Regrets Of A Teenage Life (Sequel To Time Of My Life), chapter 20
***Matthew's pov***
My mom and dad had taken Jake and Vicki off for the weekend so me and Emma spent it at my house alone. I was just making something for dinner when the phone rang.
"Hello Armstrong residence may I help?" I asked
"Hi Matt!" came Bethany's voice. I gulped hard, licking my lips.
"oh hi Bethany" I replied pretending to sound happy.
"I know I have been back for a little over a week I just had some family stuff on ya know and... well I just haven't had the spare time to get out so erm... if we could meet on... Monday? That would be great... is that ok with you?" she explained
"oh erm... one second" I said putting the phone against my chest so Bethany wouldn't hear me talking to Emma
"can I go meet Bethany on Monday... you know and I can tell her?" I asked Emma whose smile widened and she nodded.
"the sooner the better" she whispered, I smiled and nodded in agreement.
"yeah my erm... mom says that's fine" I said putting the receiver to my ear again.
"oh great about 2:00pm?" she asked
"yeah that's fine look, I gotta go so I'll see you then" I answered
"ok love you" she said but before I even thought about answering I put the phone down.
"aww man I knew she would be back some time I just don't wanna have to tell but I know I do have to" I sighed sitting down beside Emma.
"It's ok babe it will be over soon" she replied running her hands slowly through my hair.
I got up to serve dinner and we sat down to eat 5 minutes later. The meal, was pretty much silent, an un-comfortable silence. I decided to break it with mindless conversation.
"so what do you want to do later?" I asked her.
"I don't know ok!" she snapped.
"what's up... you seem... narked?" I asked confused.
"Nothing ok just leave it!" she said firmly. I ended the conversation there regretting breaking the silence no matter how un-comfortable it was. I set down my knife and fork and put my un-finished meal on the bench, and went out onto the porch and sat down. What had gotten into her?
It was at least a half hour later Emma came out and walked off down the driveway.
"babe where are you going?" I called after her
"back to Katie's" she replied still walking away. I got up and jogged after her.
"come on babe why are you leaving?" I asked, as she tried to push past me.
"what is it? Have I done something wrong? Is it something I have said or done?" I asked pleadingly, as she still tried to push past me.
"babe... please?" I asked confused, hurt and worried.
"you will go back to her I know it" I heard the resentment in her voice.
"Babe I won't, didn't you notice how happy, yes shocked but didn't you notice how happy I was to see you again?" I asked showing just as much if not more resentment. She stalked off round to Katie's and I gave up, defeated I walked back home.
***
Later that night I gave dad a call.
"Dad I dunno what is going on..." I explained the whole story of what had happened today.
"it's because you are going to see Bethany on Monday, why don't you... take her with you and she can know that you are not going to run off with Bethany" my dad suggested.
"I would but I have tried to call but nothing, she just won't answer." I replied
"keep ringing her then she will have to pick up eventually, she can't run away from you forever and this is just a silly little arguement, she will be fine tomorrow I bet you" My dad answered.
"I hope so, I really do, Goodnight dad" I said.
"Night son" and with that the line went dead. I put the phone on the hook and dragged myself up to the shower. I turned it on and let the water just drench me for a while. After I got out I tried to call Emma again but to avail. I lay in bed staring at my ceiling.
All of today's thought's a burden in my mind. I pushed them to the back of my mind and drifted into an uneasy sleep.
The next day I awoke and got dressed quickly. I went downstairs and poured a bowl of cereal. I ate slowly, each bite clogging my throat up. I got a glass of water and drank leisurely. When breakfast was over I tried ringing Emma again but to no benefit, she still would not pick up. I decided there was nothing left but to go round to Katie's and talk face to face. I grabbed my jacket and slung it on, and scraped my delapidated converse on the sidewalk as I walked at a snail's pace to Katie's house. I knocked grudgingly on the door with a light rasp. The door creaked open and Emma was standing there, tranquil in the bitter silence, that once again, I broke.
"Please...babe come with me on Monday... then you can be at ease knowing that I am NOT going to go back to her... I want you and our baby remember that human being is as much mine as it is yours." I grovelled.
"Matthew it is not about trusting you... You told me yourself that day at the park... you love her." Emma said frenziedly.
"Yes, I admitt I did but I also, admitted loving you or do you not remember that?" I asked irritated.
"Of course I remember how could I not? Look I will come back and see you on Monday at Jake's birthday party, I will wrap his present and bring it round when you are out with... with her and then when you return we can talk but for now I need to think things over" She said, her brow furrowing with frustration.
I licked my lips. "Please come back with me now" I begged.
"Maybe tomorrow I just need some alone time, I mean if we don't have time away from each other we will get resentful and I don't want bitter disputes all the time so let's just have a day to relax and I may see you tomorrow" She said finally. Not wanting to argue, I departed and went back home.
For most of the day I sat around twiddling my thumbs, I had called dad and told him what was happening. I was completely lost in thought until, there was a knock at the door. I got up and opened the door to see uncle Tre standing there.
