Blue eyed beauty

I’ll carelessly flirt with suicide, if only to get your stubborn attention, because I so desperately need it
And if, still, you turn away from me, what will become of it?
Shattered, like the sun, but still I feel as though you mean something
Was this what you had in mind;
Me, feeling the absence in your cold, heartless touch and still yearning for your warm embrace of sick affairs
While you, you muse about her humor, her beauty, and her silken smile
A secret affair, but really was it a secret when my heart heard the whisperings of a broken soul?
Entwined within the empty fragments of your shattered skull, we co-exist in the depth of a burdened conscious
Are you feeling guilty, yet?
But who am I to criticize when I am at a hypocritical oath with myself
I’ve entangled her hair with a passion I never felt for you, I’ve hidden blissful kisses shared between warm, lustful lips
Have you discovered those guiltless actions, yet, my love?
Still, the thoughts of this beauty enchanting you in a carved heart has never left my restless mind
If you really want me, prove it!
For those visions dance vividly through, ruining any chance of peace that might save me
Hypocritical, I plea for your faithfulness and yet, here I am;
Her hand held within mine, soft kisses on the neck, her smile just shattered me
Where are her lips, are they mingled with yours?
I know you crave her, her love, her lips, her touch is what you need
The cold pendant strung around my neck, a gift with which you gave, has only been a reminder of her sensational touch
Dawn is peaking over your gray blue eyes, intoxicating every vessel inside of your hopeless heart
She whispers bitter sweet secrets in my ear as she gently kisses the tender flesh of my neck
Your lips are fading, as well as that beautiful affair, the girl who stole your only hope
But I merely look down on you now
For her blonde hair mixes with mine as I hold her in my arms and I feel something that you could never make me feel
A blue eyed beauty, you were my only, my love, my heart, until the Dawn broke out and my eyes opened
Opened upon this stranger who promised to love me
Our sad twist of fate has brought me back, but only to find that our “love” was merely an appearance for others to follow
That my heart had tricked me into believing such an excuse
Hopeless.

Anyone??