Suicide and self harm!

It saddens me to see that self-harm has become a trend. I have been suffered depression due to big family problems but i would never self harm.

I get the impression that alot of people lie about self harming because it can be considered "cool" by some people. Pssh its a subject that gets my quite riled so im not going to get into it.

I did it, and now I regret it. I have to wear long sleeved shirts 24/7 and I have to wear my sweats in P.E. so my friends or my parents don't give me shit about it.

Sara.:

HIDEtheSCARSwithAsmile:

I can't stop cutting myself. It's too hard. Every night, I think about cutting too deep. I don't nescessarily want to die, but the pain is just so satisfying. I recently started therapy for my treatment, and HATE IT! I've been cutting more and more as the next session comes nearer and nearer.

At the moment, I'm in soccer, and we have to wear short sleeves, so I cut my forearm. But before the soccer season, I cut my wrists.

I've told only my closest friends, but somehow (I know how. That bitch, Cahli told everyone) everyone knows now. All the descrimination hurts so much. I'm called "the emo freak" and "the retarded fake-cutter" constantly. i'm not "emo" and I don't fake it. http://360.yahoo.com/my_profile-BnVGZfM_frAZoXj9Bo4r3XTCvhFgPxzlVFzuUWJrYTM-?cq=1 --there are some pics there. If there's another cutter here, I'd really like to talk! Pm me!
Anna

... Most people don't flaunt it like you. Like for example in your Sig.. or your info on your yahoo thing. It kinda puzzled me. If you don't want all this attention for it maybe you could stop like throwing that around.
But it's good I guess that your open about you do.

I'm open about it because I want people to see that we as self-mutilators are just like everyone else. We're not scary or wierd. I like for people to know the truth about me. I feel like I can share these things, especially on GSB, because I don't know you personally, so I can kind of give and get help without hiding anything.

HIDEtheSCARSwithAsmile:

Sara.:

HIDEtheSCARSwithAsmile:

I can't stop cutting myself. It's too hard. Every night, I think about cutting too deep. I don't nescessarily want to die, but the pain is just so satisfying. I recently started therapy for my treatment, and HATE IT! I've been cutting more and more as the next session comes nearer and nearer.

At the moment, I'm in soccer, and we have to wear short sleeves, so I cut my forearm. But before the soccer season, I cut my wrists.

I've told only my closest friends, but somehow (I know how. That bitch, Cahli told everyone) everyone knows now. All the descrimination hurts so much. I'm called "the emo freak" and "the retarded fake-cutter" constantly. i'm not "emo" and I don't fake it. http://360.yahoo.com/my_profile-BnVGZfM_frAZoXj9Bo4r3XTCvhFgPxzlVFzuUWJrYTM-?cq=1 --there are some pics there. If there's another cutter here, I'd really like to talk! Pm me!
Anna

... Most people don't flaunt it like you. Like for example in your Sig.. or your info on your yahoo thing. It kinda puzzled me. If you don't want all this attention for it maybe you could stop like throwing that around.
But it's good I guess that your open about you do.

I'm open about it because I want people to see that we as self-mutilators are just like everyone else. We're not scary or wierd. I like for people to know the truth about me. I feel like I can share these things, especially on GSB, because I don't know you personally, so I can kind of give and get help without hiding anything.

no, we don't mean that you all aren't people, we're absolutely pissed that you wear it like a brownie badge, you need serious attention, so whether or not that's why you do it (or if you do it, which I seriously doubt because I know plenty of self-mutlatiors and as an ex-self-mutilator) you need the attention so you throw that out there

to be honest, no one says you're weird because everyone else is too busy not caring if you cut or not because the teenage population is so self-conceded they only think if others think that they're a tortured soul

so each person who puts their self-mutliation out there some self-mutilator tells no one and they are the ones who aren't under control

so please, shut the hell up, you don't know how much I hate it when people like you wear it like a fucking brownie badge because I've been there, I know plenty of people who have been there, and I know plenty of people who are there and I know way too many people who were quiet and never admitted and now they aren't here so just SHUT THE FUCK UP!

