I'm thinking of leaving.
No, not another GSBian leaving, people here are well, like my second and third family.
It's just, me and my parents haven't been getting along lately, especially me and my mum. I really think she hates me. The weekend just passed I had a friend stay over, which mum knew about because my friend lives about an hour or so away we have to get these things organised during the week. My mum said yes to her sleeping over.
From about ... let's say ... Thursday onwards mum stopped talking to me in full sentences and just acted like the previous weekend. (The weekend before Mum, Dad & I had a massive argument, leaving only me in tears, as usual.)
Anyway, on Saturday I was going to iron some stuff for mum while my friend was on my computer. I pulled out everything and asked her what needed doing. She evil eyed me and sneered at me;
"Don't fkn worry about it, I'll do it, when your friend leaves tomorrow me and you are having a serious talk, I'm so close to kicking you out of home."
GSB welcome, to my mum's threats, which she usually follows up with. Sunday came and I hungout with my friend and our boyfriends that day up until about .. 12pm. I knew I had jobs to do, so I told them and they walked me home, they said they'd help me because they all wanted to go to the beach so we could hang out. I said no, cause I hate people trying to help me when I don't need it. I said good-bye to all of them and walked into my room. I was going to start doing some jobs. I asked my mum what needed doing, she just told me everything had been done. And wouldn't talk to me.
What could I do. I just walked into my room and bawled my eyes out for a while. I eventually fell asleep not wanting to face mum and whatever she had to say to me. Because all I do is stand there and take it all in.
This morning mum usually wakes me up for school. All she did was call my name, I was half awake then she threw a gym ball at my bed which didn't hit me. When I woke up she told me to get my own breakfast and wake myself up from now on. Then she told me;
"You get a fkn job, pull your socks up around the house otherwise you aren't going to your cousins wedding next year."
The only thing I can;t get out of my head is her kicking me out, I've cried so much in the last 3 or 4 days then I have in the last 3 months. My eyes hurt so much and I've got a constant headache, and I feel like I'm going to burst out crying if I get into trouble at school today or, for the rest of the week. I'm thinking of leaving home in the next week or two if mum doesn't start talking to me.
Last night my brother was trying to talk to me, I didn't answer, and he usually knows something is wrong, I didn't say anything in fear of crying or just screaming everything out. I'm am angry at mum for not talking to me, but at the same time I keep wondering why she won't talkto me, what's wrong with me, why I'm apprantley the worst daughter in the world right now. I've told one of my best friends about it and she said if I do get kicked out, or I leave I can live with her for a while.
GSB, I never thought this would happen to me in a million years, I know I'm not the best kid in the world, but why to my parents, am I the worst kid right now? I knew something like this would happen sooner or later. I'm at school now, I just want to stay away from home and never go back. My brother's probably don't know what's going on, and I'm not going to bring anything up. I don't want them "worrying" about me.
I just don't want to endup doing something I'll regret, so I'm going to stay low and quiet until this hopefully blows over, or until I am indeed kicked out of home.
You might think I'm whining and exagerrating. But I'm not. Not even I can believe the extent of my own mother's threats.
It's just, me and my parents haven't been getting along lately, especially me and my mum. I really think she hates me. The weekend just passed I had a friend stay over, which mum knew about because my friend lives about an hour or so away we have to get these things organised during the week. My mum said yes to her sleeping over.
From about ... let's say ... Thursday onwards mum stopped talking to me in full sentences and just acted like the previous weekend. (The weekend before Mum, Dad & I had a massive argument, leaving only me in tears, as usual.)
Anyway, on Saturday I was going to iron some stuff for mum while my friend was on my computer. I pulled out everything and asked her what needed doing. She evil eyed me and sneered at me;
"Don't fkn worry about it, I'll do it, when your friend leaves tomorrow me and you are having a serious talk, I'm so close to kicking you out of home."
