Dear My Love Who Once Loved Me
Dear My Love Who Once Loved Me,
So long ago, I loved you and you loved me. We sneaked hugs and kisses in the hall, and had a very memorable day at Dorney. Sometimes I wonder if you remember at all because how cold you are to me now. All I know is that I remember. I remember your lips, and the way we kissed. I remember the good times, and the bad, but most of all I remember how much I loved you.
Whenever I see you, my heart aches. I wish you knew how it felt to see you crush on someone else. Even as I try to move on, you still haunt me. You never leave my mind, you don't even escape my dreams. Why do you torture me with your glistening blue eyes? You watch me sing in our band, but don't admit it. How can you be so calm, when I'm dying in side?
We would be together again if you knew. How much I still love you. If I could make you love me again, I'd do anything for you. Maybe I could be happy again, it'd be when we are in love again. Just remember me when you hear this song: "You know I'm in so deep, you know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to? Do you have to? Do you have to let it linger?"~ "Linger" by The Cranberries
I hope you understand, that when I think of you this song comes to mind: "Remember, whatever. It seems like forever ago. The Regrets are useless in my mind, she's in my head I must confess. The regrets are useless in my mind, she's in my head from so long ago. GO GO GO GO. GO GO GO GO. And in the darkest night, if my memory serves me right. I'll never turn back time, forgetting you but not the time..."~ "Whatsername" by Green Day The only problem is that I love you too much, to forget you. I love you Braby.
Love,
Smexxi
~whatsername589~
So long ago, I loved you and you loved me. We sneaked hugs and kisses in the hall, and had a very memorable day at Dorney. Sometimes I wonder if you remember at all because how cold you are to me now. All I know is that I remember. I remember your lips, and the way we kissed. I remember the good times, and the bad, but most of all I remember how much I loved you.
Whenever I see you, my heart aches. I wish you knew how it felt to see you crush on someone else. Even as I try to move on, you still haunt me. You never leave my mind, you don't even escape my dreams. Why do you torture me with your glistening blue eyes? You watch me sing in our band, but don't admit it. How can you be so calm, when I'm dying in side?
We would be together again if you knew. How much I still love you. If I could make you love me again, I'd do anything for you. Maybe I could be happy again, it'd be when we are in love again. Just remember me when you hear this song: "You know I'm in so deep, you know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to? Do you have to? Do you have to let it linger?"~ "Linger" by The Cranberries
I hope you understand, that when I think of you this song comes to mind: "Remember, whatever. It seems like forever ago. The Regrets are useless in my mind, she's in my head I must confess. The regrets are useless in my mind, she's in my head from so long ago. GO GO GO GO. GO GO GO GO. And in the darkest night, if my memory serves me right. I'll never turn back time, forgetting you but not the time..."~ "Whatsername" by Green Day The only problem is that I love you too much, to forget you. I love you Braby.
Love,
Smexxi
~whatsername589~
Wow, its like you snuck in to my mind when I was 18 and wrote down exactly what I thought about lol. I had very very similar feelings about my ex a few years ago. That being said, I got over it and moved on. Now I'm 20 and with someone I love even more than the stupid jerk who crushed my heart. There's no way to really get over someone you loved that much though. For me, I got over him when he knocked up another girl...that pretty much ended my feelings for him and the desire to want him back almost instantly.
Over time either something like that will happen, or you will just move on on your own. Or, if its meant to be, you two will be together again. Either way, I hope your heartache disappears soon =]
suburban.zombie, June 19th, 2010 at 08:22:15pm
In the nicest way possible, it will pass. By the sounds of it, it's something you need to get over. You're really young, just give it time and wait till someone who feels the same about you comes around, you probably wont be waiting too long with a little luck.
Yay!, June 19th, 2010 at 08:29:20am
I understand what you mean, this is a well written blog and I wish I could help more than just typing on a computer here. I know it hurts, and I hope you get through okay and something can work out.
Ensiferum, June 19th, 2010 at 07:58:02am