Daddy, Because I don't know any better.


A bit of a change from my usual beauty tips and scores. But, I just thought that I don't want to be seen as a shell, I have contense.
I'm not having a whinge or a complain, they're just my words.

My parents divorced when I was 2 years old. My Dad cheated on my Mother because it was 'The only way out of a marriage he didn't want to be in', so he says.
Ever since then I've grown up in house of women. My Mum is very strong and independant.
I don't know what it's like to have a man living with me or to have a father figure in my life... I don't know if I'm missing out on anything or not. According to some study, because I don't have a father figure there's a higher chance of me becoming bi-sexual or a lesbian, not that that's important.

I've always thought it must be really tough having your father pass away and not be as difficult because my Dad is still alive... But then I thought that when someones Dad passes away they can't come back because it's not possible and my Dad just left and can come back when ever he wants... but chooses not too.

Maybe this has all worked to my benefit. I don't think I'd be the person I am now if my parents hadn't divorced, I'm starting to really like the person I am inside.
If my Dad hadn't remarried I wouldn't have my Stepmum, she's like a best friend I hardly see and never run out of things to talk about with. She's knows me better than anyone, she sort of built me a bit. I mean, musically, fashionably, dream wise. There's no boundires with her, anything's possible.

And If I hadn't grown up around such strong and amazing women like my Mum, my sister (Kayla) and my Nana, I wouldn't be so strong either.

If Dad wasn't more than a friend who stayed up until 2am watching documentaries with me and making me chicken and avacado toasties whenever I wanted one, I could be a social retard or a Plain Jane who liked whatever was on offer. I do love my Dad, I really do. But he's not a father, he's never yelled at me, told when I should go to bed, told me to brush my hair or change my outfit. She's just Dad because that's what I'm meant to call him. Even though I call him Timatoe half the time.

I think my parents divorcing was the best and worse thing that's ever happened to me.
Because now I'm Gemma and I know it and I'm happy.
Posted on December 28th, 2007 at 11:44am

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