It went by so fast.
So it's getting close to the one year anniversary of my best friend's death and it's really been bothering me lately. This is my first summer without her. Last summer, i spent every single day with her. We went to warped tour together with out backstage passes and met some amazing people. She opened me up to a whole new world. We did everything together; concerts, sleepovers, shopping, everything. Things seem so empty without her. I mean, this year i'm going to warped by myself because no one else wants to go with me and i havnt had a sleepover in god knows when...I just miss her being there to cheer me up even if it took slapping me and telling me to shut the fuck up. All the little things add up and make me miss her more and more everyday.
Sometimes, when i really think about it...i start to feel bad. I wonder to myself; Did she think of me the same way i thought of her? Were we really that good of friends? Is she mad at me for bragging about her all the time? All these questions will never be answered and that kills me. And another thing, (Keep in mind, i'm a christian.) i always wonder if she really is in heaven...or if i'll even see her again. The thought of never ever seeing her again scares me so bad. There's so many things i still want to tell her about and so many things i have to tell her that i didn't get the chance to say before.
All i know is that i would give up anything to have her back. I don't understand why God takes the best of us...still to this day. But i guess i never will. =/
Before you say anything, no we arn't lesbian. We used to kiss all the time, thats how close we were. I miss these a shit load.
Warped Tour<3
School
Rest In Peace Angawiwy.
I love you forever and always.
1992-2007<3
Sometimes, when i really think about it...i start to feel bad. I wonder to myself; Did she think of me the same way i thought of her? Were we really that good of friends? Is she mad at me for bragging about her all the time? All these questions will never be answered and that kills me. And another thing, (Keep in mind, i'm a christian.) i always wonder if she really is in heaven...or if i'll even see her again. The thought of never ever seeing her again scares me so bad. There's so many things i still want to tell her about and so many things i have to tell her that i didn't get the chance to say before.
All i know is that i would give up anything to have her back. I don't understand why God takes the best of us...still to this day. But i guess i never will. =/
Before you say anything, no we arn't lesbian. We used to kiss all the time, thats how close we were. I miss these a shit load.
Warped Tour<3
School
Rest In Peace Angawiwy.
I love you forever and always.
1992-2007<3
That bought a tear to my eye,
what you had was beautiful
and nno amout of words can sum up how sorry I'm for your loss........
Sherlock Holmes, July 15th, 2008 at 10:51:04am
im always here for you Katie
yeh, God does take the best. f*ck knows why
and it sucks.
joel, July 15th, 2008 at 10:33:22am
I've lost a lot of people in my life and I know it doesn't matter when people say " You'll get through this" because I know for a fact it doesn't feel like it at the time.
This might sound insane and I know exactly what I'm talking about for a change, but send some love to her quietly in your head, say it out loud and talk to her because she is listening. She may not be with you in physical form but she's there in spirit and I know for a fact, spirits go back to watch over those they care about. She's with you and don't forget that, because she hasn't.
schooldropout, July 15th, 2008 at 09:55:30am
:'(
I bet she's in heaven. The best die young.
And I'm sure she'd want you to be happy.
Skippy., July 15th, 2008 at 02:48:35am
i'm sorry :(
princess consuela, July 15th, 2008 at 01:58:26am
I've lost best friends before, but never to something like death. That's really horrible. =/ Just hang in there though. I'll bet she misses you the same way you miss her. She's always there, and to her you'll always be there too.
threeam., July 15th, 2008 at 01:42:37am
I'm sorry. I understand how you feel. I just lost my best friend not even a few weeks ago.
Woodrow Derenberger, July 15th, 2008 at 12:47:56am
=[ I'm so sorry.
She'll always be with you, even if it's not in person.
I'm sure she misses you like you miss her right now.
I'm so sorry for your loss *hugs* ♥
Bubble Wrap., July 15th, 2008 at 12:10:46am
Aw, hun im srry, i know how bad loss can be. My advice is to think of it how she was, and keep all the memories as close as you are. believe it or not it does help hun. Im sure she felt the same way too. you two were obviously very close...and you know if you're christian and all..you believein prayer..i think you could still pray or talk to other ppl ya know..you could pray or talk to her, and tell her the things you want to tell her now hun... and how bout this..where are you going to warped tour?...i cant make any garuntees, but i can meet you there if im able to get there..then you wont be alone. go see whatever you want, n chill before i gotta go back...if you want..i cant garuntee it, but ill most deffinately try...
syco-cheechoo2, July 15th, 2008 at 12:07:46am
aww this is a good blog
I bet she is happy, that u wrote this and still remember her and your guy's memories.
*hugs tightly* if you need to talk i'm always here
Rain, July 15th, 2008 at 12:07:23am