Jayden-Lou Butler
Wanted to make a blog for Jayden-Lou, seeing as though I never shut up about him..
I dont really know where to start..
I was told in January sometime I was going to be a dad.
Found out at the 12 week scan me and Carla were having a baby boy and decided on the name Jayden-Lou.
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He was born alive on 28th June 2008 and weighed 1lb 4oz, very prematurely, we didn't even get a chance to see him before he was whisked off to intensive care. We knew deep down he wouldn't make it. He died when he was less than a day old on the 29th June.
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The time I spent with him were the best hours of my life. To know I helped make such a perfect little boy, made me so fucking happy. He has a nose just like his mums. We weren't able to hold him while he was alive.. We could hold his hand but that's it, well i say hold, but, really his hand was the size of my thumbnail.
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Like I've said before, he is the most precious person in this world. Unless you've lost a baby, you'll never know what it feels like. Being a parent, is the best fucking feeling you can ever have. Jayden means everything to me, I'll never forget him, neither will his mum, he's made his mark in this world now, and will always be here.
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While he was in intensive care, he opened his little eyes, looked up at us for a split second and shut them again. It was like he knew he was going, and wanted to say bye. He's amazing and I'll never forget my son.
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Were gonna miss him so much, his due date is coming up soon, were releasing balloons for that.
Jayden-Lou,
You'll never know how much you meant to me, you mean so much.
I know your looking after mummy where you are, she misses you so much too.
Grandad would of loved to have known his grandson, well now he does.
Have fun playing with the angels.
I love you so much, always thinking about you, always in my mind.
Love your daddy.
[iknowimafuckingsoftshitbutheseriouslydoesmeantheworldtome]
I dont really know where to start..
I was told in January sometime I was going to be a dad.
Found out at the 12 week scan me and Carla were having a baby boy and decided on the name Jayden-Lou.
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He was born alive on 28th June 2008 and weighed 1lb 4oz, very prematurely, we didn't even get a chance to see him before he was whisked off to intensive care. We knew deep down he wouldn't make it. He died when he was less than a day old on the 29th June.
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The time I spent with him were the best hours of my life. To know I helped make such a perfect little boy, made me so fucking happy. He has a nose just like his mums. We weren't able to hold him while he was alive.. We could hold his hand but that's it, well i say hold, but, really his hand was the size of my thumbnail.
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Like I've said before, he is the most precious person in this world. Unless you've lost a baby, you'll never know what it feels like. Being a parent, is the best fucking feeling you can ever have. Jayden means everything to me, I'll never forget him, neither will his mum, he's made his mark in this world now, and will always be here.
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While he was in intensive care, he opened his little eyes, looked up at us for a split second and shut them again. It was like he knew he was going, and wanted to say bye. He's amazing and I'll never forget my son.
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Were gonna miss him so much, his due date is coming up soon, were releasing balloons for that.
Jayden-Lou,
You'll never know how much you meant to me, you mean so much.
I know your looking after mummy where you are, she misses you so much too.
Grandad would of loved to have known his grandson, well now he does.
Have fun playing with the angels.
I love you so much, always thinking about you, always in my mind.
Love your daddy.
[iknowimafuckingsoftshitbutheseriouslydoesmeantheworldtome]
I know I'm late commenting, but I'm so so sorry! Words can't express how much sadness I feel for you.
DaschundPup2007, September 27th, 2008 at 02:57:16am
I'm so sorry this happened to you.
You're not soft at all, you just have strong feelings for your child.
This is a beautifull blog, it made me cry.
That's all that I can say.
<3
Steph:DonaNobisPacem, August 12th, 2008 at 08:37:35am
awww this is a wonderful blog. Your not soft...Its good to see a guy to show thier feelings. there isnt anything wrong with it.
I'm sorry for your loss. And sorry if i acted mean toward u.
If you need to talk i'll be here.
<3
Rain, August 12th, 2008 at 04:06:47am
Aww, this blog made me cry :]
I don't really know what to say D:
*hugs*
Benjamin Barker, August 11th, 2008 at 11:50:56pm
I cant imagine your loss. I had a little girl back in Feb. and we gave her up for adoption when she was about a month old. giving her up was the worst feeling imaginable. I cant bear to think about what losing her would've been like. I'm sorry about you little boy.
Dean., August 11th, 2008 at 11:36:10pm
Exactly as Moonie said. <3 I'm so sorry this happened to you. I love you and I'm always here for you to talk to.
DeadxSunshine, August 11th, 2008 at 09:47:48pm
You're not soft Joel, you're a parent
and I love you and you know that I love hearing you talk about him <3
Treaklepants, August 11th, 2008 at 09:45:06pm
i'm so, so sorry. those are the only words i can think of to say.
get famous, August 11th, 2008 at 08:44:12pm
=[ omg...i'm so sorry...I really don't know what to say.
Bubble Wrap., August 11th, 2008 at 08:35:13pm
It's something you don't forget. Ever.
schooldropout, August 11th, 2008 at 07:44:02pm
Thats not soft, thats human.
Who Stole My Pants?, August 11th, 2008 at 04:52:43pm
That's terrible that you've had such a horrible thing happen to you, and yet sweet that you love him so much, I really don't have much to say.. ._.
Hell., August 11th, 2008 at 01:38:10pm