I'm done.

You did to to me again. You blew me off for your popular friend. You don't say a word to me in school, but yet you have the nerve to call me after school and think I would actually pick up and talk to you dumb a**. You even have it in your MSN personal message asking if I'm mad at you. What do you think? I'm sick of people like you thinking they can use me to be whatever they want me to be, whenever they want me to be it. It's over. I'm not going to be your fool anymore. I'm not going to do your homework for you anymore. I'm not going to hang out with you when you're bored and no one else wants to put up with your bullcrap. You never cared about me. I could be sitting there crying my eyes out over something that happened, but you wouldn't care. Even my friend that I've known for only a few months cares more about me than you and I've known you since sixth grade when you STOLE my homework and put YOUR name on it as a 'joke.' Hahaha. funny, aren't you? I should have known that's all this 'friendship' would ever mean to you. Best friends? Best friends don't get all mad at you for no apparent reason. Best friends don't USE you to make themselves better. If I had the courage to actually stand up for myself to you, this would have ended a long time ago. My mom was right about you all along. I was just too stupid to listen to her.
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And as for you? You're a mornon. You've always done this to me, but I've accepted it. At least you don't use me for bettering your grades, I'll give you that. You just always lie about me to other people and put that moron before me. You're kind of like me. You don't have the courage to stand up to yourself. Your bitch-ass friends that hate me because of lies YOU told them about me can talk all the s**t they want about me. They can call me 'scary', 'fat', 'obese' and whatever else they can think of, but when I say things about THEM? Oh God. Tell the guidance consulor on me! Make me look like the b***h in the situation when in reality, it's YOU and YOUR FRIENDS that are the bitches in this situation. When you see the girl that hates me in the hall way, I'm a peice of shit. Someone better has come along. Someone more what? Fun, exciting, funny? Well that's bull because this girlis annoying as all hell. You made me eat my lunch ALONE because you couldn't tell your friends that you alread TOLD me you'd sit with me. You can have them I guess I kind of feel bad for you, though. At least I can defend myself to some degree, at least I don't lie about how none of my friends talk to me; they really don't talk to me. It seemed like your bff! was talking to you just fine. I hope someday you can find it in yourself to tell that girl that she doesn't decide your friends for you; you do. You're almost seventeen years old. You mean to tell me that you still let your friend decide who can and can't be your friend? You're going to have a terrible life because you let other people decide everything for you. What would you do if someone gave you the choice of life or death? Would you listen so stupidly to the person that said death, or decide for yourself? I don't know, and I don't want to know anymore.


I'm done. I'm done trying to please both of you. I'm done being used. If I have to die alone for people to stop using me my whole life, then so be it. I might be overreacting with that part, but I'm really shy in real life. It's hard for me to make friends that would be better than these people.