some advice please...=[
ok. so. austin...the guy i have been talking to who supposedly has a girlfriend...well we did some stuff last night.
it was more than kissing...but not sex. and i'm pretty sure that counts as cheating, if he does have a girlfriend. so now i'm really upset...i am really against cheating, i've had it done to me and it is so wrong...but i feel terrible cause i let him cheat on his girlfriend. with me. and now...if we ever do end up dating in the future...would he cheat on me just as easily? he dated my room mate a few years ago and she broke up with him cause he cheated on her. but he said he didn't and that anna just believed rumors...i wouldn't be surprised if it was all rumors and anna believed them cause thats something she would do...but still.
and i've never messed around with a guy i wasn't dating...i feel terrible. i'm not really against it, but i really really like austin,...but what if he thinks thats all we ever will be? friends with benefits or whatever...his girlfriend lives in his home town, so of course its probably really convenient to just have me here and her there...grr. why is there always drama with me. =[
i really like austin. a lot. i'm hoping that he doesn't really have a girlfriend. i mean, theres no proof of her. he has no pictures on his myspace profile. no top friends, no comments. only mentioned her once, casually. anna's cousin said he saw a picture of her, thats about it. he doesn't even know her name. he's going home today for a few hours and i'm worried that he might be going to see her...and if he is, i really hope hes not doing anything other than breaking up with her. cause i can't do this. i care about him, and he is the absolute BEST kisser ever, but i won't help him cheat on his girlfriend. to me, thats saying that he doesn't respect his girlfriend and he likes me but i'm not good enough to be his girlfriend.
this is really stupid, i don't know whats wrong with my personality or whatever, but recently the only thing guys like about me is my looks...=[
i don't know what to do about this. anyone have any suggestions?
it was more than kissing...but not sex. and i'm pretty sure that counts as cheating, if he does have a girlfriend. so now i'm really upset...i am really against cheating, i've had it done to me and it is so wrong...but i feel terrible cause i let him cheat on his girlfriend. with me. and now...if we ever do end up dating in the future...would he cheat on me just as easily? he dated my room mate a few years ago and she broke up with him cause he cheated on her. but he said he didn't and that anna just believed rumors...i wouldn't be surprised if it was all rumors and anna believed them cause thats something she would do...but still.
and i've never messed around with a guy i wasn't dating...i feel terrible. i'm not really against it, but i really really like austin,...but what if he thinks thats all we ever will be? friends with benefits or whatever...his girlfriend lives in his home town, so of course its probably really convenient to just have me here and her there...grr. why is there always drama with me. =[
i really like austin. a lot. i'm hoping that he doesn't really have a girlfriend. i mean, theres no proof of her. he has no pictures on his myspace profile. no top friends, no comments. only mentioned her once, casually. anna's cousin said he saw a picture of her, thats about it. he doesn't even know her name. he's going home today for a few hours and i'm worried that he might be going to see her...and if he is, i really hope hes not doing anything other than breaking up with her. cause i can't do this. i care about him, and he is the absolute BEST kisser ever, but i won't help him cheat on his girlfriend. to me, thats saying that he doesn't respect his girlfriend and he likes me but i'm not good enough to be his girlfriend.
this is really stupid, i don't know whats wrong with my personality or whatever, but recently the only thing guys like about me is my looks...=[
i don't know what to do about this. anyone have any suggestions?
