Rainy Day

Somehting that didn't even start
Is over already
And I feel all teh emotions
You only feel when your with someone
But I'm not

Why is it so hard to let go
Of something I don't have
Cry over someone
Who doesn't even care
And bleed for the same person
who held the balde out for you

Love songs play
As I drift
To a place
Where I can't think about the pain I feel
Knowing Your gone
But I'm the only one who'll care
That we may never speak again
Knowing that drives me crazy

I'm scared
Because I know
One day, you'll just be
Another torn tear stained page
In another covered beaten notebook
That is going ot be locked away
For a rainy day
To look back at my mislead youth
And think About you

Remembering All the little things
you did or said
to make me smile if I was sad
Reminiscing on your face
smile
and your laugh

Wondering over and over again
What if it hadn't ended like this?
Would we stand a chance?
A couple so odd, yet so right
Would I ever be seen in your eyes like that?

Now that I can't know for sure
My worst fear will eventually become truth
And you'll be the last tear stained page
In a book so full of lost love, lives
and all the in between of my life

A fond memory to look back on
While I sit in my chair
Waiting for the rain to pass
You'll be with me always
One way or another
Even if it's just the memory
Of all the joy I lost
When I lost you.

~Natalie