All I Have.

All I Have.

nothing but the grey skyes above my head
misery, misery, misery.
nothing to show for all of this
whats burning inside of me.

the flames licking my heart
making it forever burn
for everything i want
but ill never have,
maybe its what i want to be
but ill never give in to what it makes me do.

implying nothing
and wanting nothing are
TWO different things.
making me hold back till i regret breathing out
just wanting to scream at everything,
everything that hurts me.

the towel around my shoulders
thw weight is heavy
wanting to throw the towel into the ring
good thing this isnt a game,
it my life on hand.

each blink i take i seem to take in more than i need
night time is so pretty,
wanting the dawn to break, with my life going with it
i stop myself each lovely night knowing all i have is
motivation
determination
and
my faith
in myself knowing one day ill accept all of this,
whether it is yesterday, today or even tomorrow.

i like it...alot. not so poetic but i like the theme of it