Time Of My Life, chapter 31
This really was the last straw! Where in the name of god was she? I thought it best to read the letter to Matthew seeing as it was addressed to him.
"Where is she then daddy?" he asked looking up at me expecting me to know the answer. Kids think their parents know everything don't they?
"I honestly don't know Matt I am sure she will be home for Santa Claus coming though" I told him ruffling his hair.
"But Santa Claus is coming in a couple days" he said again
"Yeah I know she will be home. I promise" I told him determinedly. I looked at the postmark. She was still in Berkeley when she sent this so she can't be too far away. I got Matthew dressed and took him out into the bitter wind to search around again. I decided to start checking hotels as well. It was worth a try. I checked all of them except one. The one we went to the night Katie was babysitting for Matthew. I walked up to the desk and asked.
"Hello can you please tell me what room Rebecca Armstrong is staying in please." although I knew it may be room 409.
"Yes that would be room 409 sir" the man informed me. I took off up the stairs Matthew in my arm to room 409.
"Rebecca open up I know you are in here!" I said banging on the door. No reply.
"Please Rebecca god damn it I know you are in here!" I yelled through the door. I knocked for 10 minutes.
"What's wrong daddy?" asked Matthew.
"Mommy is in there but she won't open the door" I said looking up at my son who was sitting beside me.
"I'll try" he said simply walking to the door and knocking on it lightly.
"Mommy please open the door. I miss you so much. Daddy read your letter to me. But, because you won't open the door I don't believe you love me. So unless you open the door I will leave with daddy and I will never ever talk to you again" he said to the door with a serious look on his face. He stood there for several minutes.
"Ok then have it your way!" and he stomped back to me grabbing my hand and started leading us down the stairs.
"No wait Matthew!" we heard a voice call. We looked back.
"Mommy!" yelled Matthew running to her.
"I missed you this much!" said Matthew stretching his arms as wide as they would go.
"I missed you too Matt" she said picking him up and hugging him.
"Daddy come here!" yelled Matt
"No I will stay here" I said to him
"Daddy promised you would be home for Santa Claus coming is that true?" Matthew asked Rebecca
"I don't know Matt me and daddy have to have a long grown up discussion" she told him. Oh great I have to talk about it. I walked over in the end.
"Come on then let's talk" I said to her. We went into the room and Matthew watched t. V in the lounge while me and Rebecca went into the bedroom and started talking.
"Why the fuck did you run off like that?" I asked her. She looked down ashamed
"You accused me of cheating so don't make out this is all my fault!" she said looking up.
"Did I even say that? Did I say it was all your fault. After you left and Matt questioned me every night before he went to bed after all day everyday we went out in the cold and searched for you all I could think was Billie Joe you dumb fuck look at what you have done! You have ruined you own son's life and your other child that may be on the way." I told her she started to cry. How could I still be angry with her? I had to forgive her I just hope she forgave me heck, she had done nothing wrong! I hugged her. She cried into my chest.
"I'm sorry Billie Joe please forgive me!" she said looking up at me with a tear stained face.
"You should be forgiving me not the other way round. I jumped to conclusions. I hate it when we fight." she weakly smiled. I gave her a long awaited kiss.
"Wow I have waited weeks to do that!" I said smiling
"So are we ok?" she asked uncertainly
"Of course we have to pull together Christmas is here in a couple days and I don't want Matt to be away from either of us on Christmas." and with that we got up and left the hotel and went to the park.
**Christmas eve**
It was 7:00pm and we were watching a Christmas film. I went to draw the curtains when I noticed it had been snowing heavily.
"Hey Matt it's snowing should we go make a snowman?" I asked looking at the deep fresh snow.
"No it's too late Billie Joe!" said Rebecca
"Oh come on mommy!" we both said
"Oh fine and I will make hot chocolate for you coming in!" she said smiling
"Thank you mommy!" I said jokingly kissing her
"Oh get away go have fun!" she said putting a coat and gloves on Matt as I put mine on.
We made a great snowman when Rebecca came out.
"Come to join the fun?" I asked her
" no just came to watch!" she said smiling. But, that wasn't enough for me. I made a snowball and chucked it at her. It hit her arm.
"Nice shot daddy!" cried Matthew in joy.
"Not good enough though!" yelled Rebecca as on hit the side of my face. We all ended up have a huge snowball fight when the neighbours told us to shut up so we went in and had hot chocolate.
"Come on Matthew it is 10:30pm and you need to go to bed I will read you a story" I said getting a book off the shelf and sat us in front of the fire with a blanket wrapped around us Matt, sat on my knee.
"Ok the night before Christmas!" I said and I started reading. By the time I finished he was asleep so I put him in bed and kissed him goodnight.
