I am in love.
With a boy.
on accident.
*sigh*
He was just a friend and then i just all of a sudden had these feelings for him and now im in love with him.
But he doesnt love me back.
which happens to really, really suck.
and as a matter of fact i hate him for it. i pretty much hate him. but i love him so much too.
If i went to heaven it would be hell, because HE wouldnt be there.
i want to tell him, but its like i have ran out of chances.
and he goes on vacation in two weeks.
But whatever.
With love,
Xcore: Cupcake [Sugar]
on accident.
*sigh*
He was just a friend and then i just all of a sudden had these feelings for him and now im in love with him.
But he doesnt love me back.
which happens to really, really suck.
and as a matter of fact i hate him for it. i pretty much hate him. but i love him so much too.
If i went to heaven it would be hell, because HE wouldnt be there.
i want to tell him, but its like i have ran out of chances.
and he goes on vacation in two weeks.
But whatever.
With love,
Xcore: Cupcake [Sugar]
Mehh... i think i get this sh*t *hugs*
I actually disagree with TheCowSaidMoo on this one, i'm one year older and have been in a similar predicament to you for about 8 months. I have gone through being close as close to him, being torn up when he was going out with my freind but accepting it because he was happy, then being freaking lost when they broke up and he was heartbroken... oh and now, when we'd become freinds again but had started to drift apart, he's found out how i feel.
He no longer talks to me properly. I think it's freaked him out how all that time when we were freinds i felt that strongly about him.
It's all gone now.
Sorry for loading off on you... maybe a lesson can be learned.
If you really love him, you can just enjoy being around him, his freindship, and savour every moment and every smile and every hug and every laugh that you share as freinds. And if he tells you ever that he loves you, then you are a very lucky girl.
Boo Radley, February 13th, 2007 at 02:44:04pm
It's infatuation. Trust me, dude, it happens. You feel like you'll burst with the feeling but you can't tell anyone and it's just a mess. Trust me. And trust AndTheCowSaidMoo, she knows...she helps me.
(she's an old lady)
lyrical_mess, February 12th, 2007 at 08:21:21am
You have a crush. At 12, I dont think you can fully comprehend what 'love' is. That is to say whether 'love' truly exists at all (I have issues with 'love').
Lesson 1- theres a thin line between 'love' and hate.
Lesson 2- it hurts
Lesson 3- at your age, you'll be in 'love' with someone else by the end of the week.
AndTheCowSaidMoo, February 12th, 2007 at 05:25:56am