"Spiffeh you're in" he said smiling and stepping in.
"Spiffeh?" I asked perplexed.
"it's my new word" he said sitting down on the couch.
"sure whatever... why are you here?" I asked
"erm cuz I wanted to give you some company seeing as Emma isn't here" he said
"how did you Emma wasn't here?" I asked suspiciously
"erm... I... erm Tre knows everything" He said thinking quickly and tapping his nose.
"dad told you didn't he?" I asked again
"yeah he did, let's go play xbox!" He yelled enthusiastically. I shook my head and followed him to the play room. After about the 10th time of me beating him he finally won.
"SPIFFEH!! I won me, yes me! I actually won!" he said doing a little sort of victory dance and tripping over the controller. He looked up and pointed his finger at me.
"you didn't see aaannnything" he said in annoying voice.
"such a shame that a camera didn't see you that's for sure. Aah I can see the headlines. 'Rock star falls while doing the crazy dance and frightening a teenage boy'" I said laughing. Tre got up looking hurt.
"I didn't do a ccrrraaazy dance I did my very spiffeh victory dance and as for scaring teenage boys I...I... have no come back for that one" he said and stalked off into the living room. I followed him and sat down on the couch opposite him still, laughing my ass off. It was all silent for a while when the door bell rang. I got up slowly and answered it. When I saw who was at the door my face fell.
"Hi... I know I should have called I just wanted to see you now we need to talk" She said as soon as I had stopped gaping at her.
"erm... come in... I guess." I said stepping aside letting her in.
"Who is i... Oh I am gonna go see how the... Fish is" Said uncle Tre quickly when he saw who was standing on the hall way.
"Erm sit down" I said gesturing into the now empty living room.
"I came here now to say I don't wanna see you anymore" she confessed
"Really?" I asked unperturbedly
"yeah I am sorry" she said looking down biting on her lip. I licked my lips.
"No it's ok because to be honest I was gonna end it... I wanna go back with Emma well I sort of am back with Emma" I confessed
"Oh... I see well I found someone new and if truth be told I have been with him since we got back that's... why I delayed seeing you until now" she explained.
"well I guess if that's it you may as well leave" I said pointing to the door.
"yeah it's probably best" she said getting up. I showed her out and uncle Tre came in from the back yard.
"the fish?" I asked
"yeah my new friend he's called... Frank" said uncle Tre quickly.
"uh huh" I said shaking my head in disbelief
"so what happened?" he asked changing the subject
"well she was gonna end it anyway" I told him
"spiffeh now you can be with Emma properly" he said jumping on the couch.
"Yeah I can" I said smiling to myself.
My mom and dad had taken Jake and Vicki off for the weekend so me and Emma spent it at my house alone. I was just making something for dinner when the phone rang.
"Hello Armstrong residence may I help?" I asked
"Hi Matt!" came Bethany's voice. I gulped hard, licking my lips.
"oh hi Bethany" I replied pretending to sound happy.
"I know I have been back for a little over a week I just had some family stuff on ya know and... well I just haven't had the spare time to get out so erm... if we could meet on... Monday? That would be great... is that ok with you?" she explained
"oh erm... one second" I said putting the phone against my chest so Bethany wouldn't hear me talking to Emma
"can I go meet Bethany on Monday... you know and I can tell her?" I asked Emma whose smile widened and she nodded.
"the sooner the better" she whispered, I smiled and nodded in agreement.
"yeah my erm... mom says that's fine" I said putting the receiver to my ear again.
"oh great about 2:00pm?" she asked
"yeah that's fine look, I gotta go so I'll see you then" I answered
"ok love you" she said but before I even thought about answering I put the phone down.
"aww man I knew she would be back some time I just don't wanna have to tell but I know I do have to" I sighed sitting down beside Emma.
"It's ok babe it will be over soon" she replied running her hands slowly through my hair.
I got up to serve dinner and we sat down to eat 5 minutes later. The meal, was pretty much silent, an un-comfortable silence. I decided to break it with mindless conversation.
"so what do you want to do later?" I asked her.
"I don't know ok!" she snapped.
"what's up... you seem... narked?" I asked confused.
"Nothing ok just leave it!" she said firmly. I ended the conversation there regretting breaking the silence no matter how un-comfortable it was. I set down my knife and fork and put my un-finished meal on the bench, and went out onto the porch and sat down. What had gotten into her?
It was at least a half hour later Emma came out and walked off down the driveway.
"babe where are you going?" I called after her
"back to Katie's" she replied still walking away. I got up and jogged after her.
"come on babe why are you leaving?" I asked, as she tried to push past me.
"what is it? Have I done something wrong? Is it something I have said or done?" I asked pleadingly, as she still tried to push past me.
"babe... please?" I asked confused, hurt and worried.
"you will go back to her I know it" I heard the resentment in her voice.
"Babe I won't, didn't you notice how happy, yes shocked but didn't you notice how happy I was to see you again?" I asked showing just as much if not more resentment. She stalked off round to Katie's and I gave up, defeated I walked back home.
***
Later that night I gave dad a call.
