For Your Thoughts

I don't know what to do
a see-saw of emotions
up down,
up down,
up down,
The pattern kills me
From good to bad
Bad to great
and great to worst
like a merry go round
We go in circles
Everything just a blur

Emotions I can't control
Your the operator
pausing this ride every now and again.
Giving me that sense of confidence
Letting me think I figured it out
But just as my faith sets in
The ride jump starts and takes a plunge

One night i cry myself to sleep
Love songs in the background
Then come morning
I kick myself for being so silly
I'd like to say your special
Because no one makes me feel like this
But if you were special like I wish
Then you wouldn't hurt me with these games
It's hard enough to put my heart on the line
But a boy like you?
What do you care?

It's a joke
Because I'm not pretty enough
To have boys drool after me
But there's more to me
Maybe not enough to know
That how you treat me isn't right
Not enough to stop this game
And not enough to make my heart stop skipping beat
Everytime you hold me close
You're a nice boy
With a bad boy's heart
But leave mine at peace
Even if it kills me
Not to have you near
Having you in my life
Is murder