What makes an outcast?
What exactly makes a person become separated from the rest in their class/team/club? It is just the way they look, lack of humor, shyness, or what?
If you haven't already guessed, I'm a bit of an outcast. I'm not very open to a lot of people maybe... Um... 5? It goes vice-versa as well. Even with some of my not-as-close friends, they'll talk and say, "I'll tell you later," or "I'd rather not say.".
I respect their privacy, it's just that a person likes to feel included. Today in English class I sat by myself with one of my friends while working on a report. Everybody else had gotten into their own big groups and started to talk and laugh. It made me sad to know that I couldn't talk and laugh with them. Any group I joined would stop talking and die out. So, not even trying, I stayed where I was.
I'll be glad to go to high school where nobody knows me and I can start off frresh. But what if I'm an outcast there too? I can't stand being on the outside. It kills me on the inside. I honestly don't know what I'm doing wrong. It makes me feel ugly and like a bad person, but I'm pretty sure I'm not. Or so says my friends, but I'm pretty sure they wouldn't be even close to brutaly honest.
I just don't know what's wrong. So... Yeah. Thank for reading. ofrgive me for it being extremely long and vent-ish.
If you haven't already guessed, I'm a bit of an outcast. I'm not very open to a lot of people maybe... Um... 5? It goes vice-versa as well. Even with some of my not-as-close friends, they'll talk and say, "I'll tell you later," or "I'd rather not say.".
I respect their privacy, it's just that a person likes to feel included. Today in English class I sat by myself with one of my friends while working on a report. Everybody else had gotten into their own big groups and started to talk and laugh. It made me sad to know that I couldn't talk and laugh with them. Any group I joined would stop talking and die out. So, not even trying, I stayed where I was.
I'll be glad to go to high school where nobody knows me and I can start off frresh. But what if I'm an outcast there too? I can't stand being on the outside. It kills me on the inside. I honestly don't know what I'm doing wrong. It makes me feel ugly and like a bad person, but I'm pretty sure I'm not. Or so says my friends, but I'm pretty sure they wouldn't be even close to brutaly honest.
I just don't know what's wrong. So... Yeah. Thank for reading. ofrgive me for it being extremely long and vent-ish.
I am really sorry, but I can't help you with this.
I am going through the same situation.
brompton cocktail., March 12th, 2008 at 09:24:33am
it doesn't matter if you are in high school or not, everywhere is going to be the same. i agree with the other person to an extent. its really just what you make it. i'm pretty much an outcast too, but i choose that. maybe not quite consciencely, but still. if i wanted to i could join one of those circles and start talking. but i know i'd feel a little lost because they would be talking about something i didn't know about. and no matter what, i'm more comfortable around my few friends than with a big group of people i barely know.
i'm a senior in high school and i'm still in your situation. but thats because i want it, i don't want to be the same as everyone else because i know the conversation i have with my one friend in the back of the room is going to be wayyy more exciting than the one the big group of people have. i embrace my outcastness because i'm finally over trying to fit in. sometimes you just can't without changing who you are.
you should feel comfortable as you are right now. if not, maybe you should go sit with the big group of people. conversations stop, i'm sure they aren't because of you. just be yourself around them and they will like accept you once they see how awesome you are. =]
suburban.zombie, March 11th, 2008 at 09:31:19pm
It's all in your head Laura. It really is.
I'm there in the circles, and the topic just happens to end.
You might need to assert yourself more, start up conversations. Don't wait for people to come to you, go to them. Even if the jerkwads at our school bug you, we only have like 35 more school days left. Don't let them get to you.
You're an amazing person. You're sweet, kind, funny, nice, amazing, understanding, beautiful, wonderful, tremendous, incredible, fantastic, awesome, brave, couragous, witty, and I ran out of adjectives. Anyone who doesn't see that isn't worth your time.
It's all in your head.
Tyler Durden, March 11th, 2008 at 06:14:41pm