"Dad I dunno what is going on..." I explained the whole story of what had happened today.
"it's because you are going to see Bethany on Monday, why don't you... take her with you and she can know that you are not going to run off with Bethany" my dad suggested.
"I would but I have tried to call but nothing, she just won't answer." I replied
"keep ringing her then she will have to pick up eventually, she can't run away from you forever and this is just a silly little arguement, she will be fine tomorrow I bet you" My dad answered.
"I hope so, I really do, Goodnight dad" I said.
"Night son" and with that the line went dead. I put the phone on the hook and dragged myself up to the shower. I turned it on and let the water just drench me for a while. After I got out I tried to call Emma again but to avail. I lay in bed staring at my ceiling.
All of today's thought's a burden in my mind. I pushed them to the back of my mind and drifted into an uneasy sleep.
The next day I awoke and got dressed quickly. I went downstairs and poured a bowl of cereal. I ate slowly, each bite clogging my throat up. I got a glass of water and drank leisurely. When breakfast was over I tried ringing Emma again but to no benefit, she still would not pick up. I decided there was nothing left but to go round to Katie's and talk face to face. I grabbed my jacket and slung it on, and scraped my delapidated converse on the sidewalk as I walked at a snail's pace to Katie's house. I knocked grudgingly on the door with a light rasp. The door creaked open and Emma was standing there, tranquil in the bitter silence, that once again, I broke.
"Please...babe come with me on Monday... then you can be at ease knowing that I am NOT going to go back to her... I want you and our baby remember that human being is as much mine as it is yours." I grovelled.
"Matthew it is not about trusting you... You told me yourself that day at the park... you love her." Emma said frenziedly.
"Yes, I admitt I did but I also, admitted loving you or do you not remember that?" I asked irritated.
"Of course I remember how could I not? Look I will come back and see you on Monday at Jake's birthday party, I will wrap his present and bring it round when you are out with... with her and then when you return we can talk but for now I need to think things over" She said, her brow furrowing with frustration.
I licked my lips. "Please come back with me now" I begged.
"Maybe tomorrow I just need some alone time, I mean if we don't have time away from each other we will get resentful and I don't want bitter disputes all the time so let's just have a day to relax and I may see you tomorrow" She said finally. Not wanting to argue, I departed and went back home.
For most of the day I sat around twiddling my thumbs, I had called dad and told him what was happening. I was completely lost in thought until, there was a knock at the door. I got up and opened the door to see uncle Tre standing there.
"Spiffeh you're in" he said smiling and stepping in.
"Spiffeh?" I asked perplexed.
"it's my new word" he said sitting down on the couch.
"sure whatever... why are you here?" I asked
"erm cuz I wanted to give you some company seeing as Emma isn't here" he said
"how did you Emma wasn't here?" I asked suspiciously
"erm... I... erm Tre knows everything" He said thinking quickly and tapping his nose.
"dad told you didn't he?" I asked again
"yeah he did, let's go play xbox!" He yelled enthusiastically. I shook my head and followed him to the play room. After about the 10th time of me beating him he finally won.
"SPIFFEH!! I won me, yes me! I actually won!" he said doing a little sort of victory dance and tripping over the controller. He looked up and pointed his finger at me.
"you didn't see aaannnything" he said in annoying voice.
"such a shame that a camera didn't see you that's for sure. Aah I can see the headlines. 'Rock star falls while doing the crazy dance and frightening a teenage boy'" I said laughing. Tre got up looking hurt.
"I didn't do a ccrrraaazy dance I did my very spiffeh victory dance and as for scaring teenage boys I...I... have no come back for that one" he said and stalked off into the living room. I followed him and sat down on the couch opposite him still, laughing my ass off. It was all silent for a while when the door bell rang. I got up slowly and answered it. When I saw who was at the door my face fell.
"Hi... I know I should have called I just wanted to see you now we need to talk" She said as soon as I had stopped gaping at her.
"erm... come in... I guess." I said stepping aside letting her in.
"Who is i... Oh I am gonna go see how the... Fish is" Said uncle Tre quickly when he saw who was standing on the hall way.
"Erm sit down" I said gesturing into the now empty living room.
"I came here now to say I don't wanna see you anymore" she confessed
"Really?" I asked unperturbedly
"yeah I am sorry" she said looking down biting on her lip. I licked my lips.
"No it's ok because to be honest I was gonna end it... I wanna go back with Emma well I sort of am back with Emma" I confessed
"Oh... I see well I found someone new and if truth be told I have been with him since we got back that's... why I delayed seeing you until now" she explained.
"well I guess if that's it you may as well leave" I said pointing to the door.
"yeah it's probably best" she said getting up. I showed her out and uncle Tre came in from the back yard.
"the fish?" I asked
"yeah my new friend he's called... Frank" said uncle Tre quickly.
"uh huh" I said shaking my head in disbelief
"so what happened?" he asked changing the subject
"well she was gonna end it anyway" I told him
"spiffeh now you can be with Emma properly" he said jumping on the couch.
"Yeah I can" I said smiling to myself.
