I try and think with things that don't always go how we want them to; maybe they're meant to happen in order to trigger off something [hopefully better] in the future.
But as I probably always say to everyone on here, i'm always here if you ever wanna chat, 'kay Slappy? Just drop me a PM/comment ex-ce-ter-ra, ex-ce-ter-ra.
hope that somehow helped D:
you take care.x
Trusty Chords., June 18th, 2008 at 02:14:07am
This is happening to me right now, I always come home after school and come on here. And now that summers here, the computers the only thing I got. I used to have a big group of freinds but then things started happening and things change, we grow up. Its all part of the system. Memories are seriously something to treasure.
Drummergirl, June 17th, 2008 at 05:17:28pm
*sigh* Huh, as hard as it is to believe, thats kind of what happens when people grow up, some make bad choices, some drift away, and some actually make it. I've already lost most of my friends, except for maybe 2, but life goes on...as long as you let it.
(How do Lushotology peeps pray, cuz I'm praying yer one of the ones who makes it)
Who Stole My Pants?, June 17th, 2008 at 07:58:26am
-snuggles-
Ah Lurve Yooh Wifeh.
blood.sex.and booze, June 17th, 2008 at 07:42:30am