Tripping Over Drum Sets, chapter 11
* Tre's view *
I watched them drive away as I slowly walked along the bridge. Saidi's words of wisdom before she jumped rang through my head over and over again. I was such a jerk. I didn't even remember the night I cheated on her. I remembered dancing with her and winning that hotel thing. And I remember drinking a lot, but after that, I don't remember a lot. Or anything. I still had a hangover and I massive headache. I looked over the edge and spit for good luck. What have I done?! I thought to myself. I just fucked up the best relationship I've ever been in with the most extraordinary girl in the world! I watched as a ship slowly passed under the bridge. If that boat sank right now, that would be my life. I thought. I just kept on walking where ever my feet took me. I couldn't help but think about what I did to Saidi. I was such an ass hole. I wanted to beat myself in the head with a pole I was so mad. Instead, I found myself at a pub. I walked in and sat on a stool.
"What can I get you?" asked the bartender. I looked up.
"Nothing, I don't think I should be drinking right now." I replied. He threw down his cloth, and rested his elbow on the counter.
"What happened?" he asked.
"I got drunk last night and cheated on my girlfriend." I said as I let my head fall to the counter. BOOM! I wouldn't be surprised if there was a big goose egg on my forehead, but I didn't care.
"Oh not good. Did you love her? How did she dump you?" he asked.
"I loved her all right." I said as I rubbed my head, wincing. Then it hit me. "She didn't dump me."
"Lucky jerk!" said the bartender as he hit me in the face with his cloth. "You deserve to be dumped if you cheated on her!"
"Yeah I know. But... I dunno why she didn't dump me." I said as I wiped the water from the cloth off my face.
"Well then maybe you should be the gentleman and break up for her!" said the bartender getting mad at me. I sighed and got up.
"That's a shit load of help! Dump the one girl that's come into my life and actually meant something, where I actually felt spark!" I said as I left a $1 bill on the counter and left. Maybe he was right. Maybe I should end it and stop Saidi's heartbreak. I didn't even feel like going home that night. I found an alley and shrugged thinking it would be good enough to sleep in. Lucky for me, there were 3 dumpsters and a tons of cats, no hobos. I climbed in an open dumpster, but fell when I got over onto about 3 cats. MMMMMMMMEEEEEEOOOOOWWWWW!
They hissed at me and scratched my back up really bad. I could feel a draft
coming through the tears. After they left the dumpster, I moved around some of the thrown out blankets to make a bed. I put my head down and fell asleep thinking nothing but, I am an ass hole, I am an ass hole, I am an ass hole. Over and over again until I couldn't think any more because I was fast asleep. That night I had a dream about Saidi. She was in this emerald green cloak. running in this really beautiful forest. Like something out of Lord of the Rings and I was running after her. Then she stopped and turned off the path in the forest. I followed and found her looking at herself in a river. I could see the tears falling from her face. "Saidi?" I asked, but I wasn't there. I was just a memory or something watching her. She put a handful of water up to her face and washed away the tears. Then we both heard a crash. We looked up to the sky to find rain coming down quickly. She closed her eyes and looked back down at the water. Little rings were forming around the places where the raindrops had landed. She stood up and embraced the rain falling down on her. She closed her eyes and opened them once again. I could see tears falling from her face, not raindrops, tears. She lied down on the grass and closed her eyes still crying. I felt bad. What if its because of me?
"Why? Why? Why? *sniffle* Why did you have to break my heart into a million tiny pieces and then shatter them again. Over and over and over again!?" she cried. I kneeled down beside her and tried to put my hand on her shoulder but I went right through her
"Saidi? Saidi? I'm sorry. There's nothing I can do to explain what I did. I'm really sorry." I said. Then her words in the bathroom rang through my head. "No, it's not enough! I thought you loved me! And then you-you go off and do this! How could you Tre? I thought I meant the world to you!" Sorry wasn't enough. How could I make it up to her. To show her that I really care.
BBBBBBBBEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPP! I woke with a jerk.
"What the fuck!?" I said. There was a garbage truck backing up to pick up the dumpster I was in. I quickly jumped out and cleaned off the garbage on my jacket and walked out of the alley. I smelled really bad. I ended up taking a short cut back home.
I stood in front of the Bomb Shelter and sighed. I am an ass hole, I am an ass hole, I am an ass hole. I opened the door and found it pretty empty. I saw Saidi lying on the couch under a huge heap of blankets, fast asleep. I walked over to her and lied down next to her.