I'm sorry, but you have no idea how much it pisses me off that you put it out there

spill_no_sick:

so please, shut the hell up, you don't know how much I hate it when people like you wear it like a fucking brownie badge because I've been there, I know plenty of people who have been there, and I know plenty of people who are there and I know way too many people who were quiet and never admitted and now they aren't here so just SHUT THE FUCK UP!

Please don't insult other users.

I've almost died a couple of times, by choice. I've cut, I've been there. And I want to help anyone i can. It was a terrible experience, but it shaped me to be harder and I have knowledge. But i dont want people to go through it. Its bound to happen, but I want to help as many people i can, not to feel that way. So if anyone reads this and needs to talk to someone, PM me and stuff.

My friend killed herself, and it stopped me from cutting after I almsot killed myself after she did. I miss her a lot...

My grandmother committed suicide. It wasn't fair; she had money, her health, three amazing children, and four grandchildren who were robbed of knowing her, and other people who cared for her. Yes, her husband died, but he would have never wanted her to kill herself especially so selfishly. She even left food in the garbage disposal for my mother to clean up. And a lady who I consider to by one of my grandmothers had a son who committed suicide. Even years later during the anniversary of his death it still haunts her. No one should have to burry a child. A cousin who was close with my father fought in Vietnam and came back, but was haunted. He blew his head off by the back of his parent's trailer for camping. Imagine finding your son decapitated and hearing the gunshot that did it. It is awful.

I understand the need to cut, I've almost been down that road.
To cause harm to oneself is a personal issue, I believe any individual has full right to consider it, and put it into action. However I think it's selfish in some ways, because of the worrying it'd cause among friends and family who feel like they can't help. I realise that emotional turmoil and logic don't mix very well, however, everybody owes it to themselves to at least ATTEMPT to seek a different way to deal, or a safer outlet for their feelings. And before you all tear me apart for saying that just remember, I do understand where the need for self harm stems from. This is just me presenting a very cold view on it. I don't look upon cutters and such as incapable of dealing with their lives, as emotionally messed up or anything like that. Cutting should never be taken lightly. I don't care if you know not to cut too deep and hence won't kill youself from blood loss. The bottom line is, you're hurting yourself, and that should never be a small deal.
As for suicide, I've thought about that too, and once my head's cleared up I could see that it would have been a very selfish thing to do. I have friends and family who care about me, to leave them behind with grief and the unanswered question of why I did it would be wrong. I know that a lot of my problems come from unwillingness to communicate, and that's the fault of all parties involved. My best friend Sam attempted suicide by swallowing pills. I horrified and angry, seeing as she did it out of depression that she moved to a different country and left behind all her friends. It seemed to me like she was unwilling to give her new life a chance, to go out and experience a different culture and meet new people.
However, hers and my situations are different to those of other people's, so I can't say it's selfish of them, too, to commit suicide.

Cowboy from Hell:

It saddens me to see that self-harm has become a trend. I have been suffered depression due to big family problems but i would never self harm.

I get the impression that alot of people lie about self harming because it can be considered "cool" by some people. Pssh its a subject that gets my quite riled so im not going to get into it.

*pats head* Good

spill_no_sick:

HIDEtheSCARSwithAsmile:

Sara.:

HIDEtheSCARSwithAsmile:

I can't stop cutting myself. It's too hard. Every night, I think about cutting too deep. I don't nescessarily want to die, but the pain is just so satisfying. I recently started therapy for my treatment, and HATE IT! I've been cutting more and more as the next session comes nearer and nearer.

At the moment, I'm in soccer, and we have to wear short sleeves, so I cut my forearm. But before the soccer season, I cut my wrists.

