Tripping Over Drum Sets, chapter 12
*back to Saidi's view*
I woke up pretty late, but not too late the next morning. No one was awake. I had a really weird dream last night. I was running in a forest and then I stopped at a river and started crying. Then it started raining. Weird. I sat up and looked around and saw something out of the corner of my eye. Tre was lying next to me snoring lightly. I didn't know what to do anymore. Should I love him or should I just leave him. I didn't even know why I didn't dump him yet. Should I dump him. I mean. He DID cheat on me. If he was going to be like that, I guess we could never be together. I got up off the bed. Got changed and packed all my things into a box and put it by the door. Then I walked quietly into Billie Joe and Adi's room. I shook Billie and Adi awake.
"What the hell!? What time is it? Oh, Saidi, what's up?" asked Billie as Adi fell back to sleep. He sat up and looked at me.
"I'm leaving. I have all my stuff packed up and ready to go. I'm gonna catch a taxi to the BART (Bay Area Rapid Transportation) and go off somewhere. I'll call you when I get there." I said between light tears escaping from my eyes.
"You're leaving? Why?" he asked, his eyes getting big.
"It would be weird if Tre and I still lived together and we broke up. I'd never get over my heart break. I'll call you when I get there. Where ever there is. You and Adi and Mike if you want can have the prize." I said as I got up and kissed Billie Joe on the cheek, I kissed Adi too. I left their room and shut the door behind me. I went to Mike's room next. He was sprawled out on his bed in his boxers. I sat down on his bed and shook him awake.
"Huh? Oh Saidi, what's up?" he said.
"I'm leaving. Billie Joe will explain everything to you ok." I said as I kissed him on the cheek and got up to leave. "I just came to say good bye." I shut the door and went to the kitchen. I put my key on the table, placed the envelope on the table, picked up my box and left the Bomb Shelter, forever. I waved down a taxi and he took me to BART. I bought my ticket and got on. I started to cry a little as I rode off by myself. Things would never be the same ever again. I decided to go to the airport and fly back home, to where Maria was. I found a pay phone and called her up.
"Hello?" came a voice.
"Maria? It's me, Saidi." I said.
"Oh hey! What's up?" she asked.
"I'm coming home." I said.
"Why?"
"I'll explain when I get there." I said flatly.
"Okay, talk to you soon."
"Bye." I hung up the phone and bought my plane ticket. I boarded the plane. This time, I didn't have my CD player or a book so I closed my eyes. I found my self sitting between two really gross smelling old people when the plane took off. I closed my eyes once again and fell asleep. Then I was awoken by the captain saying that it was time to land. I put on my seat belt and popped in a piece of gum getting ready to land. After the plane landed, I got my stuff and called Maria on the pay phone again.
"Maria? I need a ride home. Can you come and get me?"
"Sure, where are you?" she asked. I gave her the address of where I was and waited outside for her to come. I just sat there and day dreamed until a black car drove up and Maria got out. I stood up and walked to the car. Maria took some of my stuff.
"What happened?" she asked as we put my stuff in the back. I sat in the passenger seat and explained to her.
"Tre got drunk and cheated on me in a club with some random girl." I said as I started to cry again.
"Oh Saidi! That's horrible!" she said as she put her hand on my back and rubbed it slowly. "Things will get better okay?" I nodded through sniffles. I quietly cried the whole trip home. When we arrived, I got out and unpacked my things.
"So who have you been living with since I've been gone?" I asked.
"No one. Like, people would come over and stay for a week or whatever, but mostly by myself." she answered, picking up some of my stuff.
"Cool." I started to cry a little because this reminded me of Tre. (Your know, Tre "Cool")
"Well, I have something for you. I don't know if it's good or not, but I was gonna mail to you." said Maria, as she pulled out a CD. I looked at it. Green Day, 1039/Smoothed Out Slappy Hours. Noooo!
"Thanks." I said as I put it on a table. "I'll listen to it later."
After I unpacked all my stuff I went to the bathroom and just sat under the shower with the hot water beating down on me. I closed my eyes and just relaxed. I didn't know what to do with myself. I was just so overwhelmed with everything. I felt like I was going to have a panic attack or something. I finished my shower and went to my room. I lied down on the bed and just cried. My heart still ached, and my face was starting to hurt a lot from crying so much. My eyes were puffy and red. I just closed my eyes and fell asleep. I wasn't hungry, or anything, I just wanted to sleep away the pain.
