Losing my Virginity to that monster that caused my death threat
yeah...exactly what the title says, is true.
he was a monster.
he didnt care.
he just wanted to get in my pants. and he knew the right way too: to make me feel all good and stuff. and then risked my own family cause i snuck him in my house.
how dumb can you seriously get?
i mean seriously.
he ruined my life, i ruined his.
he's going to jail because he is 19.
it's fair right? i mean, he stole everything from me when i thought i loved him and that he loved me.
i lost all trust in my family when they found out.
it sucks...my life.
like my mom made me switch schools which was a huge pain. and it was also very painful.
and im grounded from my myspace, email, facebook, and this but im on anyway at a friends house.
but from all the stress with the guy going to jail, the trial thats gonna happen any time now, and the craziness of switching schools and never seeing my friends again, was wayyyyy too much.
so i did te only think i thought i could do: SUICIDE
i overdosed on my depression pills.
but later when they were starting to work, i didnt want to die anymore. seriosuly.
so long story short, i was saved by the skin of my teeth.
and i got to go back to my old school because all of this happened.
i made a mistake and now im paying for it.
any suggestions? please....i need some kind of guidence.
he was a monster.
he didnt care.
he just wanted to get in my pants. and he knew the right way too: to make me feel all good and stuff. and then risked my own family cause i snuck him in my house.
how dumb can you seriously get?
i mean seriously.
he ruined my life, i ruined his.
he's going to jail because he is 19.
it's fair right? i mean, he stole everything from me when i thought i loved him and that he loved me.
i lost all trust in my family when they found out.
it sucks...my life.
like my mom made me switch schools which was a huge pain. and it was also very painful.
and im grounded from my myspace, email, facebook, and this but im on anyway at a friends house.
but from all the stress with the guy going to jail, the trial thats gonna happen any time now, and the craziness of switching schools and never seeing my friends again, was wayyyyy too much.
so i did te only think i thought i could do: SUICIDE
i overdosed on my depression pills.
but later when they were starting to work, i didnt want to die anymore. seriosuly.
so long story short, i was saved by the skin of my teeth.
and i got to go back to my old school because all of this happened.
i made a mistake and now im paying for it.
any suggestions? please....i need some kind of guidence.
awww!! im sorry </3
X_d.i.n.o.s.a.u.r_x, April 2nd, 2008 at 04:26:19pm
talk to a close friend, it sure helps with me when things get bumpy (no pun intended)
but Ozzy sure is right!
Sherlock Holmes, March 30th, 2008 at 08:15:06pm
Oh my God, Lauren.
Honey, idk what to say.
But I surely agree with Ozzy.
ily even if we never talk anymore.
Nicole
brompton cocktail., March 29th, 2008 at 08:05:28am
Concentrate on getting yourself better. The guy, well he knew exactly what he was doing and what the consequences could be, he has to live with that. He took advantage of you and I'm guessing when your parents found out they had him charged with statutory rape or something. That is exactly what he did, regardless of how you felt about it at the time.
The reality is, your parents did what they did to protect you, and I would do the same for my daughter. An adult knows better, there is no excuse. You are not responsible nor to blame for his actions or choices, he alone bears that.
As for yourself, it is important for you to try to work through all the issues raised, both within yourself and with your family. If you can see a councillor do so, it does help if you want it to. Work on repairing yourself, everything else is out of your hands now. I wish you all the best.
Grandma, March 29th, 2008 at 04:31:44am