Hazy

Your breath going through the air
sticking to my skin like poiseness sin
your tempting enough for me to lose control
the only lust I think I won't be able to take hold

I can image your touch
the pure bliss being to much
pushing the thoughts of you was never a question
not even much as a secret confession

The imagery so vivid and pure
the love still standing on its own
like a heart warming cure

It could be great
I wish you could see
of how I wish you and me could be

But pain lingers on
as each day becomes more and more
hard to loosen that bond

My soul sits on a table
easy to see for anyone who passes by
the story of my love told like a mysterious fable
as my heart weakens
unable

It's harder to breathe as I feel like I should give you up
knowing that i'd have to live witout regrets no more optomisim left in the cup

Should I say that cutting is my answer?
or go on with life without a healing blade
being my disease
my cancer?

No one knows and neither do I
I can't keep telling myself
you are the one I can deny

Its a lie
can't you see
my senses are numb unlocking
emotion, you like the key

It hurts
I want my escape
a single gun shot to the head
full of pulsing lead

My heart lurching for control
for you to only be the one I hold

Its easy to say
but harder to do
knowing I'd have to more than likely choose

I'm wrapped around your finger
and you don't even know it
my selfish love trying to show it

I don't know what to say
or what to do
you have me trapped in a corner
like a fool

I don't know how to end
this poem of mine that I can't even comprehend
my thoughts going crazy
knowing you are drug that makes me feel hazy