The Beast And The Harlot...(or Abi's mind right now)
...i've discovered that song recently. I fucking love it. My freind Zoe had it as her ringtone in the summer, when i thought it was just another metal song that sounded the same as all the rest of them.
But i was playing Guitar Hero at her house a week ago and kind of fell in love with the song.
And now it's digging up some stuff for me.
It's kind of like another anthem for last summer, i just didn't know the song at the time. But Zoe did. I think Kathy did. Grace probably did. And i'm sure Peggy did.
And i remember now, i'm not sure where, or exactly when, but i remember him singing it, one of those great days when we were all together, maybe it was at luchtime on 'our' bench, maybe it was in the park sitting round that tree, maybe it was walking through the trees in the school grounds, but i remember there was green. And he sung, "She's a dwelling place for demon's...She's a cage for every unclean spirit every filthy bird...". And Zoe smiled and we all smiled because the guy can sing. Really well. And this song is so...him. I dunno. I think it's one of his favourites and it just kind of... captures him. The tune and the music does.
With me not having spoken to him properly for, ooh, months, i think he's become slightly imaginary to me now. It's like i said in the canteen at luchtime to Emma, when all the other people at our table were having thier own conversations. I said, and i quote myself: "It's about two weeks since i've seen Peggy. You know, he's not really a face to me any more, i see it so little, he's a soul. It's not his appearance that defines him anymore, it's his presence."
She kind of looked at me for a couple of seconds "Poetic."
I stared into space for a couple more seconds then gave my head a little shake and put on a dazed, stupid grin. "Whaaa?"
Then we laughed. I think she's used to my melodramaticness now. She's helped me through tough times, she knows i'm a perpetually sad idiot sauvant type thing. She deals with it.
I've just put it on my Ipod, The Beast And The Harlot. I'll probably get used to it, now i can listen to it anytime. It will cease to mean anything.
Me and Zoe aare going to see Funeral For A Freind in May. We're planning on asking Peggy if he wants to come too. It's flogging a dead horse, really. He'll say no. We're not meant to talk to him ever again. Why would he want to go to a concert with his ex/ex best freind and that girl who he used to be fairly good freinds with but who 'fancys' him. I dunno. I suppose i thought Bullet was going to be flogging a dead horse. But that was booked by the Autumn, he couldn't back out of that, and we ended up having a great time. It's just getting him to say yes.
It'll be awkward anyway.
There's no point.
There'll only be three of us, it'll be uncomfortable.
His Ex freinds, best freinds till the end, you know the Fall out boy song. And maybe the last line applies too.
I dunno.
I've run out of things to say without rambling.
This was an insight into a stranger's life.
Cheayeah. Bored?
You really should be.
Interested?
Pervert.
Not really *hugs* *thinks on throwing virtual love to the internet to be a bit desperate* *shuts up*
I'm outta here.
But i was playing Guitar Hero at her house a week ago and kind of fell in love with the song.
And now it's digging up some stuff for me.
It's kind of like another anthem for last summer, i just didn't know the song at the time. But Zoe did. I think Kathy did. Grace probably did. And i'm sure Peggy did.
And i remember now, i'm not sure where, or exactly when, but i remember him singing it, one of those great days when we were all together, maybe it was at luchtime on 'our' bench, maybe it was in the park sitting round that tree, maybe it was walking through the trees in the school grounds, but i remember there was green. And he sung, "She's a dwelling place for demon's...She's a cage for every unclean spirit every filthy bird...". And Zoe smiled and we all smiled because the guy can sing. Really well. And this song is so...him. I dunno. I think it's one of his favourites and it just kind of... captures him. The tune and the music does.
With me not having spoken to him properly for, ooh, months, i think he's become slightly imaginary to me now. It's like i said in the canteen at luchtime to Emma, when all the other people at our table were having thier own conversations. I said, and i quote myself: "It's about two weeks since i've seen Peggy. You know, he's not really a face to me any more, i see it so little, he's a soul. It's not his appearance that defines him anymore, it's his presence."
She kind of looked at me for a couple of seconds "Poetic."
I stared into space for a couple more seconds then gave my head a little shake and put on a dazed, stupid grin. "Whaaa?"
Then we laughed. I think she's used to my melodramaticness now. She's helped me through tough times, she knows i'm a perpetually sad idiot sauvant type thing. She deals with it.
I've just put it on my Ipod, The Beast And The Harlot. I'll probably get used to it, now i can listen to it anytime. It will cease to mean anything.
Me and Zoe aare going to see Funeral For A Freind in May. We're planning on asking Peggy if he wants to come too. It's flogging a dead horse, really. He'll say no. We're not meant to talk to him ever again. Why would he want to go to a concert with his ex/ex best freind and that girl who he used to be fairly good freinds with but who 'fancys' him. I dunno. I suppose i thought Bullet was going to be flogging a dead horse. But that was booked by the Autumn, he couldn't back out of that, and we ended up having a great time. It's just getting him to say yes.
It'll be awkward anyway.
There's no point.
There'll only be three of us, it'll be uncomfortable.
His Ex freinds, best freinds till the end, you know the Fall out boy song. And maybe the last line applies too.
I dunno.
I've run out of things to say without rambling.
This was an insight into a stranger's life.
Cheayeah. Bored?
You really should be.
Interested?
Pervert.
Not really *hugs* *thinks on throwing virtual love to the internet to be a bit desperate* *shuts up*
I'm outta here.
