I feel sick...and have confidence issues...how bout you?
I've got confidence issues. I keep having to remind myself to look into the mirror, and realize that I'm absolutley equal to every single other person on this planet. I've been at school for 4 days, and I hate it so much I started feeling sick. I don't know if you can get sick from being extremely upset or stressed out but if you can I've got the stress-flu badly.
I'm not stressing about school or school work I'm stressing about the people there. Everywhere you go, people bitching about you or something. When I'm at home for a coupple of days I remind myself that I'm equal to everyone else, even those try-hard sluts - but when I see those people again I feel like fucking dirt.
Call me anti-social - but honestly, that's what I think I am. Well when you've grown yourself up and have been home alone for your whole entire life it tends to happen. And it's just my personality.
I'm so confident when I'm on my own but people can break me down so easily. Especially when they don't know me and judge me just for the sake of being 'cooler' then me. I don't think that's cool. I actually think looks quite desperate. But of course, I'm too much of a fucken retard to stand up for myself.
I'm not stressing about school or school work I'm stressing about the people there. Everywhere you go, people bitching about you or something. When I'm at home for a coupple of days I remind myself that I'm equal to everyone else, even those try-hard sluts - but when I see those people again I feel like fucking dirt.
Call me anti-social - but honestly, that's what I think I am. Well when you've grown yourself up and have been home alone for your whole entire life it tends to happen. And it's just my personality.
I'm so confident when I'm on my own but people can break me down so easily. Especially when they don't know me and judge me just for the sake of being 'cooler' then me. I don't think that's cool. I actually think looks quite desperate. But of course, I'm too much of a fucken retard to stand up for myself.
remember. you're not a try-hard lollypop girl with botox lips that only think about themselves. you are great!
Not a Real Doctor, February 8th, 2007 at 03:59:18am
thanks for the advice =) I'll try keep that in mind ... it really helps to hear it from other peope
adrea, February 5th, 2007 at 04:23:37am
*hugs* I know it's hard, but you have to try and look at things at perspective. Try bringing music wherever you go. Like an mp3 player or something to comfort you at school. Just try to look on the bright side of anything. Just try. Even when it seems like there's no silver lighting.. it's ALWAYS there. I'm sure of that. As for confidence forget what every one ever says about you. It doesn't matter what they think about you.. It only matters what YOU think about YOURSELF. Keep that in mind. Don't show your fear to those who only want to see you run away scared.
threeam., February 4th, 2007 at 12:21:59pm
i am actually stress sick myself.
i have no confidence so be lucky you are even if its just a little and if your are sensitive like you claim, dont let other people SEE you that way. If you cry in front of people they tend to take advantage of you. and right now have even worse issues, so...
Toxic Teeth, February 3rd, 2007 at 09:50:34pm
You can definitely feel sick from too much stress, it's not healthy. People says silly, stupid things, thats what we do best. You shouldn't let it effect you. I know thats alot easier said then done, but their opinion of you doesnt matter at all.You arent a retard for not standing up for yourself, feeling the way you do is totally understandable.
Kurtni, February 3rd, 2007 at 01:24:55pm
Wow, that's... I feel the same way, but I've never been able to find the proper words for it. Sucks, doesn't it? =/
Funky Platypus, February 3rd, 2007 at 12:14:15pm