What happens if i break?
Yea this one is really idk what to call this Art, Life, or Personal issue. To me it goes into all three but sadly i have to choose one category so i choose Personal issues.
Just today i wrote this..i dont know if i finally snapped or not. I just dont know. I just thought it up so yea. It means a lot. But i want you to think when you read this to yourself or selves. Its in Red for a purpose. U gotta figure that out for yourself. NOTE: ITS NOT A SUICIDE NOTE. More of a poemish thing.
Everyone is better off without me. I know its true. I can see it in most of your eyes.
Everyone thinks I dont have problems but i do its just i dont "let them out" Cause u know why its hard to trust anyone anymore. and plus no one really listens to me. They just call me an attention getter and what not to my face. They only pretend to care, they only pretend to be my friend. I know its true.
I'm better off not around. they wont miss me. My parents wont, my so called "Friends" even wouldnt probably care. Cause when i talk to anyone one of them they just walk away or just nod and stay quiet. I cry many nights but you know what that doesnt help. I cant even show my own emotion in my house without being yelled at.
So what am i suppose to do huh? just sit here. or Die!
I rather just die. It'll be a little better for one or all of you.
But hey i would kiss your guy's feet but after all i'm just garbage to you all.
Why live life from Dream to Dream, and dread the day when Dreaming ends.
We're creatures of the Underworld We (Nobodies) Cant Afford to Love.
Somebodies Find Love. Nobodies Dont.
Just a Nobody in a World full of Somebodies.
Its Russian Roulette with no Luck.
Welcome to the life of Demons and Angels where the Angels are loved while the Demons are treated like dirt. Ripped from the world doing the unthinkable for love and attention just like the pretty Angels we wish to be.
Alone in my room crying no one to listen.
Saying good-bye, good-bye world
See ya if i make it.
I dont belong anywhere, that is true. So what if i go insane will you still Love me?
If you forget me will you still Love me?
When i die...WILL YOU STILL LOVE ME!?
Its true You guys have or had someone to Love but what about the ppl who dont. You say it'll happen but it doesnt you lie. Just like the rest. I've waited and tried for long enough.
I dont know what to do anymore...
Sorry...u guys...I'm so...sorry...
So what do you think about it? I want your views on what i wrote. I truely want the truth from you guys. I just dont know much anymore. i dont know whats going on in my personal life and or other things. I'm confused or just is about to snap or go insane.
Please read this and comment it i truely appericate it. Thanks for the ones that do it helps that some ppl care on this site to comment my stuff. Do you think I need help?
<3
Just today i wrote this..i dont know if i finally snapped or not. I just dont know. I just thought it up so yea. It means a lot. But i want you to think when you read this to yourself or selves. Its in Red for a purpose. U gotta figure that out for yourself. NOTE: ITS NOT A SUICIDE NOTE. More of a poemish thing.
Everyone is better off without me. I know its true. I can see it in most of your eyes.
Everyone thinks I dont have problems but i do its just i dont "let them out" Cause u know why its hard to trust anyone anymore. and plus no one really listens to me. They just call me an attention getter and what not to my face. They only pretend to care, they only pretend to be my friend. I know its true.
I'm better off not around. they wont miss me. My parents wont, my so called "Friends" even wouldnt probably care. Cause when i talk to anyone one of them they just walk away or just nod and stay quiet. I cry many nights but you know what that doesnt help. I cant even show my own emotion in my house without being yelled at.
So what am i suppose to do huh? just sit here. or Die!
I rather just die. It'll be a little better for one or all of you.
But hey i would kiss your guy's feet but after all i'm just garbage to you all.
Why live life from Dream to Dream, and dread the day when Dreaming ends.
We're creatures of the Underworld We (Nobodies) Cant Afford to Love.
Somebodies Find Love. Nobodies Dont.
Just a Nobody in a World full of Somebodies.
Its Russian Roulette with no Luck.
Welcome to the life of Demons and Angels where the Angels are loved while the Demons are treated like dirt. Ripped from the world doing the unthinkable for love and attention just like the pretty Angels we wish to be.
