Verdant. Guess what it's about?

I really tried to keep this uniform, but I gave up after the second verse. Sometimes I just can't do it. I want critisicm (sp) or praise or whatever. Honesty basically. And it would also be cool if people could guess what this poem is about...I wrote it recently about a night that happened more than a year ago.


Verdant

I still think about that night.
You broke through me
Shattering me, freeing me
Suddenly I knew I was decieving me.

Eyes shut tight
I tried to block out my fear
But it came trickling down
You made me, you broke me
I still wonder if there's hope for me.

All those moments spent
Wishing you were min
I was already yours--forever yours
All those hours wasted
Cursing fate and time
But now I climb and try
For you

My sweet green
Obnoxious and mean
Creators of me, destroyers of me
You threw me into darkness
But with your light I saw--I see

I dream of climbing, climbing high
Will I fall by your grace?
I lust after what I don't have
But you do.
Will I fall by your grace? [/b]

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I like some parts of it not the end =|

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I dunno really what it's about?! Breaking up?!

Um. Good guess. But no.

There's clues. There's a clue in the title. And the same clue comes up again somewhere else.

its pretty cool...
Is it about getting high?
Or being addicted to weed?
I dunno. It sounded good.

Fine. Another hint.

Its not about getting addicted or getting high. But its about pot. Its about spending a day smoking pot. That day was my messiah.

My sweet green
Obnoxious and mean
Creators of me, destroyers of me
You threw me into darkness
But with your light I saw--I see

That stanza is completely different than the rest of the poem. By different I mean better.
You have potential.
You used the word 'me' too much at the beginning.

Good luck in the future, mate.

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My sweet green
Obnoxious and mean
Creators of me, destroyers of me
You threw me into darkness
But with your light I saw--I see

Now you say it, it's obvious!