soy un perdedor
i've repeatedly made attempts to try and be heard, to be nice and get along with them,
but they keep ignoring me, like they don't want me there, and they most likely don't.
This whole year has been kind of torturous for me, school-wise.
i wanted this year to be one of the best, seeing as i'm starting VCE in 2009 and this is my last year to muck around.
at first i was quiet and sort of uncomfortable around some girls in my class, i hardly knew them. but then it just started getting ridiculous.
and i tried, i honestly tried to get to know them and make friends, but apparantly it wasn't good enough. i never spoke up, i didn't really make many efforts...thats what i've been hearing from my only friend in the class.
so i tried again, with "more effort", but it still didn't work, so i just gave up.
but now i look around at my classmates, and they all seem to be as close as they could possibly get. they say "this is the best class i've ever been in" and i wonder why that didn't happen for me. i feel left out in everything we do as a class. they seem to be having the times of their lives and i'm left sitting in the corner with noone to talk to. even my friend leaves me to go and sit with them, and to be honest, it scares the shit out of me. what's going to happen to me next year when i'm all by myself?
i seem to have lost the ability to make friends, well, at least thats what it feels like.
D:
but they keep ignoring me, like they don't want me there, and they most likely don't.
This whole year has been kind of torturous for me, school-wise.
i wanted this year to be one of the best, seeing as i'm starting VCE in 2009 and this is my last year to muck around.
at first i was quiet and sort of uncomfortable around some girls in my class, i hardly knew them. but then it just started getting ridiculous.
and i tried, i honestly tried to get to know them and make friends, but apparantly it wasn't good enough. i never spoke up, i didn't really make many efforts...thats what i've been hearing from my only friend in the class.
so i tried again, with "more effort", but it still didn't work, so i just gave up.
but now i look around at my classmates, and they all seem to be as close as they could possibly get. they say "this is the best class i've ever been in" and i wonder why that didn't happen for me. i feel left out in everything we do as a class. they seem to be having the times of their lives and i'm left sitting in the corner with noone to talk to. even my friend leaves me to go and sit with them, and to be honest, it scares the shit out of me. what's going to happen to me next year when i'm all by myself?
i seem to have lost the ability to make friends, well, at least thats what it feels like.
D:
I'm homeschooled, but I can't tell you how many concerts and sh*t I've gone to where nobody seems to like me. I wish I knew what to say, but I have no answers. All I can recommend is giving it more time.
btw, I love how you used the lyric from Loser in the title ;)
MikeIsMine!!!, November 2nd, 2008 at 11:48:58pm
that is exactly how i feel.
like my friends are all going off making new friends, and i seem to be stupid at doing the same or something. most people in my classes don't seem to like me and i just kind of talk to a few people, like if we have to or whatever for class.
Kr!sta's Inferno, November 2nd, 2008 at 12:05:55pm
thats how i felt in high school.
then i got to college...and it was the best thing that ever happened to me.
i have so many friends now, its crazy.
just remember when you're older you'll go from the unpopular girl to having lots of friends =] you'll most likely find it easier to make friends. if you go to college make sure you get a room mate that you don't know. if you go to work, you have to spend lots of time with those people, you'll make friends. don't worry.
do you listen to beck? or do you just know spanish. lol.
suburban.zombie, October 31st, 2008 at 01:23:51am
i know how you feel, i'm in the sort of same situation .. Lots of luck with it <3
GREENDAYxMCR, October 30th, 2008 at 04:13:32pm
That happens to me whenever we have to do groupwork.
I hate it too.
PCG, October 30th, 2008 at 03:53:46pm
and i know what it feels like when you try so hard and still no one likes you.
it feels like sh*t.
but we cant change ourselves for anyone else.
princess consuela, October 30th, 2008 at 11:02:57am
it's hard isn't it.
i have a similar situation to you.
However I found that if you think of it this way:
When you go to work and have a job in whatever field, everyone there is interested in similar things to you, otherwise they wouldn't be doing that job. So then it should be easier to make friends as you all have similar interests and can talk about something.
It should make you feel a bit better? It worked for me...
I'm sorry if that made no sense.
Also the people at school, most of them are prob. immature? By the time you are at university/work everyone should have grown up a bit!
Sarah!, October 30th, 2008 at 09:46:59am
i know exactly how you feel.
everyone at my class seems to hate me.
well ok a few of them talks to me, but they're not my friends.
i really want just a few good friends, but it seems impossible.
princess consuela, October 30th, 2008 at 08:22:03am