I've told only my closest friends, but somehow (I know how. That bitch, Cahli told everyone) everyone knows now. All the descrimination hurts so much. I'm called "the emo freak" and "the retarded fake-cutter" constantly. i'm not "emo" and I don't fake it. http://360.yahoo.com/my_profile-BnVGZfM_frAZoXj9Bo4r3XTCvhFgPxzlVFzuUWJrYTM-?cq=1 --there are some pics there. If there's another cutter here, I'd really like to talk! Pm me!
Anna

... Most people don't flaunt it like you. Like for example in your Sig.. or your info on your yahoo thing. It kinda puzzled me. If you don't want all this attention for it maybe you could stop like throwing that around.
But it's good I guess that your open about you do.

I'm open about it because I want people to see that we as self-mutilators are just like everyone else. We're not scary or wierd. I like for people to know the truth about me. I feel like I can share these things, especially on GSB, because I don't know you personally, so I can kind of give and get help without hiding anything.

no, we don't mean that you all aren't people, we're absolutely pissed that you wear it like a brownie badge, you need serious attention, so whether or not that's why you do it (or if you do it, which I seriously doubt because I know plenty of self-mutlatiors and as an ex-self-mutilator) you need the attention so you throw that out there

to be honest, no one says you're weird because everyone else is too busy not caring if you cut or not because the teenage population is so self-conceded they only think if others think that they're a tortured soul

so each person who puts their self-mutliation out there some self-mutilator tells no one and they are the ones who aren't under control

so please, shut the hell up, you don't know how much I hate it when people like you wear it like a fucking brownie badge because I've been there, I know plenty of people who have been there, and I know plenty of people who are there and I know way too many people who were quiet and never admitted and now they aren't here so just SHUT THE FUCK UP!

I'm sorry, but you have no idea how much it pisses me off that you put it out there

I understand why you might not understand, but who does?
Anyway, as of about a week ago, I have decided that hurting myself doesn't appeal to me. I decided to take my anger and frustration and worries and instead, play the drums or guitar, or play soccer or something else I love to do.

I nearly commited suicide when I was 11 because I was being bullied so much. Then I met my best friend.

spill_no_sick:

HIDEtheSCARSwithAsmile:

Sara.:

HIDEtheSCARSwithAsmile:

I can't stop cutting myself. It's too hard. Every night, I think about cutting too deep. I don't nescessarily want to die, but the pain is just so satisfying. I recently started therapy for my treatment, and HATE IT! I've been cutting more and more as the next session comes nearer and nearer.

At the moment, I'm in soccer, and we have to wear short sleeves, so I cut my forearm. But before the soccer season, I cut my wrists.

I've told only my closest friends, but somehow (I know how. That bitch, Cahli told everyone) everyone knows now. All the descrimination hurts so much. I'm called "the emo freak" and "the retarded fake-cutter" constantly. i'm not "emo" and I don't fake it. http://360.yahoo.com/my_profile-BnVGZfM_frAZoXj9Bo4r3XTCvhFgPxzlVFzuUWJrYTM-?cq=1 --there are some pics there. If there's another cutter here, I'd really like to talk! Pm me!
Anna

... Most people don't flaunt it like you. Like for example in your Sig.. or your info on your yahoo thing. It kinda puzzled me. If you don't want all this attention for it maybe you could stop like throwing that around.
But it's good I guess that your open about you do.

I'm open about it because I want people to see that we as self-mutilators are just like everyone else. We're not scary or wierd. I like for people to know the truth about me. I feel like I can share these things, especially on GSB, because I don't know you personally, so I can kind of give and get help without hiding anything.

no, we don't mean that you all aren't people, we're absolutely pissed that you wear it like a brownie badge, you need serious attention, so whether or not that's why you do it (or if you do it, which I seriously doubt because I know plenty of self-mutlatiors and as an ex-self-mutilator) you need the attention so you throw that out there

to be honest, no one says you're weird because everyone else is too busy not caring if you cut or not because the teenage population is so self-conceded they only think if others think that they're a tortured soul

so each person who puts their self-mutliation out there some self-mutilator tells no one and they are the ones who aren't under control

so please, shut the hell up, you don't know how much I hate it when people like you wear it like a fucking brownie badge because I've been there, I know plenty of people who have been there, and I know plenty of people who are there and I know way too many people who were quiet and never admitted and now they aren't here so just SHUT THE FUCK UP!