*Tre's View*
*SMACK!* "OW! WHAT THE FUCK!?" Some one had smacked me as hard as they could on the top of my head.
"You mother fucking ass hole! Look what you did!" cried Mike who had a frying pan in his hand. I rubbed the top of my head.
"What are you talking about!?" I said. Mike pointed to the couch.
"Saidi's gone you dumb ass!" he said.
"She's gone? But I was gonna leave!" I said. Billie Joe and Adi had come out of their room. "Billie Joe! What the fuck happened?!"
"Saidi left us. She thought it would be weird if you guys still lived in the same room or whatever." said Billie Joe looking down.
"Oh no! Tell me what happened!" I said. Billie Joe explained to me what happened and what Saidi told him.
"No! She wasn't supposed to do that! I was gonna leave! I was gonna leave! It was me that was supposed to go! Why did she- what the- NO!" I said. I didn't want her to have to leave. I wanted to go.
"You were going to leave?" said Billie Joe in surprise. I nodded. "WHY!?"
"Well, I wanted to be the gentleman and let her stay here. I mean, she was happy until I fucked everything up right? Well, now that she's gone, she has to adapt to a new place and- I'M SUCH A FUCKING ASS HOLE!" I said hitting myself on the head.
"YOU'RE FUCKING RIGHT!" Adi, Mike and Billie Joe all said in unison as Mike hit me on the head again.
"Oh why did I have to get drunk and be an ass hole?!" I said as I felt tears coming to my face, as I fell to my knees. I hid my face in my hands as I put my head on the ground. "WHY!?"
"Saidi, left the prize." said Mike as he walked to the kitchen to put the frying pan away.
"She did?" I asked between sobs.
"Yeah, she told me that Adi and I could have it as long as it was okay
with you." said Billie Joe putting his arm around Adi, who looked at the ground still crying.
"Yeah, go ahead and take it. I can't use it." I said. I went back to my room and laid down on my bed. It was so empty without Saidi, the one girl I really cared about. I missed her so much, but I knew we could never be together again. I was a bum fuck and I messed up my chance. I didn't know how to rid myself of the pain, so I pulled out a joint and lighted it. At least it would give me a temporary feeling of relief.
I woke up pretty late, but not too late the next morning. No one was awake. I had a really weird dream last night. I was running in a forest and then I stopped at a river and started crying. Then it started raining. Weird. I sat up and looked around and saw something out of the corner of my eye. Tre was lying next to me snoring lightly. I didn't know what to do anymore. Should I love him or should I just leave him. I didn't even know why I didn't dump him yet. Should I dump him. I mean. He DID cheat on me. If he was going to be like that, I guess we could never be together. I got up off the bed. Got changed and packed all my things into a box and put it by the door. Then I walked quietly into Billie Joe and Adi's room. I shook Billie and Adi awake.
"What the hell!? What time is it? Oh, Saidi, what's up?" asked Billie as Adi fell back to sleep. He sat up and looked at me.
"I'm leaving. I have all my stuff packed up and ready to go. I'm gonna catch a taxi to the BART (Bay Area Rapid Transportation) and go off somewhere. I'll call you when I get there." I said between light tears escaping from my eyes.
"You're leaving? Why?" he asked, his eyes getting big.
"It would be weird if Tre and I still lived together and we broke up. I'd never get over my heart break. I'll call you when I get there. Where ever there is. You and Adi and Mike if you want can have the prize." I said as I got up and kissed Billie Joe on the cheek, I kissed Adi too. I left their room and shut the door behind me. I went to Mike's room next. He was sprawled out on his bed in his boxers. I sat down on his bed and shook him awake.
"Huh? Oh Saidi, what's up?" he said.
"I'm leaving. Billie Joe will explain everything to you ok." I said as I kissed him on the cheek and got up to leave. "I just came to say good bye." I shut the door and went to the kitchen. I put my key on the table, placed the envelope on the table, picked up my box and left the Bomb Shelter, forever. I waved down a taxi and he took me to BART. I bought my ticket and got on. I started to cry a little as I rode off by myself. Things would never be the same ever again. I decided to go to the airport and fly back home, to where Maria was. I found a pay phone and called her up.
"Hello?" came a voice.
"Maria? It's me, Saidi." I said.
"Oh hey! What's up?" she asked.
"I'm coming home." I said.
"Why?"
