Outcast cons?

I'm a so-called "outcast" and would most likely be labeled a "punk/anarchist". That's ok with me, I mean, I don't give a darn about what people label me as nor what they think of me. But I mean when you're different from the rest of the world, you at least would like your family to support you, if not to just accept you and leave it be! Well...I wish that'd be my case.

It mostly started when I cut my own hair (teehee). I was err...9 years old and my hair was about waist-long. I got sick of being the cookie-cutter girl they wanted me to be. Sooooo i cut it all off, up to my neck. And my mother got pissed, gave me a lecture and kept calling me a boy with long hair. Eh, after a while, it passed and she started "accepting" me in a way, in fact she let me dye chunks my hair pink for my 10th birthday, since i wouldn't stop begging her to do so.

Then, I came out about being agnostic. Woah, I was lectured soo badly. So, I was sent to some crappy religion class in which they refused to answer questions I had. I ended up being kicked out of the class. And more lectures and she...attempted to ground me xD. My agnostic thoughts kind of drifted away and my best friend ended up making me realize I was atheist. I told my mother and she called me The Antichrist. -.- As you may imagine, she told all the family and ugh...everyone inches away. I don't mind that tho. xD.

So now, I'm currently out of the country, visiting the family, and i've been getting into heated arguements with my antiquated aunts. Arguements about nearly everything I do. They claim I don't accept myself as I am and I'm insecure 'cause I dye my hair. That I'm destined to be a tramp for wearing a ripped Sex Pistols shirt (LOL had to buy that shirt without my mothers consent). That I'm definitely going to hell for several reasons. 1. The music I listen to (Sex Pistols, Green Day). 2. I dress in a "scandelous" manner. 3. I ADORE blood and gore. 4. IM ATHEIST. 5. I "alter" myself. I honestly try not to disrespect any of my family but I mean, I lose patience at some point. I don't see why people can't hold on to their traditionalist ways while having an open mind!

I accept everyone with a real personality. But if I call someone a hypocrite (ex. the local priest), I get a lecture. Even if I'm right and I explain and all!! I don't understand what's wrong with society! Well, the only people that truly, honestly accepted me were my friends, but I just moved across the friggin' country from Connecticut to Nevada and I'm kind of antisocial and a bit of well...a weirdo as some might say. So I have no friends. And no family. I don't like considering my family as "mine". I just don't feel right accepting it. Maybe my mother since she's a single mother of 2 and she's been through unimaginable circumstances, so yeah, I have a lot of respect for her. But the rest of my family is a hypocrital piece of --. So, I guess I might say I want some respect from that side. I'm sick of being insulted for being myself. How is that even right?! I don't understand. Society is bollocks. Oh well, thanks for reading my uh.."rant" xD I also apologize if there's errors since it's like 4:30 am. Insomnia, i'm telling yah! Oi uhmm, yeah
Posted on March 29th, 2010 at 02:56am

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