So Here I Lay

So here i lay
Unaware of the shit that is life
Unaware of the lies that she spoke
Unaware of the damnation they spewed

Cigarettes and alcohol heavy on my breath
The Holy messengers of the Seraphim
Life emerging through their poison
Solace emerging through their wretchedness

So here i lay
Looking up at the stars I see my place with the Righteous.
A name for myself I wish i possessed
And yet i fight and Struggle
Suppressing that substance of salvation

Tears stain the paper
The words written discarded as fantasy and fiction
Blood stains the books
That offer their unsanitary shit

So here I lay
Praying for a second chance at fucking up
Wishing that i could take back what was once mine
And they grant that wish
But nothing do i receive

So my soloution will ring in the night
Like the shrieks of a spectre stuck in a world he despises
I hope it drains their life of all love
But no such thing will it do

So here I lay
In the middle of the street in front of her house
This asphalt i am beginning to know so well speaks against me
Says, "Just another dumbfuck in love
And yet no concept of it does he posess

"No Loss."

So here I lay.

I like it especially the "so here I lay" at the end.

I think it could do with a little less swearing.. But that's just me I guess...

thanks. and the swearing was just cuz i really wanted a cigarrette at the time