Seriously I suck at titles
You knew I was irreparably broken
And still you tried to fix me
Refused to let me lose my hope and
Showed me things I never thought I’d see
I’d cry myself to sleep
In your arms, under you watchful gaze
I wondered if you had gotten yourself in too deep?
No, you showed me your determination and it got us through those days
When I called your name, you were there
When I screamed in pain, you held me
If I was alone, you called just to say you cared
When all was dark, you helped me see
There were never any monsters
No ghosts, ghouls or killers
Just a horrible, irreversible disease
Which left me broken and shattered on my knees.
When it finally took me, you felt weak
I’d sit by your side and talk to you
I’d hug and sing to you, though you couldn’t hear me
I think you felt me though, I hope I helped you through
Now a decade on, you’re sitting at my grave
I’m sitting atop my headstone, smiling down on you
You haven’t changed a bit, in ten years, you haven’t aged
Suddenly you smile, and look up at me, you don’t see me though, why are you so happy?
You’re off back to your house, with little me in tow
I’m wondering why you’re laughing, it’s unlike you, I know
You’re rummaging in your draw, the one I know holds a gun
And suddenly I realise, with life and love, you’re done.
You sit down, load and cock it
Still smiling, you put it to your head.
“I’m coming sweetheart” you say, and pull the dreaded trigger
It’s all in slow motion as you fall onto the bed
And suddenly you’re next to me, holding me tight
I realise you didn’t give up your fight
You didn’t just lose your life
But instead, gained another here tonight