Alone in my room crying no one to listen.
Saying good-bye, good-bye world
See ya if i make it.
I dont belong anywhere, that is true. So what if i go insane will you still Love me?
If you forget me will you still Love me?
When i die...WILL YOU STILL LOVE ME!?
Its true You guys have or had someone to Love but what about the ppl who dont. You say it'll happen but it doesnt you lie. Just like the rest. I've waited and tried for long enough.
I dont know what to do anymore...
Sorry...u guys...I'm so...sorry...
So what do you think about it? I want your views on what i wrote. I truely want the truth from you guys. I just dont know much anymore. i dont know whats going on in my personal life and or other things. I'm confused or just is about to snap or go insane.
Please read this and comment it i truely appericate it. Thanks for the ones that do it helps that some ppl care on this site to comment my stuff. Do you think I need help?
<3
It is so great an deep that is the best poem I have heard. An I understand it people just don't understand the damge there doing until it is to late I don't think its a suicide note I think it is just the way you want to exspress your feelings an its a good way to if you keep it all bottled up yuo'll just explode on any one no matter what they do. I have done that to many times an feel lkie an ass for it.
Meli!, January 31st, 2009 at 01:37:34am
Its teenage angst Paige. You havev potential to, uplift to that platform. I dont want you hurt, please. Im here for you always, i just wish i never stayed so far away.
Much love. <3
Let's Live A Dream, January 6th, 2009 at 10:24:22am
I don't think you need help. I just think you're a normal teenager.
The way I understand it, is that you fancy a guy and he doesn't acknowledge you. You also express a want for attention from parents. I understand how you feel in a sense. I come froma large family and the attention I got was null and void - non existant. And it annoyed me, to be honest. But I was only 15 when I started to act upon what I thought was "rejection" from my loved ones. I couldn't understand how I loved them even though they "ignored" me.
They weren't ignoring me. They did love me They were just preoccupied and trying to control their own lives too.
All I can say is welcome to reality. You're only 16, you've got a lot of growing up to do and I feel what your experiencing now is just normal teenage things. You're frustrated, you're angry- but you don't know what about. You know something annoys you, but I bet you can't figure out a realisitc solution.
I personally hope this isn't a suicide note. I've seen you around GSB, you're a really nice girl and I have no time for suicide. I really hope you're not contemplating it. It's a unjust waste of a privillage.
Dr.Hymen, January 6th, 2009 at 03:18:10am
O_O Mindy, like, said it all.
it was good.
<33333333
Pretty Rave Girl, January 5th, 2009 at 09:20:54pm
I liked it, its sounds more like a song for me O:
Its great, Paige.
and don't worry, we all go through this kind of stuff at a certain time in our life's ._.
yeah, i think you should open up to someone, talk to someone that will really listen to you, try to trust more on people O:
there's many many more stuff that I wish i could say to you
but i cant, my english wont let me T__T
come on, Paige O:
i love you! :D
Spunkii Strife, January 5th, 2009 at 08:40:09pm
...is this a suicide note? if it is, please, please think before you try anything. yes, life may suck now, but nothing lasts forever. with the bad comes the good.
and i think that the foundation of this is completely awe inspiring and romantic. just a bit of polishing and it'd be flawless.
and i don't know if you need help. no one but you can decide that. it's completely up to you. it's your right as a human to choose whether to live or die.
get famous, January 5th, 2009 at 08:36:34pm
I agree with what Mindy said. &Talking about your feelings helps. :]
x
Sunshine., January 5th, 2009 at 08:36:08pm
I think this is beautiful, and very sad.
It's a kind of free form poetry
It's human emotion and angsty sadness personified into words.
It's angry, but it's something else too. I can't put my finger on it though.
The second to last block is my favourite. It's the flash of light from a sword in battle, or the last note of a symphony drawn out.
It's raw human emotion. I love it.
and I don't think you need help, so much as to talk to people about your feelings more. It really does help. Or, failing that, poetry and music are good ways to let go.
I liked this. <3
Tyler Durden, January 5th, 2009 at 08:09:34pm