GSB welcome, to my mum's threats, which she usually follows up with. Sunday came and I hungout with my friend and our boyfriends that day up until about .. 12pm. I knew I had jobs to do, so I told them and they walked me home, they said they'd help me because they all wanted to go to the beach so we could hang out. I said no, cause I hate people trying to help me when I don't need it. I said good-bye to all of them and walked into my room. I was going to start doing some jobs. I asked my mum what needed doing, she just told me everything had been done. And wouldn't talk to me.
What could I do. I just walked into my room and bawled my eyes out for a while. I eventually fell asleep not wanting to face mum and whatever she had to say to me. Because all I do is stand there and take it all in.
This morning mum usually wakes me up for school. All she did was call my name, I was half awake then she threw a gym ball at my bed which didn't hit me. When I woke up she told me to get my own breakfast and wake myself up from now on. Then she told me;
"You get a fkn job, pull your socks up around the house otherwise you aren't going to your cousins wedding next year."
The only thing I can;t get out of my head is her kicking me out, I've cried so much in the last 3 or 4 days then I have in the last 3 months. My eyes hurt so much and I've got a constant headache, and I feel like I'm going to burst out crying if I get into trouble at school today or, for the rest of the week. I'm thinking of leaving home in the next week or two if mum doesn't start talking to me.
Last night my brother was trying to talk to me, I didn't answer, and he usually knows something is wrong, I didn't say anything in fear of crying or just screaming everything out. I'm am angry at mum for not talking to me, but at the same time I keep wondering why she won't talkto me, what's wrong with me, why I'm apprantley the worst daughter in the world right now. I've told one of my best friends about it and she said if I do get kicked out, or I leave I can live with her for a while.
GSB, I never thought this would happen to me in a million years, I know I'm not the best kid in the world, but why to my parents, am I the worst kid right now? I knew something like this would happen sooner or later. I'm at school now, I just want to stay away from home and never go back. My brother's probably don't know what's going on, and I'm not going to bring anything up. I don't want them "worrying" about me.
I just don't want to endup doing something I'll regret, so I'm going to stay low and quiet until this hopefully blows over, or until I am indeed kicked out of home.
You might think I'm whining and exagerrating. But I'm not. Not even I can believe the extent of my own mother's threats.
If she doesn't talk to you, fine. She's being ignorant, and frankly a bad parent.
My mam doesn that all the time. "You can talk to you about anything" and then when it comes to actually listening, "shut up you're being an ignorant spoiled brat!"
I f*ckin hate her
Teh munkeh, August 14th, 2007 at 07:05:49pm
Yep. I am staying out of her way, and im not going to bother talking to her, because I know I won't get an answer from her, so basically, I've given up.
And with the letter thing, I've thought about it so hard, but yesterday I wrote .. a diary entry style thing .. and I've left it in my room, because my mum likes to read things that usually are close to me ..
thats how she found out my friend did drugs and got pregnant before I could tell her.
*sigh*
I hope things work out soon.
Tre Cool Junkeh, August 13th, 2007 at 11:10:35am
Try not to ask much of her (or ideally, anything at all), leave her alone, and try to do some extra things around the house she would usually do. Most importantly, you should try not to get angry or annoyed at her, even if you haven't in the first place.
Just stay low and be patient. It'll all work out in the end. =]
asthenia., August 13th, 2007 at 10:39:32am
Stay low, don't get in her way and do as she says. Maybe things will calm down a little. And I'm sorry. *hugs* things will get better. :]
dramamine;, August 13th, 2007 at 08:51:18am
Write her a letter and give her a boxof chocolates and keep trying to talk to her.
Maybe get up before her and tidy up a bit. :/
Over here it's illegal to throw your child out under the age of 16. O_O
Tholomew Plague, August 13th, 2007 at 05:29:42am
Why don't you writr your mom a letter? explain everything and leave it in her room?
FaLlEn _ AnGeL, August 13th, 2007 at 05:21:30am
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im sorry.
*hugs*
like Slappy, i dont know what to say.
garrett nickelsen., August 13th, 2007 at 04:50:21am
Gasp...
*can't find words to say*
*is sorry*
captain america, August 13th, 2007 at 04:46:51am