The Ballad of gone and going.
sometimes all you wish for
is for someone to wish for you.
I am so shattered right now that actually describing the events of the last few days would kill me. But I had an good time.
Besides that my cousin and I had a deep conversation this evening on the phone. She is really acting weird with me. Her ex is pissing her off again and naturally I step in and help and tell her it will be okay. She managed to turn the whole conversation around and aim it on me and my view's on love. Well, that was an interesting discussion.
I could argue for both sides about love. But I don't know why. I don't want to be one of those naive people who are all for love or nothing, but I would be lying if I said I didn't crave it.
At the same time I don't want it because it does tear you apart, shatter you over and over continually until you really can't feel or be arsed to feel anymore. And I guess everyone can identify with that.
I babbled myself into a corner of course and so she admitted that she was worried. For me? Surely not. I am more worried for her and my other friends and how they are feeling.
I understand that I have feelings and that they do matter but just not as much as other peoples. Despite how I come across to other people I tend to keep a snippet of myself inside. Even from my best friends.
Yeah, okay, like Gloria, in my little cow - shit waffle in my scraps, I am nervous around most people. So I end up blabbering and talking about nothing. I end up contradicting my self over and over, but really I am saying something completely different in my mind. I get tongue tied I guess.
I suppose I still have a problem with people and being comfortable around them. But I am working on it. I am not like Christian. But I would give anything to have a shell like that.
But, at the end of the day, people are different and I have to respect that. But so do you.
Anyway - Happy Halloween. Get a cup of coffee, some scary movies, Most Haunted live and turn off all the lights.
i just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart
for all the sleepless nights and for tearing me apart.
is for someone to wish for you.
I am so shattered right now that actually describing the events of the last few days would kill me. But I had an good time.
Besides that my cousin and I had a deep conversation this evening on the phone. She is really acting weird with me. Her ex is pissing her off again and naturally I step in and help and tell her it will be okay. She managed to turn the whole conversation around and aim it on me and my view's on love. Well, that was an interesting discussion.
I could argue for both sides about love. But I don't know why. I don't want to be one of those naive people who are all for love or nothing, but I would be lying if I said I didn't crave it.
At the same time I don't want it because it does tear you apart, shatter you over and over continually until you really can't feel or be arsed to feel anymore. And I guess everyone can identify with that.
I babbled myself into a corner of course and so she admitted that she was worried. For me? Surely not. I am more worried for her and my other friends and how they are feeling.
I understand that I have feelings and that they do matter but just not as much as other peoples. Despite how I come across to other people I tend to keep a snippet of myself inside. Even from my best friends.
Yeah, okay, like Gloria, in my little cow - shit waffle in my scraps, I am nervous around most people. So I end up blabbering and talking about nothing. I end up contradicting my self over and over, but really I am saying something completely different in my mind. I get tongue tied I guess.
I suppose I still have a problem with people and being comfortable around them. But I am working on it. I am not like Christian. But I would give anything to have a shell like that.
But, at the end of the day, people are different and I have to respect that. But so do you.
Anyway - Happy Halloween. Get a cup of coffee, some scary movies, Most Haunted live and turn off all the lights.
i just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart
for all the sleepless nights and for tearing me apart.
nah, I've got cheesy popcorn and mountain dew :D
captain america, October 31st, 2009 at 06:08:02pm