A Thousand Reasons (Holding Me Back)

I love you soft warm lips
I love you glistening blue eyes
I love the way you hesitate to hold my hand
I love your nervous laughter
I love your curly blonde hair (even though you think it looks horrible some days)
I love the way you smile, when there’s nothing worth smiling for
I love it when you grasp my hand tightly
I love it when you worry about my “bad days”
I love the way you find humor in everything
I love it how you miss me after only a day
I Love that you seem to care about the stupid things I daresay
I love it when you talk to me on the phone late at night until I FINALLY convince you to hang up the phone and go to bed
I love hearing your intoxicating words swarming my restless mind
I love thinking that you’re the only one I want to kiss
I love that you hate it when I say “You too” instead of “I love you too”
I love the way you place your hand in my hair when you kiss me
I love it when you kiss me!!
I love the way you try to brighten up my day when you can’t even brighten up your own (Though I try to do the same to you)
I love your small physique (though I tend to tease you non-stop about it! :])
I love the edge in your vivid personality
I love your concern towards me
I love that you hate when I bite
I love it when you bite my neck, or my lips! (An intimate gesture…I like it! :])
I love your hatred for the color purple
I love you love for friends (Bros before hoes, dude!1 XD)
I love (and hate) your stubbornness
I love that sometimes all you’d like to do is sit with me, silence surrounding us
I love that, with you, my absence of my words only tells you how much I really love you, need you
I love that you understand when I need to be kissed (without even telling you of it)
I love the way you make me feel pretty, make me feel loved, without even trying
I love the way you kiss me, unsuspectingly, in front of our friends
I love it that you still remember where our first kiss was
I love the feeling of happiness wash over me when I hear your voice say “I love you, I miss you”
I love the way you make my heart beat jump when you kiss my neck
I love it when you send sensations through my veins when you whisper in my ear
I love your pretty face (you may not think you are, but in all reality you’re very beautiful!!)
I love your fury for anything girly (skirts, dresses, ect.)
I love that you regret showing my your vulnerable side
I love it when you speak your mind, your confidence is alluring
I love the way you greet me with a kiss, as though I’ve been gone for years
I love your attempts for me to reveal some of my secrets
I love your choice in music! :]
I love that you are as physical in a relationship as I am (Haha…it’s true!)
I love that I can be me, and you can be me, without fear of rejection. Only love.
I love your calmness in irrational situations
I love that you refuse to make this tragic decision, even though we have to
I love it when you think about me
I love when you say you love me
I love the way you laugh (even if you do sound like a RETARD!!)
And I love the fact that I can call you mine
But most importantly, I love you


And even though we’re ending, just think of it as a new beginning
For no cuts bled through upon our hearts, only sorrow and yearning weeps our love lost minds



I’ll love you always,
C.j.