A little effort
I have little something called....low self esteem haha...its not that funny but i guess that is how i deal but anyway i have great troubles with this foe in front of me.I realize my problem and know of some ways to fix this but for some reason the body i am in will not do it, change that is.It bothers me so i get so close and then i stop.It is like driving a car down a street, heading to my destination but i come across a railroad track.The rails are down and the train goes on and on.I don't quite get why i can't put forth the effort to change.I mean i have hypothesized that maybe i really don;t want to change and i am just wanting to fit in but then if this is so then why am i unhappy?...It also (naturally i am assuming) it drastically hinders my social activity. the friends i speak to most become almost as much an nusance as this problem i have here.They are cool to some extent but their immaturity and kind of ignorance of me is what drops them. I wish to make new friends but like i said before it jsut stops. I get it to the point where the words are in my mouth but the mouth opens and the words escape to the back of my throat and my chance is ruined.gone.never to be heard.I can sometimes start some friendships with the help of others but friends aren't always going to be there for you in these cases.I know this well.
fragile and weak
irritation
and a few pieces gone from me.
maybe the curse will flee from me in time.But i really hope i get a kick in the ass soon.
if you read this whole rant, babble, whine whatever you like to call it..thanks and sorry you read it all
haha...
fragile and weak
irritation
and a few pieces gone from me.
maybe the curse will flee from me in time.But i really hope i get a kick in the ass soon.
if you read this whole rant, babble, whine whatever you like to call it..thanks and sorry you read it all
haha...
I am going to give you my personal opinion on this, if you don't mind.
First of all, you seem like a great guy. You're funny, and you are really liked on GSB. I can't tell you how many PM convos that said they wished you were online. People on here do really love you a lot.
Secondly, I'd say, jump. Next time you want to say something to someone, and the words get caught, remember we only live once. We only get one chance to tell ppl we love them, or hate them, or whatever. One chance.
Thirdly, there will be some ppl out there who will hate you. Screw them. You know you're a great person. Don't change. If you do, only change for you. Never for anyone else.
Fourth, you are a really good blog writer.
And lastly, I hope you believe every word of this, cuz they're the truth.
get famous, October 14th, 2007 at 12:28:21am
I have to say I agree with Jessika. Mikey you are AMAZING and very well liked here. I love you lots Mikey :) I don't see how anyone could not like you, you have an awesome personality. I wish I knew you face to face :D It's still one of my dreams to hug you for real. I'm always here for you and I always will be. That's what friends do..they're always there for each other. You can always talk to me Mikey.
Sunshine., October 13th, 2007 at 06:28:57pm
Mikey,
you are truly an amazing person.
I know EXACTLY where you are coming from babe,
but I can only tell you what I told myself
and thats what helped me with it.
You have to remeber Mikey that you are so well liked on GSB! I swear to God I get so many people telling me how much they wish you were online at times when you arn't. I"m not just saying that.
Maybe if you just bite your lip and say what comes into your mind that you are talking about, than once you do it you will find the courage to do it even more. I know its hard. Oh God do I know its easier said than done. But you just got to trust me Mikey, you have a great personality from what I can tell, just act like yourself. Say what you want to say.
Not everyone is going to like you. You can't just make friends with whoever. But I am sure, absolutly sure, that there are people out there that would just die to be your friend.
Don't change yourself for anyone,
don't hold things in because you are afraid of what happens if you say it.
The only thing you are going to regret is what you DID'T do.
Your like is short,
you got one shot.
just go out there and do it!
I love you Mikey,
an whole whole lot.
I know you can do this :)
Jessie.Tastic!, October 13th, 2007 at 05:59:37pm