No one does, no one will.
Care: verb- (used without subject)
To be concerned or solicitous; to have thought or regard.
Over the past few weeks, I’ve come to realise something.
No one actually cares about me.
No one I know would go out of their way for me, hell, the people I know mostly only talk to me if they want something. Even my horse couldn’t give a stuff about who fed him, groomed him or rode him.
No one would give me a hug if I didn’t open my arms first.
I had to ask for at least a year to go to the optometrist; my eyesight was affecting my schoolwork.
I have only been to the dentist once.
I get ignored in class.
It takes weeks for people to be able to remember my name. And it’s not even long or uncommon.
Mum’s boyfriend is going to move in. He smokes, and I asked Mum if it would be okay if he didn’t smoke in the house because cigarette smoke makes me rather sick. You know what she said? “tough.”
If I fell over, no one would ask if I was okay.
If I was sick, still no one would give a damn.
I’ve never really had a friend I could trust completely.
Yes, I do talk to people on here. You are amazing people. But let’s face it, we’ve never met, we never will meet, and you don’t really care about that. Be honst, don't listen to your morals. Do you really care? Nope. Are you even really reading this? Probably not.
I’m not looking for “*hugs*” or “ D: ” I’m just so sick of this, and I need to get it off my chest.
And I know some of the reasons why no one cares:
-The way I look is… forgettable. Not outstanding. I’m not pretty, and I’m not horrifically ugly. I’m a bit overweight.
-I’m not outgoing. I will not go up to a stranger and say hi. I’m reserved and quiet, most of the time. It’s hard for me to even put this on GSB.
-I’m not useful. I’m disorganized, far from athletic, broke and I’m not really smart. Sure I can draw a little, but there are so many people out there whose art is at a standard I could never hope to reach.
Yes, there are so many people out there who have it so many more times worse than me.
I’m a whiny, ungrateful little bitch.
But I’m just not happy.
Flame me about it if you like, i'm not expecting anything good to come from this blog.
If I were a friend of yours in real life, I would care for you.
the beatles., July 23rd, 2008 at 09:13:41am
ok..... all i hear from you is "if this" and "if that".... correction... most of what i hear from you is "if this" and "if that" maybe you should try car pe deim.... seize the day... stop worrying about what people think of you... really its not all that important in life... people get all worked up over what everyone thinks of them because they have too much time on their hands.... too much time will always cause drama no matter what... because its the best subconsious way to pass time.... here's my advice.... work towards a job.... if you havnt got one yet... if your not old enough yet... then your job is to live life until you can get one... because once you slide into the boring norm of society (much as i have) friends and drama and "caring" really dosnt apply anymore.... sorry to give you such a grim outlook into the future... lol, but its not so bad....
S N A K E
Thatscooliguess, July 23rd, 2008 at 12:53:38am
Hey kiddo, you are far from a whiney, ungrateful b-tch. Like Camisado said, Just hang in there.
rosy-lynn, July 22nd, 2008 at 10:20:49pm
I've felt alone before. Not nearly as bad as you described, but I kinda know what you're going through. I agree with Camisado. I don't really know what you can do, except to just work through it. It won't always be like this. Trust me.
In My Insanity, July 22nd, 2008 at 05:37:14pm
In a way I know how you feel. I feel so completely alone, and un-loved it's unbearable. You aren't a whiney ungrateful b*tch. you're a human being, who's allowed to show emotion and be upset. things will get better eventually. just hang in there and fight through the rough times.
Bubble Wrap., July 22nd, 2008 at 05:21:41am