Is Anybody Listening, Can They Hear Me When I Call, Shooting Signals In The Air, Cause I Need Somebody's Help.
Is anybody listening?
Can you hear me when I call?
Shooting signals in the air,
Cause I need somebody's help.
I can't make it on my own,
So I'm giving up myself
Is anybody listening?
Listening.
It feels as if no one cares a lot of the time. Especially when those words are said to my face or typed to me. You shouldn't say that to some one, especially if you don't know whats going on. Often "buddies" of mine tell me no one cares and to shut up my life is perfect. This hurts me a lot, more than they know.
I've been stranded here and I'm miles away.
Making signals hoping they save me
I lock myself inside these walls
Cause out there I'm always wrong.
I don't think I'm gonna make it
So while I'm sitting here on the eve of my defeat
I write this letter and hope it saves me
It seems like I've been in this place far too long and so far from others. I've tried getting help by talking but it doesn't work so I quit talking, I put on a facade. I pretend to be something I'm not or I pretend to smile. About 98% of my smiles are fake. It seems in life what I do I'm always wrong. Some one's always there to call out my mistakes. No matter what I do.
Is anybody listening?
Can you hear me when I call?
Shooting signals in the air
Cuz I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own
So I'm giving up myself
Is anybody listening?
Listening.
It seems like few will listen, and those who do often push me away telling me how perfect everything is and to shut up and feel bad for them. I'm sorry you think your poor and your daddy is making $80,000 a year. Switch me? Mines making about $7,500. No matter what signs I show everyone walks by me, thinking i don't need help that I can make it on my own.
I'm stuck in my own head and I'm oceans away
Would anybody notice if I chose to stay?
I'll send an S.O.S. tonight
And wonder if I will survive
How in the hell did I get so far away this time?
So now I'm sitting here
The time of my departure's near
I say a prayer please, someone save me
I've been told before that no one would notice or care if I just disappeared somewhere, vanishing into the horizon. Often I find myself miles away, staring into space in class, thinking of other things. I often think I'm just going to slip off the edge....and lose my grip. I have no sure footing.
Is anybody listening?
Can you hear me when I call?
Shooting signals in the air
Cuz I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own
So I'm giving up myself
Is anybody listening?
Listening?
I know my family isn't listening. They can't listen to anyone without making them feel even worse. They have to start an argument. They need to pick at the little things they used to not care about. All the glue from previous mistakes has dried and crumbled, creating a mess of broken shards.
I'm lost here-I can't make it on my own
I don't want to die alone
I'm so scared
Drowning now
Reaching out
Holding onto everything I know
Crying Out
Dying now
Need some help
I fear I'll end up alone forever. That my family will disconnect from me anymore. I'm not sure what to do though. Honestly, sometimes I just want to be numb or vanish from this Earth.
Is anybody listening?
Can you hear me when I call?
Shooting signals in the air
I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own
I'm givin' up myself
Is anybody listening?
This time is difficult, especially being a teen. People don't realize how lucky they are to have things they do. They don't realize how not having a functional family can harm a person. I can honestly say I'm not mentally healthy and I know it. I have mental and physical scars that won't ever leave me. Scars that run deep. I've seen things that won't be forgotten, I've felt things that no one should ever feel, I've heard things that no child or person ever wants to hear.
And honestly, I'm waiting for that phone call some day. The one that goes something like this; "Hello,Mrs. And Miss W? I'm afraid I have some bad news. I'm sorry to inform you but your husband and father was in a car crash. He didn't survive. It's believed he was drunk or high when it occurred. If theres anything I can do please don't hesitate to tell me.I'm sorry for your loss.".
I'm just not sure when that day will be...
You don't need counseling. You need to do something about your situation. Everybody has problems, some worse than yours. I'm not sure what you're trying to achieve with these blogs of yours because we cannot help you financially, emotionally or physically. You live in one of the most thriving countries in the world, you have hope and opportunities, so do something with your life. Believe me, when I finally matured in my life and realized writing blogs and complaining to my friends didn't help, my life became exponentially more productive.
whatwasithinking, May 17th, 2008 at 12:05:26am
EW! That's Good Charlotte! For Pete's sake, that's disgusting!!!
L Lawliet, May 16th, 2008 at 11:05:13pm
You should talk to people who are in the flesh. Publicizing your problems on the internet won't help, especially because we're teenagers who have gone through the same or similar things.
Andreanus., May 16th, 2008 at 03:08:08pm
Well Try harder
Its life, Help isnt magically gonna appear right in front of you. You need to stop complaining and start doing something about whats going on with you. You have to try harder then you are doing cause i see its not helping you. And you cant blame other people either for trying to help you. Their trying the best they can to help you and this is what you give them. Why dont you stop feeling sorry for yourself and start to do something about it.
sorry but its true, and it hurts. Thats what life is. Its good and bad. Some parts of you life is good and other parts its bad. But you'll get through it, you just need to try harder. Life wont change until you do something about it.
Rain, May 16th, 2008 at 03:02:02pm
You could try to get out and meet some people. The right person may show up. Try your best to positive, I'm sure you'll make it through. ): -Hug-
Skippy., May 16th, 2008 at 09:42:27am
=\ awh...*hugs*
trust me, you aren't alone with the way you feel. everyone is going through something, believe it or not. you can get through this, just like so many have before you. many of them have been saying the same things; i can't make it, i can't hold on, i can't get through this, i want everything to end etc. but they made it, and you can too. don't give up. don't give up on the people that love you. don't let the people that constantly put you down feel like they've one. it will only give them satisfaction possibly, and they'll do it again to someone else. stand up to them and show them how strong you are. keep fighting back at whatever the world throws at you. there's an old saying "God never gives you anything you can't handle." you were put into this situation for a reason. in the end it'll make you stronger for everything. I feel lot's of the reasons people are putting you down is because they're angry themselves, and have no one to listen to either. so they take it out on people, and they don't realise the damage they're doing. you need to let the people who are hurting you know, that it isn't funny, and you aren't planning on taking their sh*t anymore. you don't deserve it, no one does. people are always there for you, whether it's on GSB, another site, or even in person. you just got to find the right people, and let the right people in. life is full of heartaches, mental and physical pain, hardships, confusion and tears. but live for the few moments that you smile. the more you believe in those moments, and try to make them happen more often, the more often they will be real. it's so difficult to, but try looking on the brightside of life whenever you can. I'm starting to be able to do that, and it makes things a lot easier to cope with. think of your future, think of what you might want your kids to be like and look like. think of who your husband will be and how much he'll love you for you. think of a future career you'd like, and stop at nothing to get it. don't let these things get in the way of your happiness. you have the right to pursue happiness, and you deserve it. please hang in there, stay strong. i know so many people tell you this, but it's so true. it gets better. being a teenager is the worst part of life. it really is. it's full of hormonal changes and plus adding family issues onto that pile. plus school issues. these things will hurt you, they will affect you, but in the end alll of this fighting back will be worth it. "short time pain for long time gain" it may seem like a long time right now, but your life isn't even close to being over. once this is all said and done, you'll be happy. you'll be able to wake up and say "I like myself, I like life." and you'll have a smile on your face, for real this time. know I'm always here to talk, and you're loved by many, even if you don't see it. I'm sorry this was so long. just hang in there. I care<3
Bubble Wrap., May 15th, 2008 at 09:58:32pm
I've tried...People don't listen. Counseling didn't help me. I need my dad to stop...
Heroin Bob, May 15th, 2008 at 09:55:49pm
You need to talk to someone about this, seriously. No one can help you over the internet, you need physical help.
Kurtni, May 15th, 2008 at 09:55:03pm