The Last Testimony of Edicius

The Last Testimony of Edicius
In a beautiful home in California, a young man hangs from the ceiling fan. The following note was taped to his hand:


Author’s Note

I woke up this morning with the worst kind of headache
The pain that drives a man to carve gashes into skin
And as the blood poured, I felt my soul shatter and break
And then I took hold of that old, long cherished sin

And when I wash up on the beach, will you confess?
My only wish is guilt and shame, will you grant this?
I’d wish upon a shooting star to shoot my star tonight
Delusion seeps into my skull and tells me what is right.

Don’t beg for forgiveness
Don’t say you are sorry
You did the right thing
Such a shame.

Yours truly,
Edicius ni Devas

Evol I: The Engagement

These are the days that make life a great gift
That save me from the Saturday hell
Lying on the floor with cuts on the wrist
She has broken my spell

These are the reasons that I continue each day
For her, my love, my savior, Ytuaeb
Another Tsol soon enough
And no more need to sob

Don’t tear this down, out, apart
Lost in Love
Lost in Reason
Lost in Beauty

These are the moments that steal breath away
From my soul, and I love it, love it so much
Keeping the sensation in my memory fresh
Of her magic, healing touch

Holding on to each second as it happens
Anxious for the near future to pass
And let the world be perfect again
Even Eden’s sin will be past

Don’t tear this down, out, apart
Lost in Love
Lost in Reason
Lost in Beauty

And The demon in me struggles and screams.

Nosaer I: Darkened By the Shadow of the Behemoth

Once again I am faced with the face of beauty,
Dilemma, Distraction, Desolation
In the Delusional prayers for grace and mercy
For a savior and some kind of resolution.

Ecstatic in my alter-ego, sullen in here
I see the shadow cast by the Behemoth
I see happiness, what should be fear
But the whole city falls into trust

Alone in my decision No lack of derision
Tormented by the thought of being alone with her
I knew that this would happen, but they invited the giant
Problematic so-called friend that rips at the soul

I am stuck
I am severed
I am tired
Devour me

Decease
Demise
Downfall
Desperation

Once again I’ve been locked up in this hellish prison
The mind is a terrible thing to waste
This lack of logic this lack of my reason
Shook the city to ruin and erased

The memory of my name for all eternity all mankind
Lost at the hands of the Trojan horse
Stolen from them not that they miss me at all
This all was my fault of course

The Scars they hand out to the masses
We find out this is not where we want to be
We’re bleeding from the wrists and the throat
Dying a slow and painful death

Don’t let the beast take you

Evol II: Beloved Ytuaeb

My love, I cannot even begin to explain
The way that I feel right now
I suppose ecstatic would be too plain
Due to a fear I’ve found

My brother
My troubled brother
My brother
My troubled brother

What happens when the clock says it’s five to six tonight?

My love I do not wish for you to fret
But do not ever forget
He despises all, true and evil
And we fall into the former

All of my love,
Evol ni Tsol

Nosaer II: Five To Six

The time has come to make things right
once and for all, this ends tonight.
When white sheets turn blood red
I will be satisfied and content

All hell will break loose
I will be set free
I have broken the truce
And written my destiny

Scream now scream now scream now dream now
Scream now scream now scream now dream now
Scream and dream, dream of screams
Screaming your dreams into reality

The time has come to set things straight
Once and for all, without debate
When white wings turn blood red
I will be satisfied and content.

All Hell will break loose
I will be set free
I have broken the truce
And written my own destiny

Scream now scream now scream now dream now
Scream now scream now scream now dream now
Scream and dream, dream of screams
Screaming your dreams into reality

I see the council, I stand before them
I see this murder, and myself
My temple is sore, and the blood is pouring out
Dead to them and me and all will see

My work.

Edicus ni Dellik I: The Awakening of the Troubled

These past months I have pondered
Searching for an easy answer
But no such answer did I find
And I believed it didn’t exist

And yet, in the most automated of endeavors
In my sleep, in my dreams
I have found the answer that severs
The complications the others leave

The time has come to make things right
Once and for all, this ends tonight.
When white sheets turn blood red
I will be satisfied and content

My love I am sorry this is the way it must be.

Edicius ni Dellik II: The Change in the Tide

Approach the door, my knife in hand
The taste of love has become so bland
Spit it out but I know I will miss
The healing touch, the loving kiss

The door opens but not by my will
I see my love, she’s dressed to kill
Such a shame she thought the thought first
Now I will be immersed

In my own blood,

The trigger is pulled.
I fall to my knees
My final words
Are just these

“You’ve saved me, my love”