Depressing isn't it..

I wrote this about a very special guy.. I think you'll understand what it's about..

Why can’t you see me?
Have the guts to walk up to me
As I have done to you
As you did before
Why can’t I stop thinking about you?
Together with me
Your smile
Your blue eyes
Your perfect mouth
Why am I torturing myself?
Why can’t I just forget?
It will soon be over anyways
It will never be any “us”
Has never been
If I just knew that you felt the same way
Why this unsureness?
So much has happened
But at the same time nothing has happened
Why must I be so emotional?
And shy together with you?
About you
Always when it comes to the subject of you
Why did you lie?
Or did you?
How can I find out when
You don’t come up to me
When I did the mistake
The mistake to give you up for someone else
How should I know that what you said wasn’t’ true?
Or was it?
I was unhappy and lonely
Just in the shape that you left me in
I haven’t changed
My words are true, stands steady
I’m still here
Waiting
Waiting for you
Now, today, always

I can’t leave
But I have to
It has nothing to do with you
I just can’t stay here…
But I’ll wait for you
Now, today, always

How can I be so cold?
Seem so emotionless
Against him
Now I’ll never know…

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