Momsy

Why is it that adults always think they know so much more than anyone that is younger? I understand that they have lived longer, but that doesn't mean that they have experienced everything. Especially when they have no idea what you’re going through. How can they possibly offer advice or guidance?

My mom refuses to accept the fact that I’m a lesbian. She says that’s not who I was or who I am. She thinks that it will “ruin” my life. I don’t understand what the big deal is. It’s not like I’m every other 15 year old that I go to school with that’s talking about smoking, drinking, doing drugs, and keeping the baby. I don’t have any of those problems. But, I’m still, in her eyes, a “trouble maker.”

My mother keeps telling me that nobody wants this life for me. But, that isn’t true. Doesn’t it matter what I want? It is my life after all. If I do end up ruining it, wouldn’t that be my problem? I’ve tried telling her this, but she insists that I’m too young to decide.

She keeps bringing up my great aunt that recently passed away. She tells me that her life was difficult in the lesbian life style and that she didn’t truly find happiness until it was too late. My great aunt married my uncle after she had already been diagnosed with cancer. She’s putting words in my Tia Mickey’s mouth. She isn’t here to speak for her self, so my mom seems to think that it’s alright for her to say what she might say. But, I’m not so sure that is the case. I never got the chance to talk to my aunt about this.

About a year ago, I got into trouble with my girlfriend at the time. We were caught kissing at a school function and the whole thing was blown out of proportion. Of course, my mother was furious. When my aunt came down to visit, I was supposed to tell her. My dad sat by me and practically yelled at me, because I wouldn’t tell her. I didn’t tell her, because I wanted to hear exactly what she had to say about it. Not the parent modified version. When I was telling her good-bye she hugged me and whispered in my ear, “Don’t ever let anyone tell you to be someone your not.” That was all she ever told me about that. So, I don’t see where, as my parents say, she wanted the chance to tell me how difficult her life had been.

My mom has recently taken everything that I have, just so that I wouldn’t continue seeing my current girlfriend. She thinks that taking away all that I have is going to keep me from seeing her. This girl means the world to me, and I’m not going to let my mom get in the way of my happiness. I’m set on this girl. Although my mother may not know it yet, she’s going to have to get used to the fact that Jillian will always be apart of my life.

All of these little things that my mother doesn't agree with, brings out this horrible person that I no longer love. I feel as if calling her mom doesn't make sense. I feel a little like Anne Frank and believe that a pet name such as hers for her mother... "Momsy," is more suitable.
Posted on February 21st, 2009 at 11:44pm

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