random poems i found in my computer

this is a bunch of stuff i wrote in freshmen year, i figured i'd let it be critiqued, so enjoy! (or not, whatever)

a haiku
Oh so soothing pain
Unsuspected addiction
Brings me to a calm

poem #2
Are you watching me looking at the floor
with cameras and flashes of fading trust
tracking out the score to settle
play god all you want
never let me sleep again
never let me breath again
and you'll keep it on
just so I can't win
I am yours and you'll
never let me go
never set me free
never stop my beating heart
you know it's what I want
so you'll keep it to your self
you look so lovely lying in your casket
lying to the world
you are no longer here
but your grip is still strong

poem #3
The blood flowed from the cuts
and flowed down my arms like rivers and the ribbons
pulling me into a higher plane than the living
and it was the most beautiful thing to never be seen

poem #4
I don't take any pills
my mind is more than chemical balances
I won't take these pills
but I'll take this gun to my head
pull the trigger
one less problem for society projected across the floor
have the paramedics clean up the mess
don't hurt yourself when reading my apology letter gone wrong
I'll never forgive you it says
and you'll just forget me down the line
I'm glad I left bleeding and alone

I'm not suicidal
just a sadomasochist
I inflict the pain agaist
and take it all in
you can envy my talent
to turn self hate into happiness
you can be green when I'm gone
so long...

poem #5
My hands are starting to fit
in yours a bit better as
I whittle them into shape
little by little
and I'd spend the rest of my life bleeding just for you it would be the best way to bide my time waiting for you to come by and
cut me goodnight stay with me while I bleed
I'll be perfectly happy as my veins begin to dry
you wouldn't even have to cry for me again
I could always live my life
ridged and scared
waiting for you to put the knife in my back
where all my nerves are bared and already broken
frayed and torn like electrical wires
sleepless nights and eternally tired
the scars still sting
I realized today that pain isn't really my thing
playing pretend so I can cry again tonight
I always knew I was never right
and I thought that you could save me

poem #6
Stick around 'cause you can't leave me alone
with the scissors in the room
and silently flowing tears
thoughts in my head that I hear
let's me know that all I have to fear
is the fight that I have with myself
and a knife against my arms and ankles
that are still ever so weak
stay with me
protect me
from my lack of ability to contain my rage for myself

I only liked that haiku.

The rest is too depressing.

....i dont know what else to say exept i loved them all and they are flippin awsome....

there all good