I'm Sorry.
This blog is really for my own reference. Ignore if you would like.
I'm sorry for hurting you, the way I did. I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry I'm self-absorbed. I'm sorry that I don't care. I'm sorry I don't pay attention. I'm sorry I'm not the perfect daughter. I'm sorry I'm a terrible person. I'm sorry I did this. I'm sorry for all the times I may have hurt you. I'm sorry I took your love for granted. I'm sorry I cried. I'm sorry I bugged you. I'm sorry I took your place. I'm sorry I took our friendship for granted. I'm sorry I'm a bad catholic. I'm sorry for all the times I've lied. I'm sorry for the secrets I kept. I'm sorry I make fun of you. I'm sorry I'm a bad friend. I'm sorry for not letting it out. I'm sorry for complaining. I'm sorry for being stupid. I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I'm sorry for the past, and I'm sorry for the future. I'm sorry for what I've done, and what I will do.
I can't turn back the clock, and I can't change what I've done.
Everything I do, I probably hurt someone. I lie, almost daily. I'm so accustomed to the lies I tell. I'm a terrible person, and I use people, and I abuse the fact that I can. I take for granted everything and everyone around me, which makes me sad, which leads to me being a more terrible person.
I understand how people hate me, but I don't understand how the people around me cannot. Like, there's people that should HATE me with their whole being. and they don't. I don't particularly understand anything.
At this point in time, I'm not too sure what's wrong with me. I feel like everything I do gets backfired. Like, I try to be happy, that doesn't work, the only person that makes me truly happy, broke my heart. I have a doctors appointment on Thursday, on the bright side of things. The things I usually do, are totally stuff that bug me now. Computer/internet being one of them.
I'm sorry, if I've ever hurt you, or if I've ever done something / said something mean to you.
This blog is about nothing, its for me to put down all my thoughts, because its "the healthy thing to do".
Thank you for reading it if you did...
bolded are for a certain friend of mine..
I'm sorry. D:
I'm sorry for hurting you, the way I did. I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry I'm self-absorbed. I'm sorry that I don't care. I'm sorry I don't pay attention. I'm sorry I'm not the perfect daughter. I'm sorry I'm a terrible person. I'm sorry I did this. I'm sorry for all the times I may have hurt you. I'm sorry I took your love for granted. I'm sorry I cried. I'm sorry I bugged you. I'm sorry I took your place. I'm sorry I took our friendship for granted. I'm sorry I'm a bad catholic. I'm sorry for all the times I've lied. I'm sorry for the secrets I kept. I'm sorry I make fun of you. I'm sorry I'm a bad friend. I'm sorry for not letting it out. I'm sorry for complaining. I'm sorry for being stupid. I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I'm sorry for the past, and I'm sorry for the future. I'm sorry for what I've done, and what I will do.
I can't turn back the clock, and I can't change what I've done.
Everything I do, I probably hurt someone. I lie, almost daily. I'm so accustomed to the lies I tell. I'm a terrible person, and I use people, and I abuse the fact that I can. I take for granted everything and everyone around me, which makes me sad, which leads to me being a more terrible person.
I understand how people hate me, but I don't understand how the people around me cannot. Like, there's people that should HATE me with their whole being. and they don't. I don't particularly understand anything.
At this point in time, I'm not too sure what's wrong with me. I feel like everything I do gets backfired. Like, I try to be happy, that doesn't work, the only person that makes me truly happy, broke my heart. I have a doctors appointment on Thursday, on the bright side of things. The things I usually do, are totally stuff that bug me now. Computer/internet being one of them.
I'm sorry, if I've ever hurt you, or if I've ever done something / said something mean to you.
This blog is about nothing, its for me to put down all my thoughts, because its "the healthy thing to do".
Thank you for reading it if you did...
bolded are for a certain friend of mine..
I'm sorry. D:
Awww,
Loverly, it's not your fault. We all make mistakes, we just have to pick up and move along. In this ever-evolving world, we don't have time to regret. Remember the good, being sorry for the bad.. its all we can do. I love you to china and back, and I could never hate you, I don't understand how anyone could. Just remember, things can only get better before they get worse. "Look at something in the distance, and run for it like nothing else matters." Find that one thing you want, and just go for it. Forget the bullsh*t, forget the fights. Just pick a few things you want, and get them. Just remember, you're beautfiul.. no one can take that away from you. We all have things that are wrong with us, but we can either learn to live with them, or improve them. I think it's amazing you're going to try and fix things in order to feel as though you're a better person.
Keep that amazing self of yours going, stay happy.. I'll love you always.. no matter what happens.
( L )
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elle., January 24th, 2008 at 07:31:13am
Admitting what you have done wrong and knowing that it was wrong makes you a lot better person than most. Its hard to come to grips with the fact that you are wrong or you have done something terrible.
But the past is the past...if you are willing to make changes in order to not make the same mistakes, than thats all than anyone could ask for. No ones perfect, but as long as you are trying than you shouldn't expect anymore out of yourself and no one else should.
Jessie.Tastic!, January 22nd, 2008 at 08:35:46pm