Your white rage

Mercy indented, your hated heart has gotten you nowhere
And what has become of us?
We make up unsatisfying excuses to avoid the question
Your difficult
I’ve strained my patience long enough, now it’s your turn
Intoxicate my veins with vicious remarks
And disguise your hatred with an immense form of laughter
My love, where do we go next?
It’s typical, you’re the lie that never wears away
And I’m the sympathetic tragedy that mourns the pain
I’m hiding my headaches, my rage
You’re stabbing the very nerve that I cling onto when nothing else matters
Do you smile at my attempts to erect a sense of calling?
A devilish sensation has washed over you
Where’s the boy I fell for?
Your fingertips no longer trace the heart along the creases of my hands
Your smile no longer appears across your face
That loving kindness no longer warms my burdened heart
Resurfacing, I begin to understand who you really are
You’re stubborn
You’re fake
You’re a liar
You’re nothing
I’m beginning to see that time on you, was time I wasted
That in the end, lying through all the promises, I was hurt anyways
You wore my heart on a string
Easily breakable, so delicate, and you let it fall
And as I walk away, I know that you won’t think about my hurt
That your bitterness has gotten the best of you
And no sympathy dares to cross you enraged mind
You’ve drowned yourself in a numbing apathy
You can’t pull yourself out, no one can
Or at least you won’t admit it
Disappointment only fills my restless and enduring mind
And I’ve watched you for sometime,
Pacing endlessly, shouting constantly, so caught up in life that you forget that I’m still here
That even though it’s ended, I’m still here
But now I’m the enemy, the one you have to hate
Your anger only pushes me away
I’ve tried, but you keep pushing my friendship away
And I’m getting tired of waiting for your response
What’s there for me?
Your apathetic heart burns through my skin
Your rage burns my poetic eyes
Difficult, my veins are throbbing with a static pain
Where’s the boy I fell for?