Enough, my mind is in OVERLOAD!

dont they get it the more they push me the harder i want to fail?
failing only to prove im not like them
failing at life
not school or my happiness 'cause that will never happen
you make me want to throw my high top in the tip
another diagnosis doesnt help what i think
she answered my questions for me.
i lied.
she doesnt know it
the doc just laughed.
gosh, it would be funny if you saw the truth

analysing things i say
every blink seems like you watch me
i just want to scream
rip out your fucking eyes
nothing suss with the anger that i feel everytime i scream

the scarring material that is above my shirt sleeves in a constant reminder of what you did to me.
or it below my pants at the hips that i hurt myself for you?
you dont know.
you dont care.
im not to you,
im that worthless, useless blank bitch of yours that you use when you want something.
maybe i should return the favor
but im not that low, like you.
ill die happily just to save myself from what you do to me.

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i think this is done. i may add more, but im not unsure. like?