"I'm gonna miss you Saidi." I whispered in her ear.
I watched them drive away as I slowly walked along the bridge. Saidi's words of wisdom before she jumped rang through my head over and over again. I was such a jerk. I didn't even remember the night I cheated on her. I remembered dancing with her and winning that hotel thing. And I remember drinking a lot, but after that, I don't remember a lot. Or anything. I still had a hangover and I massive headache. I looked over the edge and spit for good luck. What have I done?! I thought to myself. I just fucked up the best relationship I've ever been in with the most extraordinary girl in the world! I watched as a ship slowly passed under the bridge. If that boat sank right now, that would be my life. I thought. I just kept on walking where ever my feet took me. I couldn't help but think about what I did to Saidi. I was such an ass hole. I wanted to beat myself in the head with a pole I was so mad. Instead, I found myself at a pub. I walked in and sat on a stool.
"What can I get you?" asked the bartender. I looked up.
"Nothing, I don't think I should be drinking right now." I replied. He threw down his cloth, and rested his elbow on the counter.
"What happened?" he asked.
"I got drunk last night and cheated on my girlfriend." I said as I let my head fall to the counter. BOOM! I wouldn't be surprised if there was a big goose egg on my forehead, but I didn't care.
"Oh not good. Did you love her? How did she dump you?" he asked.
"I loved her all right." I said as I rubbed my head, wincing. Then it hit me. "She didn't dump me."
"Lucky jerk!" said the bartender as he hit me in the face with his cloth. "You deserve to be dumped if you cheated on her!"
"Yeah I know. But... I dunno why she didn't dump me." I said as I wiped the water from the cloth off my face.
"Well then maybe you should be the gentleman and break up for her!" said the bartender getting mad at me. I sighed and got up.
"That's a shit load of help! Dump the one girl that's come into my life and actually meant something, where I actually felt spark!" I said as I left a $1 bill on the counter and left. Maybe he was right. Maybe I should end it and stop Saidi's heartbreak. I didn't even feel like going home that night. I found an alley and shrugged thinking it would be good enough to sleep in. Lucky for me, there were 3 dumpsters and a tons of cats, no hobos. I climbed in an open dumpster, but fell when I got over onto about 3 cats. MMMMMMMMEEEEEEOOOOOWWWWW!
They hissed at me and scratched my back up really bad. I could feel a draft
coming through the tears. After they left the dumpster, I moved around some of the thrown out blankets to make a bed. I put my head down and fell asleep thinking nothing but, I am an ass hole, I am an ass hole, I am an ass hole. Over and over again until I couldn't think any more because I was fast asleep. That night I had a dream about Saidi. She was in this emerald green cloak. running in this really beautiful forest. Like something out of Lord of the Rings and I was running after her. Then she stopped and turned off the path in the forest. I followed and found her looking at herself in a river. I could see the tears falling from her face. "Saidi?" I asked, but I wasn't there. I was just a memory or something watching her. She put a handful of water up to her face and washed away the tears. Then we both heard a crash. We looked up to the sky to find rain coming down quickly. She closed her eyes and looked back down at the water. Little rings were forming around the places where the raindrops had landed. She stood up and embraced the rain falling down on her. She closed her eyes and opened them once again. I could see tears falling from her face, not raindrops, tears. She lied down on the grass and closed her eyes still crying. I felt bad. What if its because of me?
"Why? Why? Why? *sniffle* Why did you have to break my heart into a million tiny pieces and then shatter them again. Over and over and over again!?" she cried. I kneeled down beside her and tried to put my hand on her shoulder but I went right through her
"Saidi? Saidi? I'm sorry. There's nothing I can do to explain what I did. I'm really sorry." I said. Then her words in the bathroom rang through my head. "No, it's not enough! I thought you loved me! And then you-you go off and do this! How could you Tre? I thought I meant the world to you!" Sorry wasn't enough. How could I make it up to her. To show her that I really care.
BBBBBBBBEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPP! I woke with a jerk.
"What the fuck!?" I said. There was a garbage truck backing up to pick up the dumpster I was in. I quickly jumped out and cleaned off the garbage on my jacket and walked out of the alley. I smelled really bad. I ended up taking a short cut back home.
I stood in front of the Bomb Shelter and sighed. I am an ass hole, I am an ass hole, I am an ass hole. I opened the door and found it pretty empty. I saw Saidi lying on the couch under a huge heap of blankets, fast asleep. I walked over to her and lied down next to her.
"I'm gonna miss you Saidi." I whispered in her ear.