I went downstairs and me and Rebecca put all the presents under the tree and went to bed. It really was going to be a Christmas to remember.
"Where is she then daddy?" he asked looking up at me expecting me to know the answer. Kids think their parents know everything don't they?
"I honestly don't know Matt I am sure she will be home for Santa Claus coming though" I told him ruffling his hair.
"But Santa Claus is coming in a couple days" he said again
"Yeah I know she will be home. I promise" I told him determinedly. I looked at the postmark. She was still in Berkeley when she sent this so she can't be too far away. I got Matthew dressed and took him out into the bitter wind to search around again. I decided to start checking hotels as well. It was worth a try. I checked all of them except one. The one we went to the night Katie was babysitting for Matthew. I walked up to the desk and asked.
"Hello can you please tell me what room Rebecca Armstrong is staying in please." although I knew it may be room 409.
"Yes that would be room 409 sir" the man informed me. I took off up the stairs Matthew in my arm to room 409.
"Rebecca open up I know you are in here!" I said banging on the door. No reply.
"Please Rebecca god damn it I know you are in here!" I yelled through the door. I knocked for 10 minutes.
"What's wrong daddy?" asked Matthew.
"Mommy is in there but she won't open the door" I said looking up at my son who was sitting beside me.
"I'll try" he said simply walking to the door and knocking on it lightly.
"Mommy please open the door. I miss you so much. Daddy read your letter to me. But, because you won't open the door I don't believe you love me. So unless you open the door I will leave with daddy and I will never ever talk to you again" he said to the door with a serious look on his face. He stood there for several minutes.
"Ok then have it your way!" and he stomped back to me grabbing my hand and started leading us down the stairs.
"No wait Matthew!" we heard a voice call. We looked back.
"Mommy!" yelled Matthew running to her.
"I missed you this much!" said Matthew stretching his arms as wide as they would go.
"I missed you too Matt" she said picking him up and hugging him.
"Daddy come here!" yelled Matt
"No I will stay here" I said to him
"Daddy promised you would be home for Santa Claus coming is that true?" Matthew asked Rebecca
"I don't know Matt me and daddy have to have a long grown up discussion" she told him. Oh great I have to talk about it. I walked over in the end.
"Come on then let's talk" I said to her. We went into the room and Matthew watched t. V in the lounge while me and Rebecca went into the bedroom and started talking.
"Why the fuck did you run off like that?" I asked her. She looked down ashamed
"You accused me of cheating so don't make out this is all my fault!" she said looking up.
"Did I even say that? Did I say it was all your fault. After you left and Matt questioned me every night before he went to bed after all day everyday we went out in the cold and searched for you all I could think was Billie Joe you dumb fuck look at what you have done! You have ruined you own son's life and your other child that may be on the way." I told her she started to cry. How could I still be angry with her? I had to forgive her I just hope she forgave me heck, she had done nothing wrong! I hugged her. She cried into my chest.
"I'm sorry Billie Joe please forgive me!" she said looking up at me with a tear stained face.
"You should be forgiving me not the other way round. I jumped to conclusions. I hate it when we fight." she weakly smiled. I gave her a long awaited kiss.
"Wow I have waited weeks to do that!" I said smiling
"So are we ok?" she asked uncertainly
"Of course we have to pull together Christmas is here in a couple days and I don't want Matt to be away from either of us on Christmas." and with that we got up and left the hotel and went to the park.
**Christmas eve**
It was 7:00pm and we were watching a Christmas film. I went to draw the curtains when I noticed it had been snowing heavily.
"Hey Matt it's snowing should we go make a snowman?" I asked looking at the deep fresh snow.
"No it's too late Billie Joe!" said Rebecca
"Oh come on mommy!" we both said
"Oh fine and I will make hot chocolate for you coming in!" she said smiling
"Thank you mommy!" I said jokingly kissing her
"Oh get away go have fun!" she said putting a coat and gloves on Matt as I put mine on.
We made a great snowman when Rebecca came out.
"Come to join the fun?" I asked her
" no just came to watch!" she said smiling. But, that wasn't enough for me. I made a snowball and chucked it at her. It hit her arm.
"Nice shot daddy!" cried Matthew in joy.
"Not good enough though!" yelled Rebecca as on hit the side of my face. We all ended up have a huge snowball fight when the neighbours told us to shut up so we went in and had hot chocolate.
"Come on Matthew it is 10:30pm and you need to go to bed I will read you a story" I said getting a book off the shelf and sat us in front of the fire with a blanket wrapped around us Matt, sat on my knee.
"Ok the night before Christmas!" I said and I started reading. By the time I finished he was asleep so I put him in bed and kissed him goodnight.
I went downstairs and me and Rebecca put all the presents under the tree and went to bed. It really was going to be a Christmas to remember.