I'm sorry, but you have no idea how much it pisses me off that you put it out there

thats exactly how i feel about it, it has just seem to become a fashion trend for SOME of the people that cut, but like you said its the ones that keep quiet about it are the ones that need help.

also i know some one who scratches herself and then goes around saying that she cut herself and no one is taking her seriously because she has hears stories of people cutting themselfs.

Hahaha, God I miss conversations with you, spill_no_sick.

WTF mhairi LOL:

I have cut. And i kept it a secret because i was shame. I was terrified someone was going to see.

My best freind told me she cuts last night. She carved her boyfreinds name into her arm. Im worried.

my sister used to cut her BF's name into her arm but i am ashamed to say that years ago that was actually a fashion thing.

WTF mhairi LOL:

Lucifers Angel:

WTF mhairi LOL:

I have cut. And i kept it a secret because i was shame. I was terrified someone was going to see.

My best freind told me she cuts last night. She carved her boyfreinds name into her arm. Im worried.

my sister used to cut her BF's name into her arm but i am ashamed to say that years ago that was actually a fashion thing.

Its not just the carving either. Cuts all up her arm. And on her thighs. I didnt even notice. Im supposed to be her best freind.

you cant go thinking like that, some people just wont talk about it and some are very good at hiding it, its not your fault you didnt notice.

WTF mhairi LOL:

I have cut. And i kept it a secret because i was shame. I was terrified someone was going to see.
My best freind told me she cuts last night. She carved her boyfreinds name into her arm. Im worried.

same with me except it was more of a fear of people rejecting me if I told them.
I told someone who then told the school social worker on me. It scared the living crap out of me because I thought she was gonna tell my parents. But she said as long as I keep talking to her and I don't become "suicidal" she doesn't have to tell anyone.

If I'm angry or desperately upset, I cause myself physical pain to help alleviate the emotional. Not to kill myself, or to see blood, just enough so I calm down. I have nothing more than grazes on my arms from rough objects. It actually helps. It's not a ritual, just a process which acts as a comfort blanket.

I know a few might say 'omg you cutter!', or 'stop parading', but I'm not parading self mutilation. I think that cutting with knives and razors is SERIOUSLY dangerous, and you need real help, immediately.

I never understood people who do that.maybe cause i never felt like doing it.but i'm sure that there are better ways of getting rid of the emotional pressure other than suicide and self harm.

It's been a week. A week since I cried myself to sleep, a week since I have tried so hard to make myself proud but fail, and a week since I have put a blade to my skin for purposes that are harmful. And to this point I'm proud. My parents are proud. My friends are proud. My gay-ass therapist is proud. I plan to stop. I've made a decision that cutting no longer appeals to me. I'm tired of the critisizement and tired of trying my hardest to cover up the scars. So in this statement, I pledge to hurt myself no longer. Wish me luck!
Thanks,
Anna

punkIStheSEX:

It's been a week. A week since I cried myself to sleep, a week since I have tried so hard to make myself proud but fail, and a week since I have put a blade to my skin for purposes that are harmful. And to this point I'm proud. My parents are proud. My friends are proud. My gay-ass therapist is proud. I plan to stop. I've made a decision that cutting no longer appeals to me. I'm tired of the critisizement and tired of trying my hardest to cover up the scars. So in this statement, I pledge to hurt myself no longer. Wish me luck!
Thanks,
Anna

good luck!!!! and just scream our way if life gets to much for you.