Its All Over... I Can Breath

This poem is mainly how i came to be now; the end of the poem
is something that happend to me 3years ago, only instead of a mirror
i was looking into running water.


She says 'I am no emo',
As her mood goes back down to zero,
As she remembers that her life
And everything around her is a lie.
Even the answer to whether she wants to die;
she only stays alive for her parents sake
And for everyone around her.

The only thing that keeps her sain,
Is viewed to others as a pain.
She used to love to feel what she couldn't inside.
When she feels herself sinking in an ocean,
An empty void that she created.
When she sees that her world is fake
And that nobody knows the traumer she has gone through.

Sometimes its even hard to take one breath;
Whilst her heart is pounding and seems to be never ending,
it has now felt too much and she decides that she should befriend death.

But then she sees her reflection in the mirror,
An image of the smile she once wore.
She feels a burning sensation, no ach,
No void, no emptines, she can feel again


BUT THIS IS ALL IN THE PAST NOW AND THERE IS SO MUCH THAT I WANT TO DO IN MY LIFE
THAT I DON'T THINK I WILL BE FEELING THIS WAY ANYTIME SOON.
MY LIFE IS REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME AND I DON'T TAKE IT FOR GRANTED.

It's very personal.