I won't be forgiven

I have done too much that is horrible in my life
in the hope that I was doing something right.
There are so many mistakes I have made.
Accidents were caused and I faced them unafraid.
Now I see myself as one who truely does not belong.
I see others' suffering just because I exist.
It hurts me deeply that I am not perfect.
Because of this mess I know
I won't be forgiven.
Unable to fix what I am, so lost is my hope...
I am despair.

Wow. Thats Beautiful.