Dear Al,
I've been thinking about you a lot lately, and I just wish things were how they were when we were younger.
I miss hanging out with you everyday, talking shit about John, my Philifjadjfkhsdgno neighbor. I miss going on trips out of state with you and your grandparents. I miss riding our bikes all around Westchester. I miss going to Golden State Mall and being followed by all the security guards because we were the only white people. I miss hanging at your grandmas like it was the thing to do. I miss ChaCha, your 12 pound teacup chihuahua. I miss Judy and Dave. I miss IMing each other even though you were only a room away on our other computer. I miss all our inside jokes. I miss us dressing up as scene kids and prancing around like we were the bees knees. I miss everything. I miss my best friend.
It really sucks to never see you anymore. It's been almost six months since I've seen you last. We used to always talk on MySpace, but now we don't even do that. You never want to hang out with me anymore, you've moved on to new friends. It kills me that I invite you to come over but you always refuse. You'd rather hang with them, the people that caused you to go to the hospital. The ones that made you almost die because they pressured you to do all those drugs. The ones that betray you time and time again. Yet I'm always the one that you IM on AIM complaining about them. Then you tell me that I'm your only true friend, that you hate everyone of your other friends, but you still continue to be friends with them. I just don't get it, I just don't.
I want my best friend back...
I miss hanging out with you everyday, talking shit about John, my Philifjadjfkhsdgno neighbor. I miss going on trips out of state with you and your grandparents. I miss riding our bikes all around Westchester. I miss going to Golden State Mall and being followed by all the security guards because we were the only white people. I miss hanging at your grandmas like it was the thing to do. I miss ChaCha, your 12 pound teacup chihuahua. I miss Judy and Dave. I miss IMing each other even though you were only a room away on our other computer. I miss all our inside jokes. I miss us dressing up as scene kids and prancing around like we were the bees knees. I miss everything. I miss my best friend.
It really sucks to never see you anymore. It's been almost six months since I've seen you last. We used to always talk on MySpace, but now we don't even do that. You never want to hang out with me anymore, you've moved on to new friends. It kills me that I invite you to come over but you always refuse. You'd rather hang with them, the people that caused you to go to the hospital. The ones that made you almost die because they pressured you to do all those drugs. The ones that betray you time and time again. Yet I'm always the one that you IM on AIM complaining about them. Then you tell me that I'm your only true friend, that you hate everyone of your other friends, but you still continue to be friends with them. I just don't get it, I just don't.
I want my best friend back...
She doesn't do drugs anymore, at least that's what she told me. & I told her I had her back, and guess what, I'm still on the other side waiting.
Sarah Elvis Gutsley., July 14th, 2008 at 08:23:41pm
Sad as it is, things won't change for her until she is ready to give up the drugs. Even though she may say she dislikes her 'friends' etc she gets from them what she craves right now. Most kids do pass through this though. I sincerely hope she does too, and maybe your role in the friendship is to be waiting on the other side for her. If she does try to get out of it, she is going to need a good friend who has her back. Her current 'friends' won't appreciate it if she tries to leave all that behind. It's just the way it is I'm afraid.
weta, July 14th, 2008 at 12:46:38pm
You know as hard as it is I think you should call her up and tell her all of this. At least she'll know and maybe eventually understand. If you guys still have friendship left it'll always be there. It just depends on whether or not you can re-light it. I know how you feel though, I really do.
XD Lmfao Skippy. When I read the word "Westchester" I thought "OH SHEEZ."
threeam., July 14th, 2008 at 09:25:30am
:'(
I miss my best friend too.
You should show this blog to her.
OHMYFUG@WESTCHESTER.
the beatles., July 14th, 2008 at 06:46:52am
>:[
awe sarahh
i dont know what to say except that i feel really bad
losing friends always sucks ,
i would say try to talk to her , but it seems like you've been trying
i love you <3
death cab for jackie, July 14th, 2008 at 06:46:23am