"I'll explain when I get there." I said flatly.
"Okay, talk to you soon."
"Bye." I hung up the phone and bought my plane ticket. I boarded the plane. This time, I didn't have my CD player or a book so I closed my eyes. I found my self sitting between two really gross smelling old people when the plane took off. I closed my eyes once again and fell asleep. Then I was awoken by the captain saying that it was time to land. I put on my seat belt and popped in a piece of gum getting ready to land. After the plane landed, I got my stuff and called Maria on the pay phone again.
"Maria? I need a ride home. Can you come and get me?"
"Sure, where are you?" she asked. I gave her the address of where I was and waited outside for her to come. I just sat there and day dreamed until a black car drove up and Maria got out. I stood up and walked to the car. Maria took some of my stuff.
"What happened?" she asked as we put my stuff in the back. I sat in the passenger seat and explained to her.
"Tre got drunk and cheated on me in a club with some random girl." I said as I started to cry again.
"Oh Saidi! That's horrible!" she said as she put her hand on my back and rubbed it slowly. "Things will get better okay?" I nodded through sniffles. I quietly cried the whole trip home. When we arrived, I got out and unpacked my things.
"So who have you been living with since I've been gone?" I asked.
"No one. Like, people would come over and stay for a week or whatever, but mostly by myself." she answered, picking up some of my stuff.
"Cool." I started to cry a little because this reminded me of Tre. (Your know, Tre "Cool")
"Well, I have something for you. I don't know if it's good or not, but I was gonna mail to you." said Maria, as she pulled out a CD. I looked at it. Green Day, 1039/Smoothed Out Slappy Hours. Noooo!
"Thanks." I said as I put it on a table. "I'll listen to it later."
After I unpacked all my stuff I went to the bathroom and just sat under the shower with the hot water beating down on me. I closed my eyes and just relaxed. I didn't know what to do with myself. I was just so overwhelmed with everything. I felt like I was going to have a panic attack or something. I finished my shower and went to my room. I lied down on the bed and just cried. My heart still ached, and my face was starting to hurt a lot from crying so much. My eyes were puffy and red. I just closed my eyes and fell asleep. I wasn't hungry, or anything, I just wanted to sleep away the pain.
*Tre's View*
*SMACK!* "OW! WHAT THE FUCK!?" Some one had smacked me as hard as they could on the top of my head.
"You mother fucking ass hole! Look what you did!" cried Mike who had a frying pan in his hand. I rubbed the top of my head.
"What are you talking about!?" I said. Mike pointed to the couch.
"Saidi's gone you dumb ass!" he said.
"She's gone? But I was gonna leave!" I said. Billie Joe and Adi had come out of their room. "Billie Joe! What the fuck happened?!"
"Saidi left us. She thought it would be weird if you guys still lived in the same room or whatever." said Billie Joe looking down.
"Oh no! Tell me what happened!" I said. Billie Joe explained to me what happened and what Saidi told him.
"No! She wasn't supposed to do that! I was gonna leave! I was gonna leave! It was me that was supposed to go! Why did she- what the- NO!" I said. I didn't want her to have to leave. I wanted to go.
"You were going to leave?" said Billie Joe in surprise. I nodded. "WHY!?"
"Well, I wanted to be the gentleman and let her stay here. I mean, she was happy until I fucked everything up right? Well, now that she's gone, she has to adapt to a new place and- I'M SUCH A FUCKING ASS HOLE!" I said hitting myself on the head.
"YOU'RE FUCKING RIGHT!" Adi, Mike and Billie Joe all said in unison as Mike hit me on the head again.
"Oh why did I have to get drunk and be an ass hole?!" I said as I felt tears coming to my face, as I fell to my knees. I hid my face in my hands as I put my head on the ground. "WHY!?"
"Saidi, left the prize." said Mike as he walked to the kitchen to put the frying pan away.
"She did?" I asked between sobs.
"Yeah, she told me that Adi and I could have it as long as it was okay
with you." said Billie Joe putting his arm around Adi, who looked at the ground still crying.
"Yeah, go ahead and take it. I can't use it." I said. I went back to my room and laid down on my bed. It was so empty without Saidi, the one girl I really cared about. I missed her so much, but I knew we could never be together again. I was a bum fuck and I messed up my chance. I didn't know how to rid myself of the pain, so I pulled out a joint and lighted it. At least it would give me a temporary feeling of relief.
