I feel like I'm loosing it..
Something happened that shook me worse than anything has in a while. Yeah I know in time I'll be alright but for now it really hurts. I feel like a big part of me died or something. I wanted to go back to my old habit of cutting. But I knew it'd never fix things despite how much I thought. I'm not looking for a attention or anything. I just needed to get this out. It's like a release (if that makes sense) But in the end I will rise above this just like in the Seether song Rise Above This'. But read the song below. It's pretty much how I feel.
Just Feel Better by Santana featuring Steven Tyler from Aerosmith
She said I feel stranded
And I can't tell anymore
If we coming or I'm going
It's not how I planed it
I've got the key to the door
But it just won't open
And I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
That life happens for a reason
I don't, I don't, I don't
It goes I never went before
But this time, this time
I'm gonna try anything that just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything that just feel better
And I can't find my way
Girl I need a change
And I do anything that just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better
She said I need you to hold me
I'm a little far from the shore
And I'm afraid of sinking
You're the only one knows me
And who doesn't ignore
That my soul is weeping
I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
Everything must have it seasons
Round and round it goes
And every day's a one before
But this time, this time
I'm gonna try anything that just feels better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything that just feel better
And I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything that just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better
Long to hold you in my arms
To all things I ought to leave behind, yeah
It's really getting nowhere
I think I need a little help this time!
Yeah
[Guitar solo]
I'm gonna try anything that just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything that just feel better
And I can't find my way
Girl I need a change
And I do anything that just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better
Andie said everything that needed to be said.
I am here if you need someone to talk to. ):
brompton cocktail., July 16th, 2008 at 04:59:08pm
Andie said it all Sam.
I am here for you as much as I can be from across the other side of the world. If I could get in my car and drive to your house I would. I'd take you out and do whatever it took til I saw a huge smile on your face. Remember, somewhere out there is someone who will take the greatest of care with your heart, and that someone will make you the happiest woman alive.
*hugs tight*
Cradle of Fear, July 16th, 2008 at 12:31:39am
I have no idea what's going on in your life, however, I hope you get through it. Go for a walk, clear your head, sit in a swing at a park for a bit. Do something that will allow you to breathe. You'll be okay.
threeam., July 15th, 2008 at 11:46:24pm
i'm so sorry, sam, that you had to go through this. it still makes me sick to think that someone would mess with you and your emotions like this. and you're right, you will rise above this because you are better than this. this is going to make you stronger one day. you're too much of an amazing person to let this stop you from changing the world. you know that i'm here whenever i'd like to talk. <3
a.n.d.i.e., July 15th, 2008 at 09:28:01pm
*hugs* I know you've PMed me and stuff about this, and I'm sorry I haven't been much help. I wish there was something I could do. I'm still here if you need someone to talk to though.
Bubble Wrap., July 15th, 2008 at 09:06:31pm
aww -hug-
you know if you ever need anything im allways online,
i know how you feel
and it's hard , alot.
but you jsut have to look on the brighter side of things.
<3
SkittzySoSick, July 15th, 2008 at 07:24:13pm
aww sammy
Things will get better i know it. your a tough lil cookie and i know you wont break then or now. just try to remain positive. *hugs* i know how it feels.
if you need to talk: IM me, Email me, or even Pm me. I'll listen and try to help you the best i can.
*hugs tightly again*
Rain, July 15th, 2008 at 07:09:08pm